“WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?!” I roared, turning around to Massimo. “YOU SAID THAT HE WOULD BE HERE, YOU MOTHERFUCKER! YOU WASTED MY TIME COMING OUT HERE ON A FUCKING WHIM!”
I grabbed hold of him by his collar, causing his face to go beetroot red as he started struggling for air.
“I t – thought he would b – be here, Boss, please!” Massimo struggled.
“You useless piece of shit,” I snarled, letting go of him. “You’re a fucking joke.”
He began wheezing, doing his best to regather his strength, allowing oxygen to fill his windpipes again. I rolled my eyes. I was so fucking pissed off in this moment, I felt like putting a bullet straight through Massimo for the shit-show that was happening right now.
“Wait, Luca, can you hear that?” Fizz breathed, his voice dropping to barely below a whisper.
“Hear what?” I asked, narrowing my eyes.
The room went eerily quiet as we all listened intently.
It was almost like we could hear somebody cough up a sob.
“We’ve got the bastard,” Sergio, another one of the men, whispered.
We made our way closer to the sound, with our guns holstered and ready, ready to make this motherfucker pay. Ready to warn him that we’d give him one more week to pay up the money, before we put a bullet between his eyes.
I took the lead, walking in front of the other men, and made my way into the bedroom. I neared closer to the bed, doing my best not to make a sound…
And the sight of what I saw…
Almost made my heart leap to my throat.
It wasn’t Tariq that was here.
It was two young children, one little boy, and one little girl, with dark hair and brown skin, and they both couldn’t have been older than three years old. They were shivering and crying as their mother held them against their chest, and their mother squeezed them, holding them close to her, promising them that she would protect them with her life.
This was the last thing I expected to fucking see.
“Well, well, well, what do we have here?” Massimo sneered, staring down at them.
I swallowed down a lump that had caught in my throat. Their mother looked up at me with pleading eyes. This was a Muslim family, I could already tell. She was wearing an Islamic headscarf, a hijab, and she looked absolutely terrified at the sight of me. Staring into her brown eyes, it was like I was staring right into her soul. And it was like she was screaming at me to spare her and her children, even though she didn’t need to say a single word to me.
Rule number two of the Cosa Nostra.
Never let innocent people get caught in the crossfire…
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luca
She continued to stare at me, shivering. I had to stand down. This was an innocent woman and her kids, who probably had no part in her husband’s wrongdoings. I had to leave them alone.
“Ya Allah, please protect me and my children,” she whispered, weeping. “Only You are worthy of worship. Please save us, Allah…”
As she called out to her Lord, I could feel my heart twist into knots. It was a foreign feeling that I wasn’t used to. Monsters like me weren’t meant to feel anything.
Fizz had his arms folded, with an uneasy expression on his face. Fizz was Muslim too, although he wasn’t religious. Out of respect for Fizz, I knew I would have to let this go, and go and look for Tariq elsewhere.
But hell, if this Tariq bastard had set his family up to stay here, knowing that we were coming to collect…
Lord knows, I wasn’t going to spare that motherfucker any mercy when I found him. Twisted bastard, making his family face and pay the price for his dirty motherfucking deeds.
“Stand down,” Fizz hissed. “Leave them alone. Let’s get out of here.”
He made his way to the mother and his children, crouching down. “Nobody’s going to harm you. Don’t worry. You’re going to be fine.”
The mother gave him a feeble nod. “Jazakallahu Khairan,” she breathed, meaning May Allah reward you with goodness.
Fizz gave her a reassuring nod, before getting back up on his feet and joining me.
I continued to sob, screaming and screaming for the doctor to come, but I couldn’t hear a single noise. Time stood still. It felt like I’d been waiting for an eternity.I could feel my heart shatter into millions of tiny pieces as my father continued to call out to my dead mother to be reunited with her. He’d given up. Given up on me, given up on the Cosa Nostra. And for the first time in my life, even though my father was dying in my arms…Was the first time I saw hope in his eyes. The love and hope he had for my mother, to be reunited with her in the afterlife.“I l – love you, Luca. I know you’ll carry on my l – legacy. I know you’ll do me p – proud…” Dad whispered, his eyes glistening with tears. “Don’t let the others g – get to you. You’ve worked s – so hard. You’ve done so much f – for m – me…”“Please, Dad. Please don’t do this,” I wept, screaming bloody murder. Screaming until I was blue in the face, screaming until my throat went dry. Screaming until I had nothing left inside
“YOU MOTHERFUCKER!” I roared, grabbing hold of my gun and pointing it straight at his face. There was no way that he was going to get away with speaking to me like this, and live to tell the fucking story. I didn’t care how important he was to my dad. Nobody took me for a dickhead and got away with it.“See?” he snarled, smirking at the gun. “Your only answer. You’d kill your own family for giving you a reality check. When it’s only the truth that’s coming out of my mouth.”“You little…” I cocked the gun, my patience wearing thin. Not wanting to listen to his bullshit any longer.“Go on then, shoot me,” he hissed. “Shoot me, you bastard! I could do without being in this fucked up family anymore. SHOOT ME!”I growled loudly. He wanted me to shoot him? Then his wish was my fucking command.“You bastard,” I seethed, and pulled the fucking trigger. The bullet fell straight out of the gun, flying in his direction…But Dad jumped in front of him.“NOOOOOOOO!” I screamed bloody murder. “DAD
They nodded feebly, getting to work.Wasting no time, the rest of us departed from the scene…Ready to make our way back to base.I wasn’t in the right head state…Not in the right fucking state of mind.But I had to pull myself together…Not just for my own sake, but for the sake of everybody else, too.It was time for me to finally have words with my father.***5luca“What the fuck, Dad?” I barked, as I stormed into his office.Dad was sitting there with Jamal, drinking whisky straight from the bottle. I knocked the bottle out from his hands, and poured it all over the floor, disgusted at the sight of him.“What the fuck, Luca?!” Dad roared angrily. “What are you doing?”“Wake the fuck up, Dad,” I snarled. “Stop drinking. It’s all I ever see you fucking do.”Dad rattled his fists angrily, banging them down on the table. Jamal screwed his face, folding his arms.“What’s up your ass?” Jamal sneered. “Did you collect the debts from Tariq?”“No,” I retorted. “He wasn’t at the goddamn
I knew that this scene was forever going to etch itself into my memory. Haunting my dreams every day, replaying itself into my mind over and over like a form of motherfucking torture. The rules of the Cosa Nostra had been broken. This was the price I had to pay for the fucked up life I lived. I’d chosen this way of life, and I had to deal with the consequences.Even if it killed me.From this day forward…I would never be the same again.4luca“You motherfucker…” I seethed, locking eyes with Massimo. Letting him know how much I despised him in this moment. Letting him know how much I fucking hated what he’d just done.“Spare me the fucking sentimental bullshit,” Massimo snarled. “If we’d gone back to your Pops empty-handed, and let someone get away with a ninety grand fucking debt, how the fuck do you think he would react? It had to be done.”“HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I FUCKING TOLD YOU?!” I roared. “NO CHILDREN! NO WOMEN, AND NO FUCKING CHILDREN, MASSIMO!”I felt my body shake into a fre
“Come on, let’s go.” I nodded towards Massimo, Sergio and the other men.“What, we’re just going to go after coming all this way?” Sergio snarled. “Aren’t we going to make that motherfucker pay?”“You said yourself feds are trailing the place, so we need to get the fuck out of here anyway,” I shot back, pissed off that they had the audacity to argue back to me. They were my men. They had to follow my fucking orders.“I checked the window, there’s no cop cars,” Massimo snarled. “We’re staying here until the job’s finished. Nobody makes a fool out of us and lives to tell the fucking story!”“I said stand the fuck down, Massimo!” I roared. “No innocents, remember! This is just a poor woman and her fucking kids, Tariq isn’t here! There’s nothing we can fucking do!”“Know your fucking place, Massimo,” Fizz seethed, narrowing his eyes, as he shot Massimo a warning look, meaning that he meant business.This only riled up Massimo even more.“Fuck it, Massimo,” Sergio sighed. “Let’s get out o
“WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?!” I roared, turning around to Massimo. “YOU SAID THAT HE WOULD BE HERE, YOU MOTHERFUCKER! YOU WASTED MY TIME COMING OUT HERE ON A FUCKING WHIM!”I grabbed hold of him by his collar, causing his face to go beetroot red as he started struggling for air.“I t – thought he would b – be here, Boss, please!” Massimo struggled.“You useless piece of shit,” I snarled, letting go of him. “You’re a fucking joke.”He began wheezing, doing his best to regather his strength, allowing oxygen to fill his windpipes again. I rolled my eyes. I was so fucking pissed off in this moment, I felt like putting a bullet straight through Massimo for the shit-show that was happening right now.“Wait, Luca, can you hear that?” Fizz breathed, his voice dropping to barely below a whisper.“Hear what?” I asked, narrowing my eyes.The room went eerily quiet as we all listened intently.It was almost like we could hear somebody cough up a sob.“We’ve got the bastard,” Sergio, another one of th