MasukI was a monster, and she was too innocent for my world. But that didn't stop me. One taste of her kept me going back for more... Even if it killed us.
Lihat lebih banyakZARAMe and Fizz arrived at the hospital, making our way to the ward where Luca was being held. I could feel my heart hammer against my chest as I made my way to the glass window, seeing him lying there wearing an oxygen mask, with machines beeping next to him.Knowing that this was all my fault.I’d pushed him too far…Made him relive his nightmares.If it wasn’t for me…This wouldn’t be fucking happening.I made my way into the room, tears streaming down my cheeks as I stared at him. The bandaged up wounds.He’d lost so much blood…So much fucking blood.I crouched down next to his bed, gently laying my head against his body.Sobbing against him.I took his hand in mine, kissing his fingers, kissing his palms.Knowing that he couldn’t feel it…But just needing to make known how much I loved him.“I’m so sorry, Luca…” I whispered. “I’m so sorry.”Tears continued to roll down my cheeks uncontrollably, and I couldn’t stop them.“Fizz told me everything. I know you didn’t kill my sister
“You’re right, Zara…” I whispered, through tear-filled eyes. “I am a monster. I am a fucking monster. I killed my father. Fuck. I deserve to die. I deserve to die…”Zara continued to scream and sob, rocking her head backwards and forwards manically.I couldn’t bear the pain anymore.I couldn’t bear the heartache anymore.The hurt.The anguish.Knowing that there would be no point in breathing if I didn’t have Zara by my side.The only person I had left who made me feel like my life had a purpose…Who made me feel like I had a reason to keep pushing forward.Who made me feel like I had something to look forward to…My future looked empty without her.Hollow.Like I was trapped in limbo.I didn’t want to live my life like this.I didn’t want to live my life suffering…Constantly hating myself.Despising myself for my fucked-up mistakes.So I did something.I did something I never thought I would do.Shakily, I got to my feet, my whole body convulsing.Trembling into a frenzy.“Shoot me
Hounding memories of my father dying in my arms re-surfaced.Making their way back to me.Replaying themselves, over and over to me…Like a form of motherfucking torture.I fell to the floor in anguish, sobbing.Rocking myself backwards and forwards manically.Losing all the sanity I had left.Knowing that I’d lost my parents…And now I’d lost the love-of-my-life too.Knowing that she would never forgive me for this.“I’m sorry, Zara. I’m so fucking sorry,” I wept.“I hate you,” she sobbed. “I fucking hate you. You bastard, I let you in. I told you about all of the bad shit that happened to me. Marcello killed my father in cold blood, but you… You made me believe that somebody else killed your father… You made me believe that I could relate to you.” She screamed bloody murder. “When you were the fucking villain all along.”“Please, Zara, stop… Fuck. Stop…”I convulsed, feeling like I was going insane.Feeling like I would be better off dead.Memories of my father stabbing me straight
Maybe I was stupid…Delusional…A fucking fool…To believe that happily ever after’s existed for bastards like me.For criminals like me.I could feel Evelina’s words burn into the back of my mind, as I remembered her walking in on me fucking a broad the night I shot down Tariq Iqbal.“You bastard,” she whispered coldly, slapping me hard across the face. “You deserve everything that’s coming to you. You killed your father. Don’t you ever fucking forget that. A man like your father dead, and a monster like you alive… It isn’t right. It isn’t fucking right.”I screwed my face, burning. Feeling utterly and completely at loss.“I’ve been dancing with the devil for too long, and in the end, I got burned,” Evelina mourned. “You had your chance with me, Luca. You’re going to die alone. Die miserable. Die with nobody loving you. You push everyone away. Ruin every good thing that happens to you. I’m going to find a man who treats me right, loves me for who I am. Doesn’t expect me to conform to
At least by running away, she’d saved herself from having a forced marriage.Now it was me that had to take the fall for her.Pay the price for her leaving me behind, alone.I needed to figure a way out of here, but it seemed impossible. Everywhere, I was going to be watched.I knew that Marcello w
We were going on holiday, and he seemed so happy about it yesterday…But right now, his face was telling a different story. I didn’t know what was wrong with him.I figured that it must just be nerves, or stress with his business, and decided not to overthink it.“Everything okay, Dad?” I asked, co
Wishing that something would numb the empty feeling inside of me.One shot.Two shots.Three shots.Whole bottles.My vision getting hazier with every swallow, the loud music roaring in my ears, making every single nerve of mine stand on edge.Blood pounding throughout my body as I continued to im
I also put Jamal to rest that night. Shooting him at the back of his head, before he even saw it coming. Knowing that I wouldn’t be able to live with seeing his face every day, knowing that I was supposed to kill him instead of my father.But there was one last thing I had to take care of.I’d got
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