I was a monster, and she was too innocent for my world. But that didn't stop me. One taste of her kept me going back for more... Even if it killed us.
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Beauty and the Beast.
Everyone knows how that fairytale goes, right?
How an egotistical motherfucker gets trapped into a spell by a wicked witch, because he looked down upon her, judging her by how she looked before even knowing her. Then having to break that spell by having a woman fall in love with him in his monster form.
Except, I’m no fairytale prince.
We all know that all the happily ever after’s from the movies are bullshit.
Happily ever after’s don’t exist.
Especially for a motherfucker like me.
A man who’s done so much wrong, seen things he shouldn’t have seen. Watched men and women get tortured, murdered, be ripped away from their goddamn families.
My name is Luca Costello, and I’m a man of Italian origins. I’m twenty-eight, with a dark, scruffy beard, olive skin, thick eyebrows, pale green eyes, scars on my face as well as all over my goddamn body.
I grew up in the toughest streets of South Manchester, you know, the area stretching from Hulme to Moss Side up until Longsight.
I know there’s that fucking cliché that everybody spits out from around here. “I didn’t choose this life, this life chose me.” “Kill or be killed, eat or be eaten.”
Except, I didn’t choose this life.
Growing up, I was forced into this way of living. Postcode wars, Turf wars, competing for territory, gunning down any bastard who got in the way of business…
It was all I knew.
And it was all I was ever going to know.
I took over for my Pops when my Mum passed away. Pops was always so tired and depressed, and he really took Mum dying heavy on the chest. They were in love… And now, he was never gonna see her again. He blamed himself for her death. Blamed our lifestyle, because she died from a drug overdose…
I guessed that was the nasty side of business.
You can’t just leave the streets behind. Once you’re in, there’s no way out. Your past follows you wherever you goddamn go. You don’t know how many enemies you’ve made. You don’t know whether the person staring at you from across the street is a stranger, or someone connected to somebody that you’ve crossed in the past.
I wanted better for myself.
Heck, I needed better.
And I knew from the minute I met Zara Amelle, my life was going to turn upside down.
She was sexy, bold, confident. A woman who knew what she fucking wanted.
Too innocent for my world.
But that didn’t stop me. I should have left her alone.
I should have left her to live her life.
Live her life without me.
But she was like a fucking drug. Once I got one taste of her, I kept going back for more.
Even if it killed us.
They say if you keep dancing with the devil you’ll get burned.
I’d been destined for hell my whole damn life. Living a life of sin, hurting so many people who didn’t deserve to be hurt. Except she was the opposite of me. She was like an angel.
Who was going to save her from me?
This is my story.
She was the Beauty…
And I was the Beast.
1
luca
I sat down in my office, finishing up some paperwork on fixing the finances for the launderette that we owned on the opposite side of Cheetham Hill. It was one of our numerous fronts for laundering our dirty money, so it was always necessary that we kept everything up-to-date and organized, to stop the feds from sniffing around.
This was always a tedious task, but it had to be done. I was waiting on a call from one of my men, Jamal, who was going to run me by everybody we’d allowed to borrow money from us, and who was still yet to pay back their debts.
I pulled out a fag, taking slow drags of it in and out, allowing the smoke to burn down my lungs and allow my body to relieve its stress. I picked up the phone to call my Pops, but then put it back down, knowing that he was probably drowning his sorrows in a bottle of alcohol, like he always fucking did.
A sudden knock at the door snapped me out of my thoughts.
“Hey Luca,” said Faizan, making his way inside my office.
ZARAMe and Fizz arrived at the hospital, making our way to the ward where Luca was being held. I could feel my heart hammer against my chest as I made my way to the glass window, seeing him lying there wearing an oxygen mask, with machines beeping next to him.Knowing that this was all my fault.I’d pushed him too far…Made him relive his nightmares.If it wasn’t for me…This wouldn’t be fucking happening.I made my way into the room, tears streaming down my cheeks as I stared at him. The bandaged up wounds.He’d lost so much blood…So much fucking blood.I crouched down next to his bed, gently laying my head against his body.Sobbing against him.I took his hand in mine, kissing his fingers, kissing his palms.Knowing that he couldn’t feel it…But just needing to make known how much I loved him.“I’m so sorry, Luca…” I whispered. “I’m so sorry.”Tears continued to roll down my cheeks uncontrollably, and I couldn’t stop them.“Fizz told me everything. I know you didn’t kill my sister
“You’re right, Zara…” I whispered, through tear-filled eyes. “I am a monster. I am a fucking monster. I killed my father. Fuck. I deserve to die. I deserve to die…”Zara continued to scream and sob, rocking her head backwards and forwards manically.I couldn’t bear the pain anymore.I couldn’t bear the heartache anymore.The hurt.The anguish.Knowing that there would be no point in breathing if I didn’t have Zara by my side.The only person I had left who made me feel like my life had a purpose…Who made me feel like I had a reason to keep pushing forward.Who made me feel like I had something to look forward to…My future looked empty without her.Hollow.Like I was trapped in limbo.I didn’t want to live my life like this.I didn’t want to live my life suffering…Constantly hating myself.Despising myself for my fucked-up mistakes.So I did something.I did something I never thought I would do.Shakily, I got to my feet, my whole body convulsing.Trembling into a frenzy.“Shoot me
Hounding memories of my father dying in my arms re-surfaced.Making their way back to me.Replaying themselves, over and over to me…Like a form of motherfucking torture.I fell to the floor in anguish, sobbing.Rocking myself backwards and forwards manically.Losing all the sanity I had left.Knowing that I’d lost my parents…And now I’d lost the love-of-my-life too.Knowing that she would never forgive me for this.“I’m sorry, Zara. I’m so fucking sorry,” I wept.“I hate you,” she sobbed. “I fucking hate you. You bastard, I let you in. I told you about all of the bad shit that happened to me. Marcello killed my father in cold blood, but you… You made me believe that somebody else killed your father… You made me believe that I could relate to you.” She screamed bloody murder. “When you were the fucking villain all along.”“Please, Zara, stop… Fuck. Stop…”I convulsed, feeling like I was going insane.Feeling like I would be better off dead.Memories of my father stabbing me straight
Maybe I was stupid…Delusional…A fucking fool…To believe that happily ever after’s existed for bastards like me.For criminals like me.I could feel Evelina’s words burn into the back of my mind, as I remembered her walking in on me fucking a broad the night I shot down Tariq Iqbal.“You bastard,” she whispered coldly, slapping me hard across the face. “You deserve everything that’s coming to you. You killed your father. Don’t you ever fucking forget that. A man like your father dead, and a monster like you alive… It isn’t right. It isn’t fucking right.”I screwed my face, burning. Feeling utterly and completely at loss.“I’ve been dancing with the devil for too long, and in the end, I got burned,” Evelina mourned. “You had your chance with me, Luca. You’re going to die alone. Die miserable. Die with nobody loving you. You push everyone away. Ruin every good thing that happens to you. I’m going to find a man who treats me right, loves me for who I am. Doesn’t expect me to conform to
16LUCAMe and Fizz made our way back home, after going out to eat at a restaurant, making the most of our last days in Italy, before we would go back to England.Fizz threw his jacket to the side, before kicking his legs up, throwing himself backwards onto the sofa, letting out all of his exhaustion.“You go ahead,” he grinned. “I’m going to call my wife and kids. Don’t keep your lady waiting.”I grinned back, before throwing off my own jacket. I couldn’t wait to have Zara in my arms again.“Baby, I’m home!” I called out.But I received no response.I furrowed my eyebrows, a little confused.“She’s probably fallen asleep, or taking a shower,” I murmured to myself.I began trudging up the stairs, yawning, ready to take a bath, after having such a long day.I made my way into my bedroom, ready to make my way into my en-suite.But what I saw…Caused me to screw my face with confusion, wondering what the hell was going on, and who the hell had been in here.My laptop was lying on the mid
Feeling like I’d lost all of the sanity I had left inside of me.Wishing that I was dead in this moment.The man that I was so madly in love with couldn’t be responsible for my sister’s death…He couldn’t…I sweated profusely, fitting together the jigsaw.I remembered that Luca told me he operated in Manchester, taking care of the Cosa Nostra’s operations there.I rocked myself backwards and forwards, screaming and sobbing.Feeling utterly and completely numb.At loss.A void.Empty.Hollow.Weak.Not wanting to believe that Luca was responsible for this.He’d made himself out to be such a genuine man…He made me believe that his enterprise never killed innocents.My sister was an innocent fucking woman.Not just my sister…But her kids, too.I read more on her husband, Tariq Iqbal, and realized that he was a criminal, a sick-minded fuck who owed the Sicilian Mafia debts, which was why they went to his apartment in the first place.But that didn’t mean that my sister had to suffer for
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