I was a monster, and she was too innocent for my world. But that didn't stop me. One taste of her kept me going back for more... Even if it killed us.
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Beauty and the Beast.
Everyone knows how that fairytale goes, right?
How an egotistical motherfucker gets trapped into a spell by a wicked witch, because he looked down upon her, judging her by how she looked before even knowing her. Then having to break that spell by having a woman fall in love with him in his monster form.
Except, I’m no fairytale prince.
We all know that all the happily ever after’s from the movies are bullshit.
Happily ever after’s don’t exist.
Especially for a motherfucker like me.
A man who’s done so much wrong, seen things he shouldn’t have seen. Watched men and women get tortured, murdered, be ripped away from their goddamn families.
My name is Luca Costello, and I’m a man of Italian origins. I’m twenty-eight, with a dark, scruffy beard, olive skin, thick eyebrows, pale green eyes, scars on my face as well as all over my goddamn body.
I grew up in the toughest streets of South Manchester, you know, the area stretching from Hulme to Moss Side up until Longsight.
I know there’s that fucking cliché that everybody spits out from around here. “I didn’t choose this life, this life chose me.” “Kill or be killed, eat or be eaten.”
Except, I didn’t choose this life.
Growing up, I was forced into this way of living. Postcode wars, Turf wars, competing for territory, gunning down any bastard who got in the way of business…
It was all I knew.
And it was all I was ever going to know.
I took over for my Pops when my Mum passed away. Pops was always so tired and depressed, and he really took Mum dying heavy on the chest. They were in love… And now, he was never gonna see her again. He blamed himself for her death. Blamed our lifestyle, because she died from a drug overdose…
I guessed that was the nasty side of business.
You can’t just leave the streets behind. Once you’re in, there’s no way out. Your past follows you wherever you goddamn go. You don’t know how many enemies you’ve made. You don’t know whether the person staring at you from across the street is a stranger, or someone connected to somebody that you’ve crossed in the past.
I wanted better for myself.
Heck, I needed better.
And I knew from the minute I met Zara Amelle, my life was going to turn upside down.
She was sexy, bold, confident. A woman who knew what she fucking wanted.
Too innocent for my world.
But that didn’t stop me. I should have left her alone.
I should have left her to live her life.
Live her life without me.
But she was like a fucking drug. Once I got one taste of her, I kept going back for more.
Even if it killed us.
They say if you keep dancing with the devil you’ll get burned.
I’d been destined for hell my whole damn life. Living a life of sin, hurting so many people who didn’t deserve to be hurt. Except she was the opposite of me. She was like an angel.
Who was going to save her from me?
This is my story.
She was the Beauty…
And I was the Beast.
1
luca
I sat down in my office, finishing up some paperwork on fixing the finances for the launderette that we owned on the opposite side of Cheetham Hill. It was one of our numerous fronts for laundering our dirty money, so it was always necessary that we kept everything up-to-date and organized, to stop the feds from sniffing around.
This was always a tedious task, but it had to be done. I was waiting on a call from one of my men, Jamal, who was going to run me by everybody we’d allowed to borrow money from us, and who was still yet to pay back their debts.
I pulled out a fag, taking slow drags of it in and out, allowing the smoke to burn down my lungs and allow my body to relieve its stress. I picked up the phone to call my Pops, but then put it back down, knowing that he was probably drowning his sorrows in a bottle of alcohol, like he always fucking did.
A sudden knock at the door snapped me out of my thoughts.
“Hey Luca,” said Faizan, making his way inside my office.
I continued to sob, screaming and screaming for the doctor to come, but I couldn’t hear a single noise. Time stood still. It felt like I’d been waiting for an eternity.I could feel my heart shatter into millions of tiny pieces as my father continued to call out to my dead mother to be reunited with her. He’d given up. Given up on me, given up on the Cosa Nostra. And for the first time in my life, even though my father was dying in my arms…Was the first time I saw hope in his eyes. The love and hope he had for my mother, to be reunited with her in the afterlife.“I l – love you, Luca. I know you’ll carry on my l – legacy. I know you’ll do me p – proud…” Dad whispered, his eyes glistening with tears. “Don’t let the others g – get to you. You’ve worked s – so hard. You’ve done so much f – for m – me…”“Please, Dad. Please don’t do this,” I wept, screaming bloody murder. Screaming until I was blue in the face, screaming until my throat went dry. Screaming until I had nothing left inside
“YOU MOTHERFUCKER!” I roared, grabbing hold of my gun and pointing it straight at his face. There was no way that he was going to get away with speaking to me like this, and live to tell the fucking story. I didn’t care how important he was to my dad. Nobody took me for a dickhead and got away with it.“See?” he snarled, smirking at the gun. “Your only answer. You’d kill your own family for giving you a reality check. When it’s only the truth that’s coming out of my mouth.”“You little…” I cocked the gun, my patience wearing thin. Not wanting to listen to his bullshit any longer.“Go on then, shoot me,” he hissed. “Shoot me, you bastard! I could do without being in this fucked up family anymore. SHOOT ME!”I growled loudly. He wanted me to shoot him? Then his wish was my fucking command.“You bastard,” I seethed, and pulled the fucking trigger. The bullet fell straight out of the gun, flying in his direction…But Dad jumped in front of him.“NOOOOOOOO!” I screamed bloody murder. “DAD
They nodded feebly, getting to work.Wasting no time, the rest of us departed from the scene…Ready to make our way back to base.I wasn’t in the right head state…Not in the right fucking state of mind.But I had to pull myself together…Not just for my own sake, but for the sake of everybody else, too.It was time for me to finally have words with my father.***5luca“What the fuck, Dad?” I barked, as I stormed into his office.Dad was sitting there with Jamal, drinking whisky straight from the bottle. I knocked the bottle out from his hands, and poured it all over the floor, disgusted at the sight of him.“What the fuck, Luca?!” Dad roared angrily. “What are you doing?”“Wake the fuck up, Dad,” I snarled. “Stop drinking. It’s all I ever see you fucking do.”Dad rattled his fists angrily, banging them down on the table. Jamal screwed his face, folding his arms.“What’s up your ass?” Jamal sneered. “Did you collect the debts from Tariq?”“No,” I retorted. “He wasn’t at the goddamn
I knew that this scene was forever going to etch itself into my memory. Haunting my dreams every day, replaying itself into my mind over and over like a form of motherfucking torture. The rules of the Cosa Nostra had been broken. This was the price I had to pay for the fucked up life I lived. I’d chosen this way of life, and I had to deal with the consequences.Even if it killed me.From this day forward…I would never be the same again.4luca“You motherfucker…” I seethed, locking eyes with Massimo. Letting him know how much I despised him in this moment. Letting him know how much I fucking hated what he’d just done.“Spare me the fucking sentimental bullshit,” Massimo snarled. “If we’d gone back to your Pops empty-handed, and let someone get away with a ninety grand fucking debt, how the fuck do you think he would react? It had to be done.”“HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I FUCKING TOLD YOU?!” I roared. “NO CHILDREN! NO WOMEN, AND NO FUCKING CHILDREN, MASSIMO!”I felt my body shake into a fre
“Come on, let’s go.” I nodded towards Massimo, Sergio and the other men.“What, we’re just going to go after coming all this way?” Sergio snarled. “Aren’t we going to make that motherfucker pay?”“You said yourself feds are trailing the place, so we need to get the fuck out of here anyway,” I shot back, pissed off that they had the audacity to argue back to me. They were my men. They had to follow my fucking orders.“I checked the window, there’s no cop cars,” Massimo snarled. “We’re staying here until the job’s finished. Nobody makes a fool out of us and lives to tell the fucking story!”“I said stand the fuck down, Massimo!” I roared. “No innocents, remember! This is just a poor woman and her fucking kids, Tariq isn’t here! There’s nothing we can fucking do!”“Know your fucking place, Massimo,” Fizz seethed, narrowing his eyes, as he shot Massimo a warning look, meaning that he meant business.This only riled up Massimo even more.“Fuck it, Massimo,” Sergio sighed. “Let’s get out o
“WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?!” I roared, turning around to Massimo. “YOU SAID THAT HE WOULD BE HERE, YOU MOTHERFUCKER! YOU WASTED MY TIME COMING OUT HERE ON A FUCKING WHIM!”I grabbed hold of him by his collar, causing his face to go beetroot red as he started struggling for air.“I t – thought he would b – be here, Boss, please!” Massimo struggled.“You useless piece of shit,” I snarled, letting go of him. “You’re a fucking joke.”He began wheezing, doing his best to regather his strength, allowing oxygen to fill his windpipes again. I rolled my eyes. I was so fucking pissed off in this moment, I felt like putting a bullet straight through Massimo for the shit-show that was happening right now.“Wait, Luca, can you hear that?” Fizz breathed, his voice dropping to barely below a whisper.“Hear what?” I asked, narrowing my eyes.The room went eerily quiet as we all listened intently.It was almost like we could hear somebody cough up a sob.“We’ve got the bastard,” Sergio, another one of th
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