LOGINAyla.
Ryder removed his hand from the door and walked into the class chuckling as he sat down. I followed in his footsteps and made my way to the back taking my book out wanting to steer as clear from him as I could. After Sir had taken the register I went into a deep read completely forgetting my surroundings.
That was until the book was taken out of my hands and held in the air by Ryder.
I smiled at him not wanting to show how upset and annoyed I was, why wouldn't he just leave me alone? Why must he always find a way to bother me.
"Can I have my book back please?" I asked politely as if he wasn't teasing me. "You read some weird shit, honestly Ayla what the fuck is wrong with you?" His tone was brash and I couldnt help but feel my stomach turn. "I hope nothing is wrong with me, all I want is my book please." My voice faltered and I felt like crying because I noticed everyone was looking at me, I hated it. It was like the only time I got attention was when Ryder was teasing me. "You're so fucking weak." He said maliciously and threw the book at me, I grabbed my things and rushed out of the class. I needed to be anywhere but here and the only place I could think of right now was the restroom. I got into a stall and sat there waiting to calm down.
It was like this every year, for seven years I've been taunted by him. I just wish I knew why, what did I do to receive this from him? I mean there was a theory but it wasn't the greatest. Nonetheless, when we were in year seven, me and Ryder had befriended each other. I guess you could say I was the friend he always came to whenever his boys annoyed him, I helped him a lot, and he would always come to me when he needed advice, but I found Bria and eventually started to stray away from him. It wasn't on purpose or anything, I still valued him as a friend but us girls always need a girlfriend to run to things boys just cant understand. He had his own group of friends, and actually, he was quite popular but when he realised I had gotten closer to Bria he was angry at me. I never really understood why but the last time he came to me was a disaster, he confessed he liked me and I didn't reply, how could I? I was a scared little girl who was afraid of boys because they were meant to have lurgies. All in all that was a memeory I was not fond of. I mean now if he asked me, I would have thought about it, but then again he bullies me like his life depends on it so, no I would probably not return the feeling. We completely distanced ourselves after that, well at least he basically stopped being friends with me. But that's basically my theory, he's mad at me for becoming closer to Bri and being silent after his confession.
The bell rang and it was first period, I internally screamed as I knew Ryder was in the same class as me. Nevertheless, I made my way to class and breathed heavily as I walked up the stairs, I was out of shape but that didn't make me want to stop eating literal junk. After what felt like I ran a five k I was on the second floor and tried to powerwalk to class when all of a sudden I was grabbed by the waist into a room of some sort. "Um-who is it?" I said, what a stupid question I know, but I was so confused and creeped out that I didn't know what to say.
"Your favourite person." Oh, thank god it was Bri and not some kidnapper who made their way pass our strong security to take me.
"Bri! You scared me!" I whisper and shouted at her.
"Oops, I just wanted to say... guess who asked me out?" The happiness was evident in her voice, I started thinking about the guys in the year and couldn't think of who Bri was into, I mean we weren't even an hour into our first day. Whoever did ask her out was clearly ready for love. "Who?" I ask as I came up with nothing.
"Myles!" She squealed and I smiled. I completely forgot about how they were getting close last year, now that I think about it, they would look good together. Myles was cute, with blue puppy eyes and a great smile. He was actually one of Ryder's closest friends but nothing like him at all, he was really kind. I was happy for her, she looked so giddy. Bri never really dated or liked anyone, I called her femme fatale because all these boys would fall for her and ask her out but she always rejected them, I guess she finally found the one she wanted. Bri has high standards, as she should and I can only hope Myles lives upto them, but then again she would've never said yes to him if he was a bum.
"Aww, Bri! I'm so happy for you." I said and hugged her. She grinned and took out her phone as it rang, I caught a glimpse of the time and realised I was ten minutes late.
"Oh my god, I'm so late!" I say concerningly and Bri laughs at my uneasy state. "I need to go before sir gives me detention." Bri walks out with me but turns left and I leave rushing to go to class. I looked to my right hearing chuckles and saw Ryder and his friends. I quickly walke past to head into class but of course, was pulled back by none other than Ryder. He gripped my cardigan and twindled it between his fingers.
"Ayla, ten minutes late? Thought you were a good girl?" He said teasingly as if he didn't embarrass me fifteen minutes ago.
"I was in the restroom." God knows why I was explaining myself, however, in the presence of Satan anything's possible. "You sure you weren't hooking up with a boy?" He says degradingly and I look at him in shock, why would he suggest that? Also who in their right mind would hook up in a restroom, sound like a health hazard. I didn't want to react and I remembered Mama's words, 'Kill them with kindness' she always says and so I did just that. I smile at him and laugh as if he had said a funny joke. "I was not hooking up with a boy, I was simply washing my hands in the restroom, now if that's all I'll be on my way to class." I didn't let him reply, using all my strength I got out of his hold and ran to the class.
"Miss Rose! fifteen minutes late, detention!" I nodded and looked at the board to see my name on the seating plan. I sat down on my allocated seat and grumbled. I knew I had it coming I mean I was fifteen minutes late but still I did not want to go home late, especially since it gets dark early.
The door slammed open and I turned my head to see Ryder.
"Mr Costello, this is shocking it is your first day and you are twenty minutes late! Detention!" Mr Cooper shouted and gave Ryder a dirty look. I shook my head and continued on with my work, the task was quite easy but really interesting, I loved literature and had a passion for the way words could depict. In deep thought and unaware of my surroundings the back of my cardigan was pulled, I gasped and looked back, of course, it was Ryder smirking as he caught me off guard. I genuinely thought he was five years old, my cousins, whom are toddlers dont even act this immature. I just went back to my work and figured he'd get bored and see I was not going to give him a reaction.
Yet all lesson he annoyed me, constantly poking me and pulling on something. My head was aching and I could feel a migraine start to form, but that was normal, not because of him. I checked my timetable and noticed I also had the fifth period with him which was sociology. The next three lessons went by great, obviously because he wasn't there, I was able to put my head down and actually take in all the work in front of me. Lunch was calm, Bri and I shared a sandwich and pastries, talked about lessons and when fifth period did finally come around I scolded time for going so quick. Every time I answered a question he rolled his eyes and made me feel as if I wasn't good enough. He also kept talking and distracting me from my tasks. There were two minutes left of this lesson then school would be finished but no, not for me. All because I decided to take habitat in the bathroom. I would have to spend my precious time in detention, well it wasn't that precious but it meant I'd have less time to watch Modern Family, even if it was my seventh rewatch. Gradually as the lesson came to an end the class started packing up our books and laptops waiting for the teacher to give us our homework.
The bell rang and I got out of class. Taking out my phone I call mum, she picks up within seconds. "Mama, I have detention, don't worry I'm not in trouble, I was just late because I needed to pee badly." I lied to her because if she knew why I was in the toilet it would break her heart and she didn't deserve that. "Oh okay, princess but come home soon." She said, her voice always so soft and calming. I disconnect the call and make my way to Mr Cooper's classroom, he gives me pencils to sharpen and I get right to it. Ryder came in soon after and was handed some unfinished work of his. He sat behind me to the right and began working. I finished sharpening but because Sir hadn't told me to leave or given me any other task I got my book out and started to read. I hear shuffling and turn to see Ryder smirking.
I furrowed my brows in confusion, why was he smirking?
He then lifted a bag up, my bag specifically. My eyes widened and I reached over to get it but he pulled back. I fell onto his table and it made a loud noise, I looked over to see that Mr Cooper had his earphones in and was concentrating on marking the books. Thank god, I did not need to get into any more trouble today. I looked up into his eyes as he stared into mine, they were full of this unknown emotion that I couldn't decipher. I blushed, this position was way too intimate for me to comprehend. I slowly got up and removed eye contact with him, it was far too intimidating and made me feel unsettled. I got my bag and walked up to Sir. He took his earphones off, "Sir can I leave? I finished sharpening the pencils."
"Yes, Ayla but don't be late like that again, you're a bright student with lots of potential and we wouldn't want to waste that by being late." He says and I nod, I leave the room and the academy frantically making my way home. As I walked home from the station I thought about Ryder, his eyes were so captivating. I stopped in my tracks and furrowed my brows asking myself why I was even thinking of him. Once home I completed any work and went about my evening before going to bed, resting for another day.
Another day of being taunted by Ryder.
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Ayla. I pressed my palms together trying to create heat. Me and James had walked it to the house where the party is. We stood in front of a big villa-house. It was really pretty. The music penetrated through the walls and window of the the house. I felt a little anxious seeing how many people there are and was rethinking my decision of coming here. People were highly intoxicated as they scattered around the patio passed out. We went in and I felt out of place. I was more of a stay at home, read or watch a movie type of person. This was not what I was used to. The faint smell of weed wafted up my nose and I cringed, it smelt horrible. People held bottle of alcohol in their hands and danced freely. "I'm going to go say hello to Steve I'll be right back." I hear amongst the loud vulgar yet catchy lyrics of the song playing. He left into the crowd and I sat down on a sofa. After a minute or two I got up looking for the kitchen. I needed water or drink something to quench my thirst. I ha
Ayla. Walking through the cafeteria I slowly tell Bri all the events of yesterday. As expected, she was feeling loads of different emotions, shock, disgust and anger masked her face. "Who in gods name does he think he is to be treating you... My best friend like that!" She shouted catching some weird looks and in return giving them glares telling them to mind their business. Whilst I completely understand her reaction towards all of this I didn't want her to make a huge deal out of it. "Bri its okay you have nothing to worry about-" I reason with her until I'm cut off. "Listen Ayla. You don't deserve hum. He's a bast-" I slapped my hand on her mouth as gently as I could hoping she wouldn't say the horrible word coming next. "Bri!" I scolded, I didn't mind bad words but we were in a cafeteria and her screaming out a curse word would get us in trouble. Okay maybe I minded a little, I mean bastard is a strong word. "I don't care Ayla, that's the nicest cuss I have for him now, it can g
Ayla I yawned as I stretched my body before getting out of bed. I had my first two lessons in the morning and came home to nap. Although the nap was everything and more I regretted sleeping for three hours knowing how drowsy I'll be in my upcoming class. I just wanted to stay in bed and sleep all day. I put some eye drops in to refresh my eyes and spray my face with some glowy mist Bri recommended, I will not lie, it looks like I haven't even slept and my makeup is fresh. My last lesson was business and obviously I was dreading it, but today I'm planning to ask Miss Morgan if I can change partners. Hopefully she'll let me get with James or some other person, I didn't mind pairing up with anyone. Anyone but Him. I made myself a promise and I really want to stick to it. Ryder was like a drug, the most addictive kind, the one you know you shouldn't take but the few good moments make all the pain worthwhile. Taking a deep breath I sit at my vanity table and brush my hair. Touching up on
Ayla. I finish what's left of my breakfast and prepare a bowl of fresh fruit to take with me upstairs. I loved cold sweet fruit anytime of the day but I felt faint not having slept well so I hoped the sugar would give me energy. It was ten in the morning and my lesson was at half eleven, I cringe knowing I have business. How lovely. I feel sick to my stomach just thinking about class knowing I'd have to interact with him, I just had to be paired with him for this project. I cant even do it myself, these tasks require a partner. My heart twists thinking about him, knowing now that my feelings are active. I know he can be a good person, I need him to see that he can. I take off my pajamas and pull a beige sweater over my body pairing it with the co- ord bottoms it came with. My hair was bothering me and I didn't want it to get wet so I put it into a ponytail and I left the wisps of hair that refused to stay in place alone. Looking outside the window I smiled. The rain poured heavily,
Ayla. I sat up against the headboard of my bed thinking about the kiss I shared with Ryder. I never knew one kiss could leave me so puzzled, wondering what to make of it. I don't know what this means, do I like him? Does he like me? So many questions left unanswered. I sigh and shake my head wanting to rid myself of all of this. After he confessed that I apparently make him weak I remember scoffing and leaving. I make him weak? If I'm not wrong all these years he's been the one in control, he is the person who dominates me. How in the hell could I hate him but possibly think about him in any romantic way? Why did I once resent him but now almost yearn for his attention? My phone buzzes and I see that Bri sent me the location of the café we're supposed to meet at. I in no way wanted to leave my house today but I will never refuse to spend anytime with Bri. I haven't told her what happened, not because I don't want to but honestly because saying it out loud will make me acknowledge it
Ayla.The rest of the week flew by and today was Saturday. I hadn't seen Ryder that often because we have different lessons but I saw him once, walking with his friends. I'm sure I had English with him but either he wasn't in or he ditched class and went somewhere.Did I miss him? I asked myself that question often in the past week.I was ashamed to say I did, I missed him, but just a tiny bit.It was almost two in the afternoon and I was downstairs watching a telenovela with mum. We loved watching this specific one, the plot was riveting and me and mum had a huge crush on the lead actor. I finish the remains of my lunch and washed my plate as I noticed I had an hour to get ready and go to Ryder's. Today was a good day, chilly breeze but the sun was making an appearance so I was happy. I threw on a light sundress with some nude fur lined tights to keep me warm. It was still winter but I just wanted to make an effort. I wore a little makeup and made my lips pop with a barely there pink







