CHAPTER 39: The Big decision

LUKA

Some people feel like light.

When you're on the very edge, being close to them made you feel like you had a sliver of hope left and you wouldn't drown.

That's how saying close to Bella made me feel. I could forget for a while how messed up I was inside.

I liked sleeping beside her. The first time we slept together in the same bed, she might have been drunk and I might have woken up with a huge boner but I really liked it.

So I am really happy that we are recreating it tonight.

We will be fine as long as I keep my hands to myself. Plus I needed her smart mouth and silly faces to keep my head busy and distract me from the physical pain.

What happened at dinner this evening was the worst I've ever seen my father yet.

He wasn't mad because I didn't pick his calls, I just let Bella believe that because she would pity me and let me into her bed.

I sighed heavily as I adjusted in the unfamiliar sheets which smelt so much like her. I took in as much as I could with the c