Ethan’s POV
Part of the job was attending press events. Pretending I was not slowly dying inside after three hours of nonstop PR, answering the same five questions from reporters who pretended to care about anything other than a headline, and smiling for flashing cameras—I would done dozens of these before. However, nothing—I mean nothing—could have prepared me for this tour of the press. Not with Julian Cross as my co-star. Not when we had to pretend to be best friends for the movie's sake. And certainly not when everyone was fixated on our alleged "rivalry." I realised we were in trouble as soon as we entered the press conference room. The Quiet Before the Storm The place was full. The entire room was filled with rows of reporters, flashing cameras, and fans who had somehow gotten inside. Our designated seats were marked with nameplates on a long table that spanned the stage at the front of the room. I was positioned directly next to Julian. We were, of course. I glanced at the casting director, Rebecca Moreau, who was standing with the other studio executives close to the back of the room. She arched an eyebrow, seemingly challenging me to speak. I didn't. Rather, I sat down, clenching my teeth as Julian slouched comfortably in the chair next to me, spreading his legs as if he were the owner. As he adjusted the microphone in front of him, he muttered to himself, "Try not to look like you want to kill me." "There is an audience." I gritted my teeth. "Julan, I am just following your lead." His gratingly flawless smile expanded. "Hale, that is the spirit." A voice crackled over the speakers before I could reply. "All right, everybody! We appreciate your attendance at Heart's Requiem's official press conference today. Before focussing on us, the moderator, a well-dressed woman in a sleek black suit, smiled at the audience. Julian Cross and Ethan Hale, two of the movie's top actors, are here with us today. We also have producer Lillian Scott and director James Alden with them. The room was filled with applause. I straightened my posture and readied myself for the next hour of hell. The initial questions were expected. "What attracted both of you to this script?" "How did you train for your positions?" "What lesson do you want viewers to learn from this movie?" I responded in my typical media-friendly manner, being cautious not to say anything that might be turned into a headline. Naturally endearing, Julian was able to blend humour and wisdom in a way that had the media salivating. I detested how skilled he was at this. I detested the way the room leaned closer each time he flashed that brilliant smile. I particularly detested the fact that the following question made me want to jump off the stage. The Inquiry That Revolutionised Everything The hand was raised by a reporter in the front row, a man in his early thirties with a knowing smile and slicked-back hair. "This is a question for Ethan and Julian," he said in a humorous tone. I felt uneasy about this. Your on-screen and off-screen chemistry has generated a lot of discussion online. For years, fans have been making assumptions about your relationship. What are your thoughts on the rumours that you two are more than just co-stars in secret? Muffled laughter and murmurs filled the room. From where I was sitting, I could sense Julian's laughter even though his posture remained the same. In contrast, I experienced tension throughout my entire body. Even though I knew this question would eventually be raised, it still infuriated me. The moderator attempted to interrupt. "Let us limit the discussion to the movie—" Julian turned to the reporter and smiled slowly and mischievously as he waved her away. He leaned forward a little and said, "Oh, we expected this question." "Without it, a press tour would not be complete." The crowd laughed. I gave him a fierce look while pleading with him not to exacerbate the situation. I was ignored by Julian. He went on, "But let us correct the record." "I have a very... passionate relationship with Ethan." I choked. Julian smiled. With a silky voice, he remarked, "We fight, we challenge each other, we push each other to be better." "And yes, fans may misinterpret that passion at times." The reporter eagerly leaned forward. "You are implying that the dating rumours are untrue?" Julian tapped his chin thoughtfully and hummed. I would not say that, though. After all, are not hate and love just two sides of the same coin? I gave him a kick beneath the table. He flinched just a little. It was being devoured by the entire room. I reached for my microphone and forced out a courteous, businesslike response before the media could barrage us with more questions. I firmly stated, "Julian and I are co-stars." "Our goal is to give this movie the greatest performances we can. There is nothing more to it than that. With a knowing gleam in his eyes, Julian cocked his head. "Hale, are you certain about that?" I turned abruptly to him. This was too much fun for him. He was pushing himself just enough to get my attention without going overboard in front of the cameras, and I could see the amusement dancing in his face. This game could be played by two people. I leaned slightly towards him and put on my most endearing smile. "I suppose you will just have to see the film and make your own judgement." The crowd blew up. Cameras flashed. The internet was on the verge of a collapse. The Repercussions I rushed off the stage and pushed my way through the venue's back entrance as soon as the press conference was over. Julian was right behind me, his voice gratingly amused. "Well, that was enjoyable." I spun around. "Juliana, what the devil was that?" He grinned. Hale, calm down. We call it publicity. With a sharp exhale, I combed through my hair. "They have enough material to write a hundred damn articles about us, thanks to you." With his arms crossed, he remarked, "That was the point." The slow-burning romance, chemistry, and tension are the main themes of this movie. People will be more invested in our dynamic when they watch it if they believe in it more. I tightened my jaw. "I could have been warned by you." However, where is the enjoyment in that? My heart pounded as I gazed at him. And Julian Cross was furious. manipulative. calculated. Unreadable. What is the worst? He might have been acting for the cameras, but I was not sure. Or if he truly meant it in some way.Ethan’s POVThe first time I cried in front of Julian, I was twenty-five and buzzed on cheap vodka in a Berlin flat. He didn’t say anything. Just held me like the world wasn’t ending.This time, it was worse.Because this time, he was the one fraying.And I didn’t know how to hold us both.It started at the film gala.A bright, curated night. Polished cameras. Glittering lights. A crowd that cheered for progress but whispered about it, too.I could feel it from the moment we stepped onto the carpet. Eyes pinning us together. Some curious. Some cruel.Julian smiled beside me, that perfect smile he’d trained to wear. But it didn’t reach his eyes.He used to be untouchable at these things. Now, I saw the weight in his shoulders.And it terrified me.Because if he faltered, I wasn’t sure I’d know how to stand.Inside, the questions came—like always.“Was the intimacy in Glass Mercy inspired by your real relationship?”“Do you think being openly queer will shift the kinds of roles you’re o
Ethan’s POVJulian had always been the steady one.Even before we were us, he walked through the world like he already knew how it would try to knock him down—and he dared it to try. It wasn’t arrogance. It was armor. Polished and impenetrable.And I’d loved him for it. Maybe too much.But lately, the cracks had started to show.Not in ways anyone else would notice. Julian still gave good interviews. Still shook hands with that poised intensity that made directors lean in and trust him. Still held his glass with two fingers, like it was all elegance and never tension.But I saw it.I saw it in the way he stared a beat too long at his phone before answering. In the way his fingers tapped silent rhythms against his thigh during meetings. In how tightly he held my hand when we were introduced as a couple—not just collaborators.He was changing.And I didn’t know how to help him without pulling him apart further.The morning after the awards dinner, he was quiet. Not distant—just still.I
Julian’s POVMy father’s voice on the phone was flat. Not cold. Just… processed. Like he was reading a memo, not speaking to his son.“I saw the interview,” he said.The pause after those four words could have swallowed me whole.I cleared my throat. “Okay.”Another pause. Then, “You looked calm. Collected.”There it was. Not a compliment. Not an accusation. Just another test I didn’t study for.I glanced across the room at Ethan, curled up in a chair, laptop open on his knees. He gave me a small, knowing smile—the kind that said, I’m here, even if you fall.“He’s important to me,” I said into the phone, more softly than I intended. “We’re not hiding anymore.”A quiet hum, like my father was trying to find the right words in a language he’d never learned.“I don’t… understand,” he finally admitted. “But I suppose that’s not the point, is it?”No. It wasn’t.The point is that I’m not asking you to understand me in theory anymore. I’m asking you to see me. As I am.But I didn’t say that
Julian’s POVThe café was quiet, tucked away in a forgotten corner of a city that never truly slept. The kind of place you had to know to find. Julian sat at a back table, fingers tracing the smooth, timeworn grain of the wood. His espresso had gone cold.His phone buzzed again.Another article. Another headline. Another opinion.“Is Julian Vale risking it all for love?”“Ethan Rhodes: Queer Icon or Career Suicide?”“The men behind Glass Mercy—more than collaborators?”He didn’t really read them anymore. Just glimpses. Enough to sting. Enough to remind him of the edge he was always walking.Across from him sat Briar, their publicist. All sharp cheekbones, matte lipstick, and eyes hardened by too many reputations cracked under pressure.“They’re already talking about pulling some of the European premieres,” she said. “The French distributor’s nervous.”Julian didn’t look at her. His gaze stayed on the window, watching people blur past like ghosts.“And if they do?” he asked calmly.“Yo
Ethan’s POVI kept wiping my palms against my jeans like that would somehow calm my nerves.“Stop fidgeting,” my mom said gently, not looking up from the bowl of green beans she was mixing. “It’s just dinner.”It wasn’t just dinner.It was Julian—meeting my parents for the first time. Sitting at the table I grew up eating at. Breathing the same cinnamon-and-lemon air I once stormed away from, heart racing with secrets I couldn’t say out loud.It was everything.The doorbell rang.I froze.My mom shot me a look like, Go get him, before I do.I opened the door and there he was—Julian, wearing the dark green sweater I loved on him, holding a bottle of wine like this was a normal night.“You’re early,” I murmured, trying to suppress a grin.“You’re nervous,” he replied, kissing the corner of my mouth. “Which means I’m exactly on time.”I stepped aside to let him in. He looked around like he was stepping into something sacred. And maybe he was.My dad stood up from the couch when we entere
Ethan’s POVI sat in front of the camera for an hour before I pressed record.I’d deleted five drafts already—each one too polished, too careful, too rehearsed. Like I was still trying to make myself palatable, digestible. Easy to forgive.But I didn’t want forgiveness.I wanted freedom.The studio lights were off. The background was nothing but a gray wall in Julian’s guest room. I wore a hoodie and no makeup. My hair was a mess. My voice, shaky.When I finally hit record, my heart nearly punched through my ribs.“Hey,” I said quietly. “It’s Ethan.”I stared at the lens. At the red blinking dot that felt like a thousand eyes.“I’ve spent most of my life being exactly who people needed me to be. The golden boy. The idol. The straight, polished product. I was told not to confuse the fans. Told to smile. Keep it neutral. Keep it clean.”I swallowed.“But I’m tired of clean.”A pause.“I’m tired of neutral. Tired of being scared. Tired of lying to everyone—including myself.”I sat up str