Ethan’s POV
It was supposed to be simple to act. I had previously kissed people on-screen. I had previously experienced on-screen love. I have even shared sexy, heart-pounding moments with some of the most gorgeous celebrities in Hollywood. However, this? There was more to this. Because I had to pretend—no, persuade an entire audience—that I was in love with Julian Cross, who stood in front of me with half-lidded eyes and a smirk that was barely concealed by his carefully manicured face. Worse? I was secretly beginning to question whether it was all a lie. Chemistry, Lights, and Camera Our director, James Alden, paced in front of us and declared, "Okay, this is a big moment." "The kiss is not the only intimate moment in the scene. It is all about the build-up and the tension. The point at which your characters eventually cave in. Like experts, Julian and I nodded. Like two actors who would have no trouble completing this scene. As if we had not unintentionally contributed to dating rumours that were already gaining traction online during the previous press conference. James looked over at Julian. "Please do not do that. Act as though you are having trouble coming to this realisation. As if your character is attempting to suppress his emotions, but he just— James gave a finger snap. "—loses control." Julian nodded firmly. "I got it." James looked over at me. "I want him to be challenged by your character, Ethan. Then push him over the edge. Get him to crack. My heart pounded. Not because the acting part made me anxious. However, Julian Cross was a master of control. Furthermore, I had no idea where we would end up if I had to break him, either on or off screen. I rolled my shoulders back to correct my posture. This is something I could do. "Let us take it from the lead-up," James said, moving behind the monitor. "You come on the scene first, Julian. You follow, Ethan. Until I call cut, we continue. Julian's eyes flitted in my direction, unreadable as usual. Then he entered the set without saying another word. I shook my hands and inhaled deeply. It was merely a kiss. Simply acting. What, then, was causing my stomach to feel like it was going to explode? Take action Our characters were supposed to finally—finally—break the unbearable tension between them in this set, which was a dimly lit apartment that was meant to look effortlessly romantic. There was a single couch in the centre of the room, a golden lamp flickering in the corner, and rain pattering against the fake windowpanes. Julian was already positioned, standing close to the window, his posture showing the frustration of his character. I walked in. The energy in the room changed as soon as our eyes locked. No one was watching. No crew. Only us. Julian's voice was low and ragged as he let out a sharp exhale. "I am no longer able to do this." I moved in closer. "Then don't." He tightened his jaw. "It is not that easy." I retorted, "If you want it to be, it is." Julian turned, tension coiling through his entire body. His eyes darted between my mouth and my eyes, and his breathing was erratic. My heart was pounding. The next few lines were dictated by the script, but neither of us said a word. The important thing was the silence. The way our gazes met. Julian seemed to be holding himself back by the way his fingers twitched at his sides. I moved closer. The slight strain in his jaw and the hesitancy in his breathing were visible to me. I should not have pushed him too hard. However, a part of me wanted to, a reckless, irrational part. So I said in a whisper, "Prove it." Julian's jaw muscle twitched. He balled his fingers into fists. Then— He shifted. The Kiss At first, it was slow. tentative. His hand seized my jaw, and as his thumb brushed my cheekbone, the tenderness completely contrasted with the ferocity in his eyes. He tilted his head and kissed me before I could even react. A brush of lips, slow and intoxicating. Testing. We were not prepared to respond to the question. Then it got deeper. He tightened his hold on my shirt and drew me in until there was nothing left between us. And me? I was going down. His other hand moved behind my neck, running fingers through my nape's hair. I shivered as my body responded reflexively, pressing into him and equally pressing against his lips. He breathed softly and raggedly in between kisses, and I could hear it. He was still holding himself back, and it was evident from the tension in his shoulders. I was expected to do as I was told. But I had no thoughts. I tightened my grip as my fingers moved from his waist to his back. I had stopped acting. He was not either. And the scariest thing of all was that. Slice. James's voice cut like a blade through the atmosphere. I quickly withdrew, gasping for air. Julian took a while to move. Something unreadable flickered beneath the surface as his hands lingered on me for an excessive amount of time and his eyes remained fixed on mine. Then he suddenly took a step back. His face returned to that of the untouchable Hollywood star, Julian Cross. I took a deep breath. Taking action. It was merely a performance. Correct? Returning to the Real World There was silence on the set. James then whistled softly. "That was quite a show." Members of the crew looked at each other knowingly. Someone cleared their throat. One of the lighting assistants whispered, "Damn." "It seemed as though I was encroaching on something." Julian laughed sharply, but his eyes did not meet his. "Is not that the main point?" I clenched my jaw. I smirked against my will. "The best method acting." James put his hands together in a clap. "All right, before we restart for another take, let us take five." One more take. I let out a slow breath. Julian's expression was unreadable as he combed through his hair. Then he turned and left the set without a glance in my direction. I remained behind, my skin still tingling from the ghost of his touch, my heart still pounding. This was not merely a show. And I suspected that we were both on the verge of discovering it.Ethan’s POVThe first time I cried in front of Julian, I was twenty-five and buzzed on cheap vodka in a Berlin flat. He didn’t say anything. Just held me like the world wasn’t ending.This time, it was worse.Because this time, he was the one fraying.And I didn’t know how to hold us both.It started at the film gala.A bright, curated night. Polished cameras. Glittering lights. A crowd that cheered for progress but whispered about it, too.I could feel it from the moment we stepped onto the carpet. Eyes pinning us together. Some curious. Some cruel.Julian smiled beside me, that perfect smile he’d trained to wear. But it didn’t reach his eyes.He used to be untouchable at these things. Now, I saw the weight in his shoulders.And it terrified me.Because if he faltered, I wasn’t sure I’d know how to stand.Inside, the questions came—like always.“Was the intimacy in Glass Mercy inspired by your real relationship?”“Do you think being openly queer will shift the kinds of roles you’re o
Ethan’s POVJulian had always been the steady one.Even before we were us, he walked through the world like he already knew how it would try to knock him down—and he dared it to try. It wasn’t arrogance. It was armor. Polished and impenetrable.And I’d loved him for it. Maybe too much.But lately, the cracks had started to show.Not in ways anyone else would notice. Julian still gave good interviews. Still shook hands with that poised intensity that made directors lean in and trust him. Still held his glass with two fingers, like it was all elegance and never tension.But I saw it.I saw it in the way he stared a beat too long at his phone before answering. In the way his fingers tapped silent rhythms against his thigh during meetings. In how tightly he held my hand when we were introduced as a couple—not just collaborators.He was changing.And I didn’t know how to help him without pulling him apart further.The morning after the awards dinner, he was quiet. Not distant—just still.I
Julian’s POVMy father’s voice on the phone was flat. Not cold. Just… processed. Like he was reading a memo, not speaking to his son.“I saw the interview,” he said.The pause after those four words could have swallowed me whole.I cleared my throat. “Okay.”Another pause. Then, “You looked calm. Collected.”There it was. Not a compliment. Not an accusation. Just another test I didn’t study for.I glanced across the room at Ethan, curled up in a chair, laptop open on his knees. He gave me a small, knowing smile—the kind that said, I’m here, even if you fall.“He’s important to me,” I said into the phone, more softly than I intended. “We’re not hiding anymore.”A quiet hum, like my father was trying to find the right words in a language he’d never learned.“I don’t… understand,” he finally admitted. “But I suppose that’s not the point, is it?”No. It wasn’t.The point is that I’m not asking you to understand me in theory anymore. I’m asking you to see me. As I am.But I didn’t say that
Julian’s POVThe café was quiet, tucked away in a forgotten corner of a city that never truly slept. The kind of place you had to know to find. Julian sat at a back table, fingers tracing the smooth, timeworn grain of the wood. His espresso had gone cold.His phone buzzed again.Another article. Another headline. Another opinion.“Is Julian Vale risking it all for love?”“Ethan Rhodes: Queer Icon or Career Suicide?”“The men behind Glass Mercy—more than collaborators?”He didn’t really read them anymore. Just glimpses. Enough to sting. Enough to remind him of the edge he was always walking.Across from him sat Briar, their publicist. All sharp cheekbones, matte lipstick, and eyes hardened by too many reputations cracked under pressure.“They’re already talking about pulling some of the European premieres,” she said. “The French distributor’s nervous.”Julian didn’t look at her. His gaze stayed on the window, watching people blur past like ghosts.“And if they do?” he asked calmly.“Yo
Ethan’s POVI kept wiping my palms against my jeans like that would somehow calm my nerves.“Stop fidgeting,” my mom said gently, not looking up from the bowl of green beans she was mixing. “It’s just dinner.”It wasn’t just dinner.It was Julian—meeting my parents for the first time. Sitting at the table I grew up eating at. Breathing the same cinnamon-and-lemon air I once stormed away from, heart racing with secrets I couldn’t say out loud.It was everything.The doorbell rang.I froze.My mom shot me a look like, Go get him, before I do.I opened the door and there he was—Julian, wearing the dark green sweater I loved on him, holding a bottle of wine like this was a normal night.“You’re early,” I murmured, trying to suppress a grin.“You’re nervous,” he replied, kissing the corner of my mouth. “Which means I’m exactly on time.”I stepped aside to let him in. He looked around like he was stepping into something sacred. And maybe he was.My dad stood up from the couch when we entere
Ethan’s POVI sat in front of the camera for an hour before I pressed record.I’d deleted five drafts already—each one too polished, too careful, too rehearsed. Like I was still trying to make myself palatable, digestible. Easy to forgive.But I didn’t want forgiveness.I wanted freedom.The studio lights were off. The background was nothing but a gray wall in Julian’s guest room. I wore a hoodie and no makeup. My hair was a mess. My voice, shaky.When I finally hit record, my heart nearly punched through my ribs.“Hey,” I said quietly. “It’s Ethan.”I stared at the lens. At the red blinking dot that felt like a thousand eyes.“I’ve spent most of my life being exactly who people needed me to be. The golden boy. The idol. The straight, polished product. I was told not to confuse the fans. Told to smile. Keep it neutral. Keep it clean.”I swallowed.“But I’m tired of clean.”A pause.“I’m tired of neutral. Tired of being scared. Tired of lying to everyone—including myself.”I sat up str