Masuk
(Amara)
“Mmm.”
Maya hums as she rounds the corner and catches me packing up my bag. “Don’t tell me you rushed to clear your desk on time just because you’re eager to run home?”
I glance at her, smile, then return to arranging my things.
Maya, my best friend and work colleague, has never been one to believe in love. The idea of worrying about a partner, caring about their well-being, or stepping out of her comfort zone for someone makes her cringe. Coming from a broken home, she believes loving a man properly is pointless. According to her, they always betray you in the end.
But that isn’t my story.
Felix, my husband, is different. We’ve been married for five years, yet every day still feels like the first. He adores me, sends flowers, plans surprises, and does everything he can to make me smile, especially on days when the weight of trying and failing to conceive feels unbearable.
Honestly, I have the perfect husband.
I slide my tablet into my bag, sling it over my arm, and turn to Maya. “You know, you should try giving love a chance. I think you might like it.”
She scrunches up her face as if the words taste bitter. “Girl, I would’ve done that a long time ago—if only I could find a species that doesn’t cheat.”
We burst into laughter.
Then she steps closer, her expression softening. “But I’m really happy for you. Five years and still counting. And every single year, you rush home like it’s day one.” She grins. “Happy wedding anniversary, baby.”
She pulls me into a tight hug, and something in my chest melts. Even though Maya claims she hates love, she loves fiercely in her own way.
I pull back, smiling. “You don’t want me crying here, do you?”
“I know better,” she laughs softly, a small, teasing smile playing at her lips. “Just… make sure to enjoy every part of your anniversary tonight, okay?”
I nod, chuckling. “I should go,” I say, heading toward the office door. “I need to set things up for Felix and me.”
“Okay!” she calls after me. “Have a blast. I’ll be waiting for all the details tomorrow!”
I laugh, wave, and leave.
*******
The mansion comes into view as I pull into the driveway, the home I worked tirelessly to pay for. You’re probably wondering why I paid for it and not my husband.
Felix lost his big job a few months after we got married and hasn’t been able to secure a proper one since. But I didn’t mind. My savings, from before my family cut ties with me, have kept us comfortably afloat.
They disowned me for marrying beneath my class.
But when did love ever have anything to do with class?
My entire life had been mapped out for me—what to wear, what to eat, who to talk to, who to befriend. It felt like my life had already been decided before I was old enough to understand it. I was exhausted from being controlled.
Meeting Felix changed that.
I met him during a college field trip involving students from other schools, and for the first time, I felt seen. Alive. Loved for who I was, not for what I could offer.
I shake off the memory, turn off the engine, and step out of the car.
I open the trunk and grab the shopping bags. I’d stopped by the mall earlier for groceries and a few gifts for Felix. I’d also asked Susan, our house help, to take the day off. Tonight was meant to be just us.
I sigh softly. “Come on,” I mutter to myself, adjusting the bags. “I need to start cooking before Felix gets home.”
I’m a few steps from the door when I notice it isn’t properly closed.
My heart skips.
Did Felix get here already?
Last year, he teased me by pretending he was still on the road, only for me to walk in and find the house fully decorated. My lips curve into a smile as excitement bubbles in my chest.
I push the door open gently and step inside.
“Felix?” I call softly.
The room is quiet—until I hear breathing.
My eyes snap toward the couch.
A woman slowly rises, using the chair beside her for support.
My gaze drops instantly to her stomach.
Heavily pregnant.
I look back up at her face, my heart thudding wildly. “Who… who are you?” I whisper.
Before she can respond, the door opens behind me.
I turn.
Felix.
His eyes move from the pregnant woman to me, his breath coming in uneven gasps. He says nothing. Doesn’t explain.
He closes the door behind him and walks deeper into the room.
Not toward me.
Toward her.
My heart sinks.
(Amara)I wake up to the loud blare of my phone alarm.Seriously? I’m on vacation and I still haven’t turned off that damn thing?This alarm has been part of my life for years. The one I trained myself to wake up to after I got married to Felix. Back then, I had to learn discipline. Time. Routine. Being ready before the day even started.It wasn’t always like that.In my parents’ house, I woke up whenever I wanted. Breakfast was already waiting. My outfit laid out. Every detail handled for me. I never had to worry about planning my day or getting things done. I would wake up and decide if I wanted a spa day, a museum visit, or just to exist comfortably inside the life my parents had already arranged for me.I sit up suddenly.Come to think of it… this is a new day.A real one.Time to begin my adventure.I clap my hands once in anticipation just as the alarm rings again. Groaning, I push the duvet aside and drag myself out of bed, moving sluggishly toward my bag. I dig out my phone an
(Amara)The moment feels suspended until his voice breaks through it.“Are you okay?”His words are low and close, brushed against the side of my neck. There is a thickness to his voice, something steady and concerned, as if the question leaves him instinctively before he can think better of it.Slowly, I pull away from his chest. A flicker of embarrassment washes over me when I realize how tightly I had held on, how easily I had leaned into him. I sigh softly and sweep my hair to the side before lifting my gaze.He is already looking at me.His hair curls neatly to one side, perfectly in place, and his eyes are bright, almost sparkling as they meet mine. There is relief there. Maybe something else too.“Yeah,” I say, my voice quieter than I expect. “Thank you. I almost tripped on you. I’m so sorry about that.”He shakes his head, a soft smile settling on his lips. “Yeah. It’s nothing.”That is when it hits me.We are still standing on the plane steps.People are waiting.“Oh,” I murm
(Amara)“What is it, Amara?”Maya’s voice tears through the apartment as I move from room to room. Bedroom. Living room. Balcony.Since yesterday, I’ve said nothing. I haven’t eaten. And now I’m dragging clothes from my box and tossing them into a wide steel container on the balcony, piling fabric on fabric like they mean nothing.“And now…” Maya follows me out, disbelief sharpening her tone. “Now you’re throwing your clothes away and burning them?”I don’t answer.I kneel, arranging the clothes more deliberately, smoothing a sleeve, pushing a dress down so everything fits. I move back inside, grab another armful.Her footsteps rush after me.“What’s going on?” She grips my arm, forcing me to stop. “You know you can talk to me, right?”I look at her. Really look at her.Maya has been my only friend since I moved to this city five years ago. I tell her most things. Laugh with her. Cry with her. But I’ve never told her about my family.I never saw the need.I wanted one person in my lif
(Amara)My eyes widen as he approaches, stopping a few feet away from me.“Na… Nathan.” His name slips out before I can stop it.He exhales slowly, hands sliding into his pockets. “What are you doing here?”I stiffen. The question lands wrong. Cold. Almost disgusted.“I asked you something,” he says again, sharper this time. “What are you doing here?”I flinch and take two small steps back, shock rippling through me. The way he looks at me hurts more than the words. Like I am a stranger. Like I am nothing.Nathan and I used to be close. Close enough that I trusted him with most of my secrets. Even when he refused to understand why I left, I never imagined he would speak to me like this. Not after five years. Not to his own sister.“You should at least have the decency not to step foot in this mansion again,” he continues. “Especially after everything that happened.”His words snap me out of my thoughts.I nod once, lips pressing into a thin line. “Yes. I know. That’s why I was already
(Amara)“Oh,” she says, running a hand through her hair. “That. I mean the drug you’re talking about.” She moves briskly toward me. “You can’t find it?” she asks, sounding almost unsure of what I mean.I stare at her, stunned.“Didn’t you get me? That’s what I’m looking for,” I say, drawing the words out, each syllable weighed down by my frustration. I move to the bed and sink into it, exhaustion pressing into my bones.I hold her gaze.“You must have one for yourself, right? You said you got one for yourself too. Can you help me with it, since I can’t find mine?”“Sorry, Amara. Mine is finished,” Maya cuts in.She turns toward the table, her back to me now. “But you don’t have to worry. I can just get you one tomorrow.”She faces me again, an assuring smile settling on her lips. It’s gentle, practiced, the kind meant to calm storms.“I’ll go to the hospital before heading to work, and you’ll have it by evening. How does that sound?”I sigh, drawing in a deep breath. It’s late. There’
(Amara)Her eyes flicker.“Selina?” she repeats slowly, like the name itself doesn’t belong anywhere in her memory. For a brief second, there’s nothing behind her gaze. Then, recognition dawns. Slowly, her lips curl into a smile.“Ah yes,” she says lightly. “She’s a distant relative.”She lowers the glass of juice to the table and turns fully toward me, reaching out to take the phone from my hand. There’s a soft chuckle as she looks at the screen.“I usually call her Lina,” she adds casually. “So for a moment, I was confused about who you were talking about.”Her thumb presses the side button. The screen goes dark. She tosses the phone onto the table as if it means nothing.“I don’t plan on picking her call,” she continues. “I’m sure she’s only calling because she needs money again.”She laughs, an easy, dismissive sound.“You know how all these relatives can be.”A deep sigh leaves me. My fingers slide into my hair, gripping lightly as her words replay in my head, over and over again







