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35. Mercy on my Heart
Dhruv's POV :-
She stroked her fingers with mine. My name on her lips was like an angel asking for the sin to be done. Her hands on my skin traced a path of fire, ready to burn me with passion. I needed her again. I needed to kiss her again until I felt breathless.
I heard her taking my name. I flew my hands to take her back in my arms but all I got was vacant space. Confused I fluttered my eyes open, adjusting to the light. Bringing my fist, I rubbed it against my eyes and saw someone was kneeling on the bed.
"Sanchi . . ." I whispered and raised my lips in a smile but it went down. It must be a dream. She wasn't standing in front of me with a smile. I had those dreams many times. Seeing her, loving her, talking to her and when I wake up all I met was the feel of betrayal.
I shook my head but she was standing right in front of me.
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