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34. Past to Confront
Sometimes you do things you aren't proud of. Things you allowed before but then after it happens, you start regretting because you had the other choice and you could choose that choice. You could have changed so many things by choosing something else.
That was how I felt right now.
Who sleeps with their best friend after a fight? Who says them don't stop when they ask you to stop them? Who gives approval when they ask again and again if you were sure?
I cover my face with my hands, trying to reserve the shame. It shouldn't have happened. What had I done?
His arm felt like a heavy crushing weight around my waist. I didn't even turn to look at his face when I woke up. It was early morning. Last night shouldn't have happened. I shouldn't have let him kiss me, then undress me and then take me to his bed.
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