When I turn on the bed at dawn, I find Ivan's side empty. I assume he's using the toilet, so I go back to bed. I'm properly up by 8:35 a.m., and Ivan is nowhere to be found. Even at his home office. Aliya confirmed that he left very early this morning for work. I wouldn't have been surprised if not that it's Sunday today. He's always home on Sundays. I go to shower and have breakfast so I can resume my writing. When my laptop is in front of me, Ideas are flowing and I should be more than excited about that since it's the romance manuscript I abandoned when I couldn't figure out the sex scene but I just can't concentrate.Firstly, my mind wanders off to last night, which was undoubtedly an amazing one for me. I had sex for the first time and even enjoyed it, though I still feel sore. When Ivan walked in on me touching myself, that had to be the most embarrassing thing I have ever felt in a long time. I didn't think he would react the way he did, which made me feel relieved knowing he
“There's no sign of life, Pakhan.” Alex says as he limps into one of the rooms of the underground tunnel that I and more than a dozen of my men are holed up in. There are a few bodies sprawled at every nook and cranny of the room.“Doc, see Alex's wound next.” I motion with my head in Alex's direction, signalling that he takes a seat. Pavel is currently getting a stitch on his inner thigh.“Where's Lev?” I ask Nikolai, who is standing beside me. He lifts his chin at the entrance, and I look up to see Lev walking inside, a blunt in between his lips. He looks like shit. Fuck, we all do.After what I would consider the best and most peaceful night I've had in a long long time, I was woken up with a call that the Terka Syndicate had breached one of my major warehouses in New york. They obviously didn't take my rejection - to not use my border route - lightly.I have a total of twenty-five warehouses scattered all over the state and a few more outside the state; three of which are fully e
I've just put up my hair into a ponytail when there's a quick knock on my bedroom door. Yup, you heard that right. I moved out of Ivan's room 2 days ago. Being in his space was really messing with my head, and I just couldn't take it anymore. It doesn't even help that his scent practically fills up the entire room.His action over the last four days since he left tells me of the kind of person he is. I scoff at my own stupidity for not keeping my desire for my sexy husband in check. I couldn't go back to my former room because while the ceiling has been repaired, the room still needs a lot of fixing to look like it did before whatever it was that happened to it. So I moved into the room opposite Ivan's. It's a bit smaller than what I'm originally used to, but the cosiness of the space makes it more than perfect for me. “Come in.” I respond.Aliya opens the door and peeks her head inside. “Pakhan is back, ma'am.” I restrain myself from showing any obvious interest in Ivan finally fi
My alarm goes off by 5:30 am sharp, and I instantly regret not turning it off before I went to bed last night. I mute the damn thing and force myself to fall back asleep, but my brain obviously doesn't get the memo because it picks up from where my thoughts stopped last night.I don't think I've ever seen a woman as livid as Lucia was yesterday, which is why I decided to give her some space. For now.I'll just try again today. Whoever said that women aren't difficult has some serious mental issues. I mean It's probably a woman who said it anyway. Rolling onto my stomach on Lucia's side of the bed, I glue my face to her pillow, needing her scent to wash over me again so I can fall asleep. That was how I managed to fall asleep last night. I've gotten so used to having her in my bed that it hurts to lay here without her. Lev would laugh in my face if he heard about this.It's Friday today and normally I should already be up and about, getting ready to go into the office and then my newl
Usually, after partying all night, I normally wake up with a tremendous headache, almost as if my skull developed a mind of it's own and hopes to tear itself open and away from my head. Not right now, though. I only have a mild headache, which proves that I haven't been asleep that long.When my eyelids flutter open, I catch the dim lights on the red ceiling above me, but it takes a while to get rid of the blurriness of the room before my eyes are able to adjust. Now that my eyes are focused, the entire room is in fact red, and I'm very certain that this isn't my room. Where the fuck am I? My brain activity seems to be slower than usual because it takes me more than a minute to realize the position I'm in. I don't even know what exactly it is but I do know that I can't move my body an inch. What the hell!I'm sprawled out on the surface of a cushioned table… or is it a chair? It's definitely the same as the ones in a gynecologist office, or something close. My legs are spread open w
“And?” Comes Lev's voice over the phone.“And what?” Just like I do every night before going to bed, I always make sure to leave my phone turned on incase of any late night emergency calls. Immediately I heard my phone ringing while I was knocked out in my bedroom with Lucia in my arms, I wished i had made last night an exemption and just turned off the damn thing at least until dawn. Well it’s almost dawn now, and I and my brother, Lev, are still talking.It's nearing an hour now since he called, and I know better that when he calls at unexpected times, it's usually because something is going on and he needs company. I would never deny him that. I love him to the moon and back. I'm at the balcony talking with him, and though he didn't tell me what the problem was when he called me by 5 in the morning, I know better than to ask. I just listen to him talk and engage in little conversations no matter how meaningless it may be until he's cheered up again. Which is what led me to tell h
Ivan and I stride into the grand hall, joining the other formally dressed guests who are here for the fundraising gala. Ivan said it's a charity auction, which has me excited. I haven't been to one before.Just like the last time we were out like this in public, every heads turn in our direction immediately we step into the room. And once again, I can feel every pair of eyes sizing me up. Especially the ladies. I'm wearing a strapless silver sequin dress that's floor length and has a high slit that runs across my legs. My hair is finely done in loose curls, and I put on just the right amount of makeup.Ivan had this gorgeous dress specially made for me and because there wasn't enough time to go shopping for new heels and a purse that would match my outfit, I paired it with one from my wardrobe much to Ivan's surprise. He said he didn't know I owned that many items since I am usually almost always at home. His statement made me laugh, and I told him a woman can never have ‘too many’ c
The night started off so well. Infact, the whole day beginning from last night. Well, that is until now.I knew something was up immediately I saw Lucia's expression when she came out of the restroom. There was just something different about it from when she went in at first. But hearing the words coming out of her mouth tonight has my thoughts spiralling. I have no doubt that Anna… crazy crazy Anna ambushed my wife in there and put thoughts in her head.And I can't blame Lucia for her reaction. Just looking at her breaks something in me. There's nothing but hurt on her face, and it kills me to think that I'm the cause of it.She thinks I went to be with Anna after that beautiful first night we had together only because I didn't go into details about the events of the four days I was away. And Anna, who somehow got information on my absence, decided to use it to her advantage. She'll learn soon enough why that was a bad idea but first things first. I take Lucia's hand in mine as I l