Laura is acting really weird, she told me she was still asleep when I arrived, but she's fully dressed and keeps glancing at the stairs like someone might appear at any moment.
"Are your parents home?" I ask, confused because their cars weren't in the drive, nor was Dane's and he's so loud we'd know if he was home anyway.
"No, why? Did you hear something?" Her eyes dart up to my face and I frown, leaning forward to rest my hand on top of hers.
"Laura, what's going on? You're really jumpy."
"Nothing, nothing. I'm not jumpy, just tired, I didn't sleep well last night, that's all. I'm just tired." She says, her words coming out too fast. The last time she was like this, she was being bullied by Carrie Lawson for daring to buy the same school shoes as her and it to
This has been the longest week of my life and as much as I've enjoyed myself, the forces is definitely not for me. I dying to get home and into my own bed, preferably with Elsie too so I really hope my dad has taken the whore out somewhere. We're just about to leave when one of the Marines calls Luke back, telling him Lieutenant Randle wants to see him before he goes. I've got to hand it to Luke, he's had a tough fucking week and he's handled it better than I would have, I'm not sure I'd still be here, but Luke wanted to prove to the guy that he won't be bullied and scared off, I'm not sure if that's from this or from Cleo. Maybe it's both? Surprisingly when he comes back, he's smiling and he taps the top of my car with his hand.
Billy's been back a few weeks now and we've fallen into a regular routine of one of us pretending to be out so we can sleep over in each other's room.Laura's still secretly doing whatever with The Four and my mum and William have eased up on the loud displays during the night. In fact everything seems to have reached some sense of normality, or at least consistency.I can't say I'm disappointed that Billy's decided against the army, a week felt long enough to be away from him, let alone months at a time, and that's the moment I realise I'm thinking about him in a long term way, not only that but in a long term relationship manner and I'm not sure that's even feasible, let alone what I want?I feel like I need to talk to him about this, but the sooner I talk to him, the sooner I need to address this issu
Elsie fell asleep quite quickly in my arms, the redness on her cheek has faded so you wouldn't even know it was there. But my rage is teetering on the surface, she was hurt and I'm almost positive it was her mum that hurt her, I just don't know why.I don't even know how to find out without revealing that I was here and that I care so much, which is making me even more angry and although I think I may have fallen asleep for a few hours, I'm wide awake now and it's still dark."Morning." She turns towards me when she finally wakes up, stretching and yawning, then smiling at me, as though she hasn't got a care in the world.She presses her lips to mine, pushing on my shoulder so I lie down and she can roll on top of me."Good morning." I grin, my mood lifting considerably
Billy and I seem to have gotten into a nice little routine when it comes to sleeping together, as in actually sleeping, we don't even have to pretend we're not in the same house anymore, we just wait for my mum and William to go to bed and then one of us sneaks across the hallway, making sure to lock the bedroom door so we don't get walked in on while asleep.I've not yet worked out what to tell my mum about the camping trip yet, but I've got to do it today since we're meant to be leaving tomorrow.In the end I get Billy to drop me at Laura's so I can ask her for any ideas."Why don't you say we're going together? I could tell my parents the same and go stay in a hotel for the week." She blushes and I'm fairly sure she's got plans of her own forming in her mind that involve The Four.
The camping trip was brilliant, even though in typical English weather style it rained for most of the week.I was a little suspicious about why Elsie's friend's brother Dane really wanted to come, but as soon as they got there he spent the entire time flirting rather not so subtly with Jenny and since she ended up sleeping in a tent with him and driving home in his car, I'm pretty sure it went well.It's been lovely being able to be with Elsie out in the open for so long and I can't wait until she's left for university so we can be open about it the whole time, but I'm also starting to wonder what the big deal is with telling our parents. Now we know we're serious about one another, that is.I'm fairly sure my dad will be pissed, but he won't overreact like I thought he would originally.
If I thought my mum was angry when she saw us together in the room, it was nothing compared to the unrestrained fury on her face when we walk into the room hand in hand."You." She snarls, pointing her finger in Billy's face. "I warned you not to touch her.Do you have no conscience at all, using my own daughter to try to get me to split up with your father, and you..." She spins around, dropping her hand but glaring at me. "I warned you about what he was up to, he doesn't even like you. Are you really that desperate that you gave it up to the first boy who showed you any interest?""Hey." Billy shouts, pulling me into his side at the exact same time as his Dad steps forward, putting his hands on her shoulders."Let's all sit, calm down and have an adult discussion, shall we?" He says, guiding my mum to the sofa.
Elsie runs a lot. She gets up at the crack of dawn and goes out for hours. She thinks I don't know, but I feel her get up, I don't know what to do to help, so I make her breakfast and then wait for her to come back."Morning." She grins when she comes back in, which is why I don't fight it. She always looks so much happier after she's been running."Morning, your breakfast await my dear." I bow and stretch my arms wide, gesturing to the table which I've laid for the two of us.The whore is refusing to be in the same room as us in the hope it'll make Elsie feel guilty enough to end it with me, which I think is why she's running as much as she is. She's also forgetting to eat, which is another reason I'm making her breakfast every day."Apple or orange?" She asks, peering
I wake up in the hospital and very quickly a sense of dread settles in my stomach when I realise where I am and what happened. I went too far! Stupid! I know my limits, I shouldn't have pushed myself so far! "Oh baby, you're awake." My mother stands up, fussing around me like she hasn't ignored my existence for the last week. "As soon as the doctor says it's ok, I'm going to take you home, ok? Mummy's here and she'll look after you." "Where's Billy? Does he know I'm here?" I try to sit up, but my mum presses on my stomach, keeping me in place. "He was flirting with the nurses, arranging to see them after their shifts, so I told him to go home." She says, looking at her hands as she smoothes the blanket over me.