~There's No Point In Hoping

Professor Evans is one of the youngest lecturers in the academy. And that makes it easier to be able to confide in him. He understands young adults and sees things from our own point of view.

And that’s one of the reasons he is my best history lecturer to ever exist.

He turns sharply from the pulpit. He had just finished scrubbing some things down on the board.

“That will be the end of the class for today.” He announces with his usual friendly smile that always has a cute dimple.

“Kieran, wait behind after class.” He adds immediately.

I nod.

The last of the students, with exhaustion oozing out of them, trickle out with tired expressions on their faces. Same as me still sitted here.

Professor Evans turns towards me and frowns with concern. “Have you got any news recently? Tell me if anything is going on?”

I looked back at him sharply. “There is absolutely nothing going on.”

He leans back against the desk and nods at my wrist. A handsome stubble runs along his jaw. His brown hair is brushed to the side and his blue eyes study me with gentle kindness.

I approach the main desk and sit beside him. Then I sigh dejectedly.

“It didn't go well.” I shrug. “We met at some place in the woods. He walked in and out. And that was it.”

“He?” He asks, shock written all over his features.

“Yeah. His name is Caius.”

“And he didn't feed?” Evans asks gently.

“I said earlier that he just walked in and why.” I say but I decided against mentioning the emails exchanged between me and Caius. “He seemed pretty much disinterested because in the few minutes we saw each other, I was rejected.”

He nods briefly. “That’s nothing to worry about. It’s normal for him to be like that since he’s just got a new consort and his previous consort must have just died.”

“His kind does not have sympathy.” I yawn.

“Come on, Kieran.” He pats my shoulder. “He’ll adjust over time.”

“If you say so.”

“The only thing that baffles me is why you’re assigned to a male vampire instead of a female vampire.”

“Exactly!” I bang my fist on the table. “You’re the only one who understands me. This still feels like a dream. In fact, it’s impossible. Why would I get assigned to a male vampire?”

“I have never heard or read about that. This is the first time it’s happening.” He breathes. Then he laughs softly. “It’s just quite sad it’s happening to you instead of Beau.”

My jaw drops.

“Now, you’re mocking me?” I ask.

“Nope. I’m just happy your name will be in the history books.” He laughs again. “My dearest student. You made us famous.”

“Can we please change the subject of discussion? This one sucks.”

“Agreed.” Professor Evans says. “I should let you go anyways. I'm sure your friends are waiting for you.”

I nod. “Yes, they are. I can't keep them waiting much longer.”

And true to his words, I met Beau and Rebecca by the door. They both looked at me like they weren't eavesdropping.

I look at them and let out a deep breath. I hesitate a little before I can request this: “Guys, can I treat you to lunch?”

“As long as we'll get burgers,” Beau says.

I smirk and walk towards the cafeteria. I placed an order for some coffee and sandwiches for all of us.

After a few minutes, I cleared my throat awkwardly. “So, guys, I wanted to apologize for how I reacted yesterday. I shouldn't have gone off on you like that.” I say, looking at them apologetically.

Rebecca speaks up first because Beau is busy munching the burger fillings he wouldn't be able to speak even if he tried.

“Are you sure that was all that really happened? Are you sure he didn't hurt you?” She asks again.

“Yes… yes, I'm sure. I know my reaction made it look like I was hurt in some way but I'm fine.”

Beau decides to speak and, “you know it's not the end of the world if he's a male right. Is it that you hate him or that he's not attractive enough? Or is it the usual “I can’t be with a man”?”

I sputter. “What the fuck, Beau? Why would you say that? I'm not like that. It’s just- just weird to me. And it’s not like it’s something I’ve ever wanted.”

“Well… let's hope he'll get hungry soon and get back to his senses and then call you back.” Beau spits.

“And if he doesn't,” Rebecca pauses dramatically, “fuck him! No one is gonna mess with my homeboy.”

“It doesn't matter anyways. He rejected me and I've also rejected him. There's no point in hoping.” I respond, a smile tugging at my lips.

Their jaws drop. “You what?”

“I rejected him too.”

“Wow!” Rebecca chimes. “I love your aura. This feels like watching a TV show from the 1900’s. What say, Beau?”

“Honestly, I’m not sure about that. Rejecting a vampire?” He nods. “Feels a little bit anxious. Not something to get excited about.”

I lean forward, my eyes glazing. “He says he is getting a new consort. It might take too long but I'll also be reassigned anyways. Hopefully this time it'll be a woman.”

“Don't worry about it, bro.” Beau says.

I nod.

My phone buzzes on the table and I pick it up. I had received an email notification.

Only one person texts me through my mail like a psycho.

I didn't bother opening the text. I swiped away the email pop up and I shoved my phone in my pocket.

I'm not going to let this shit mess with my mental health.

“Is that him?” Rebecca suddenly asks and I flinch.

“What?”

“I mean you look like you just saw a ghost and it can only mean one thing.” she retorts.

“It's no one. It's just a stupid notification” I said quickly while I shoved my chair back and I stood up.

“Alright guys, we'll meet in the hostel.”

“I think we're also done. Right, Beau?” Rebecca whispers, standing up also.

“Yeah… let's go.” Beau adds and we all match out of the cafeteria.

But my mind goes back to the earlier notification. I should have opened it. Maybe, the idiot finally gets assigned to a new consort?