FAZER LOGIN~ Helena~
I was lost in thought, my rag moving absentmindedly across the surface of the wooden table at the restaurant where I worked. The hum of voices, the clatter of cutlery, and the scent of grilled food swirled around me, but none of it registered. My mind was somewhere else buried under worries I couldnât seem to shake.
A sudden snap of fingers jolted me back.
âHey, good afternoon,â a manâs voice said firmly.
I blinked, startled, and looked up to see someone standing directly in front of me. Embarrassment flushed through me. âSorry, good afternoon,â I said quickly, straightening.
And then recognition hit. It was him the man Iâd helped a few days ago when his little daughter had gotten lost and frightened.
His expression softened. âHow are you?â he asked warmly.
âIâm fine,â I said, mustering a small smile. âWhat a surprise. I didnât expect to see you anytime soon.â
âYeah,â he chuckled lightly, slipping his hands into his pockets. âI just wanted to say thank you again.â
âOh, it was nothing,â I said, shaking my head.
But he tilted his head slightly, studying me. âIs everything okay? You lookedâŚlost in thought when I saw you.â
The weight in my chest pressed down harder. I sighed, setting the rag aside. âThings havenât been going well at home,â I admitted, my voice low. âI need to find a way to earn more income for the household. Just two days ago, my landlord called reminding me that the rent is due. And IâŚâ My throat tightened, and I forced the words out. âI havenât gathered enough to pay.â
I hesitated, but the silence between us was too kind, too patient. âI also lost my dad not long ago,â I added quietly. The words stung, even now.
His eyes softened, sympathy flickering in them. After a pause, he said, âI can help you if youâre willing to take the offer. The job I left in Washington, D.C. is still vacant. I can arrange an interview for you.â
My heart leapt, excitement surging in my eyes. âReally?â
But just as quickly, guilt swept in. I thought of my mom, fragile and alone. I couldnât leave her behind. Not like this.
âThank you,â I said softly, âIâllâŚget back to you.â
He nodded, understanding, and left. I forced myself back into work, though my mind never returned to the restaurant.
Later, walking home through the fading evening light, my thoughts churned around the offer. The idea of leaving Pennsylvania for Washington was thrilling, terrifying, impossible all at once. Could I really do it? Could I leave my mom?
But all those questions vanished the moment I turned the corner onto my street.
An ambulance.
Parked right in front of my house.
My stomach dropped. My steps quickened into a sprint, fear clawing at me. âNo, no, noâŚâ I whispered as I shoved open the door.
Inside, chaos blurred my vision. Paramedics crouched over my mother, lifting her carefully onto a stretcher. Her face was pale, her lips trembling faintly.
âMom!â I cried, rushing to her side. âWhat happened?â
One of the paramedics glanced at me quickly. âShe wasnât feeling well. She managed to call before we arrived, but she collapsed shortly after.â
I felt the air vanish from my lungs.
They wheeled her out swiftly, and I clung to her hand, refusing to let go. âIâm here, Mom. Iâm right here.â My voice shook, but I tried to sound strong for her.
We rode in the ambulance, the sirens screaming against the night. I sat beside her, squeezing her hand, whispering prayers I wasnât sure anyone heard.
At the hospital, they rushed her inside. Hours blurred into minutes. I sat in the waiting room, knees bouncing, heart refusing to calm. Finally, a nurse called me to the doctorâs office.
âGood morning, please sit,â the doctor said gently.
My legs wobbled as I sat. Fear strangled my words. âWhatâs wrong with my mom? Is she going to be okay?â
The doctor folded his hands. âYour mom has a tumor in her brain. It isnât fully developed yet, but it will require surgery to be removed. For now, sheâll need to stay healthy, come for regular check-ups, and prepare until the right time for surgery.â
The words didnât register at first. Then they hit, heavy and sharp.
A tumor.
I couldnât breathe. I nodded numbly, murmured a thank you, and left his office in a daze.
I found my mom in her hospital bed, her eyes fluttering open. I forced a smile, though my chest burned. âThe doctor explained everything. They can remove it with surgery,â I said, trying to keep my voice steady.
She reached for my hand, her touch warm but weak. âDonât worry, my princess. You donât have to do anything. Iâll be fine.â
Tears threatened to spill, anger rising with them. âWhat do you mean âyouâll be fineâ? Youâre not planning on leaving me like Dad, are you?â
Her silence was enough.
We went home later in silence. I tucked her into bed, kissed her forehead, and lingered by her door until I was sure she was asleep.
Then I stepped out onto the balcony. The night air was cold, brushing my skin like needles. I wrapped my arms around myself, staring blankly at the street below, thoughts crashing louder than the traffic.
Thatâs when Tasha arrived.
She let herself in quietly, her eyes immediately finding mine. âHelen,â she whispered, and her arms wrapped around me before I could protest. âWhat happened?â
Her warmth cracked me open. I told her everything. The tumor. The bills. The landlord. The job offer. Every word spilled like a confession.
When I finished, my voice was barely audible. âI canât leave her, Tasha. Not now.â
But Tasha gripped my shoulders firmly. âYour mom wonât be alone. She has me. She has Mrs. Lawson. Weâll always be here. You need to take this opportunity. For her. For you.â
Her certainty was like sunlight breaking through clouds. Tears blurred my eyes as I pulled her into a hug. âThank you,â I whispered.
That night, I dialed the manâs number. âIâm in,â I said, voice steady.
Morning came too quickly.
I dressed carefully, choosing my best outfit, smoothing every crease until I felt at least a shadow of confidence. I took the morning bus from Pennsylvania to Washington, D.C. a three-hour ride that stretched endlessly. My reflection in the bus window looked both terrified and determined.
When the skyline finally appeared, my breath caught.
The company building stood tall and elegant, glass gleaming under the morning sun. âI can do this,â I whispered to myself, squaring my shoulders.
Inside, everything was immaculate, the marble floor polished to perfection, the chandelier glittering above. I approached the receptionist, who gave me a practiced smile and pointed me toward the elevators.
I stood waiting, nerves coiled tight, when impatience got the better of me. âIs it broken?â I muttered under my breath.
I turned to leave just as I collided with someone.
The impact jolted me, and the coffee cup in my hand splashed forward.
Right onto his shirt.
âOh my goodness!â I gasped, horrified. The hot liquid spread across his crisp white shirt, staining it brown. My cheeks flamed as I scrambled for napkins. âIâm so, so sorry. Please, let me make it up to you.â
He brushed at the stain slowly, jaw tight, eyes sharp with irritation. âItâsâŚfine,â he said, though his voice carried an edge.
âPlease, let me take it to the dry cleaner,â I begged.
âNo.â His tone was curt, final. âBesides, I donât do regular dry cleaners.â
He turned and walked away, his frustration trailing behind him like smoke.
I stood frozen, my guilt gnawing at me. But time was against me. I had an interview to attend.
I rushed into the conference room where a panel of executives waited. My nerves spiked, my heart hammering as my name was called.
I rose, smoothed my skirt, and walked in with all the confidence I could muster.
But the moment my eyes lifted, my confidence shattered.
At the head of the table sat the man I had just spilled coffee on. His suit is pristine now, b
ut his sharp gaze is unmistakable.
The CEO.
My stomach sank.
âIâm done for,â I whispered under my breath, dread twisting in my chest.
~ Helena ~The glass doors slid open with their usual soft hiss, but the sound felt deafening to me. It was the sound of my return, the sound of stepping back into the very place that had chewed me up and spit me out, then watched as I disappeared in disgrace.I braced myself.I had told myself a hundred times I wouldnât let it break me. That Iâd walk into the building like I never left. That my head would be high, my steps firm, my eyes steady.But nothing prepared me for the stares.They landed on me the instant I crossed the threshold, heavy and sharp, like glass shards pressed against my skin. Whispers followed immediately, like shadows too fast for me to catch, but too loud for me not to hear.âShe actually came back?ââI thought sheâd have the decency to quit.ââThis girl has no shame.âThe words werenât whispers. Not really. They were bait, spoken just loud enough for me to catch, just cruel enough to sting.I forced my lips into what I hoped was a calm smile, though my heart w
~Helena~â Being home felt like pâressing pauâse on a world that wâas spiânnâing too fâaâst. The air here waâs dâifferent, softer, calmer, untouched by tâhe buzzing flâ uorâ escentâ liâ ghts of offiâce hallways or the constant ping of emails. I couâld aâ câtuâ allyâ hear biârds in the morning instead of the distant roar of city traffic. And mosâ t of all, I didnâ ât hâaâ ve tâo wake up at 5 a.m., rush iânto stiffâ skirts and heelâs, and drag myselâfâ through another day of whâispers and stares.Hâoâ me meant comfort. Home meaânt peace. Home meanâ tâ Momâs cookiâng and Mrs. Lawâsonââs gentle hums fromâ nextâ door as she tended to herâ gardenâ. For the first time in what feltâ lâ ike forever, I could sit at the dâining tablâ e withoâ ut an agenda, witâ hout sticky notes câoverinâgâ my plannâeâ r, wiâ thout an urgâent phone call steâaling my attention.Still, that peâace was bittersâ weet.Every tâ iâme I looked at Mâom, I remembered that itâ wâ ouldnâât last foreverâ. Her tremor was stilâl theâre, even w
~Hâ elena~ After everything that haâppened atâ tâ hâ eâ office, I deâcidâed I needed aâ break. Noâtâ juâst a small paâ use, but a real escâ apâe from the noise, the tension,â and the weight of all tâheâ unanswereâd qâuestions circling my lifâ e likâe restless biâ rds. Iâ waânted to goâ toâ aâ place where Iâ wasâ râespected,â valued, and loâvâ ed witâhout quesâtioân. And there was only one place that made seânse, Pennsylvaânâia.It wasnât a decisâion Iâ made lightlây. The suspensiâon froâ m work was still fresh in my chest like a bruise. One week oâff. Thatâs what Ethan had said. Oâ ne week to reâflect. Iâ câ ouldnâât bear the iâdea of just staying in Washington, wanâdâering my apartmâ ent with nothing butâ silence tâo keep me comâpanyâ. The city itâself feâlt heavy now, like it was cloâ sing in on me. So Pâennsylvania wasnât just a choâ ice. It wasâ a necessity.âIâ had aâlways wanted tâ o go backâ, tâo sâpâ enâd more tâime thereâ, but work, life, and excâuses always gotâ in the waây. Now, it fel
~Helena~ The office buzzed likeâ a restless hâive that aftâ ernoon. Phoneâs rang in sharp bursts, prâintâ ers whirred, keyboâards clickeâ d in uneven rhythmâs, aâ nd faint convâersations overlapped until tâ hâey blendâed into a lâ ow hum of corporate chaos. Itâ wasnâtâ unuâ sual for us to be thisâ busy, we were, aftâerâ all, handling end-of-quarâter reconciliations,â butâ soâmething about the atmosâphere todâay felt diffeâ rent. Urgeânt. Tight. Heaâ vy.I sat atâ my desk,â posture straâiâght and dâ iscipâ lined, but inside my head wâas a stormâ of distractioâns. My lamp cast a soft pooâ l of light over the messâ oâ f fiâlesâ Iâ had organiâzed into smâalâl, neat stacks. Higâhlighâters, piânk, blâ ue, neâ oân yeâ llow, were scatteredâ acâross the dâesk like fragments of my restless thoughts, eâach oneâ maârkinâ g something âimportâant,ââ tâhougâ h hâaâlf the time, everythiâng felt imâporâ tant.Theâ Carâ ter accâ ount sat open in front oâf mâe. Rows of numbers, balaâncâ esâ, transfers, and annotaâtions fil
~Helena~Thâe office at night had a strange way of making everything loudâ er, my thoughâ ts, my feâars, my heartbeâat.â The silenâ ceâ didnât soothe me tonight;â iât pressed against me lâike a weight.I have been staring at the prâopâosalâ document for so long that the wâ ords were sâtarting to blur. Between the fiâ les I haâ d snapped fromâ theâ finance storage room and the mâessy knot of emâoâtioâns tiedâ toâ Ethâan, myâ mind felt likâe it was carrâying more than it could hold.I dâidnât even hear him comeâ in.âStill awake?âIâ lookeâd up. Ethan stood at myâ door witâ h two cuâ ps of coffee, sleeves rolled, tie loosenâ ed, looâking entirely tooâ calâ m for someone who shoâuldâveâ gone home thâ ree hours agoâ.He walked in,â plaâced oneâ cup beside me, anâ d leâaned against my desk lâike heâ beloâ ngedâ there.ââ You didânât tâ ell me yoâ u were staying thâ is late,â he said.ââYou didnât tell me you were keeâping wâ atch.âHe gâave a sâmall smile, thâe one thatâ made me forget how to breathe proper
~Ethaâ nâ~â A party.That woârd haâ d slipâped into my ears earlâ ierâ inâ the office whâen I overâ heard Helenaâs colleâaâgues.â They were pressing her to come, laughingâ ,â pullingâ at heâr arâ m, anâ d for sâ ome râ eason I didnât like iât. Not becâause I had the rigâ htâ to tell heâ r what to do, I didnât. Sheâ was free, iândependâent, stubborn, and beautiful in her quiet way. But the thoughât of her at some crowded eveânt, surrounded by strangers⌠it madâe something ugly twist inside me.ââI have been pouring coffee iâ n tâ hâ e break room when Danielâs voice snapped me back to reality.âEthan, what are yoâu doing?â âI blinked down, realizing the mug iân my hanâd was alrâeady overfâlowiâng. Thâ e cofâfeeâ had spilled down theâ sidâ e of the counter, a brown riâveâr pâ ooâ lâing under the machine.â Mâ y jaw tightened.âIââm..â I cleaâ red mâ y throat. âIâmâ finâ e.ââDaâniel leanedâ againsât the counter, armâs folded, watching mâe with that suspicious grin he always wore whenâ he knew I wasnât tâ elli







