Present DayHe vowed to love me.To protect me.To cherish me in sickness and in health, in darkness and in light.What a fucking joke that was.
Fairy tales teach little girls to believe in happily ever after. But mine came wrapped in silk and blood, bound with ancient promises and mafia politics. My fate wasn’t written in stars, it was inked in contracts and whispered behind closed doors long before I took my first breath. From the moment I was born, my life was tethered to his. Nico Moretti. The golden son of the Moretti empire. My father’s answer to peace, his bargaining chip for power, his most valuable offering: me.I was raised in glass, fragile, spotless, handled with care, groomed to smile prettily, speak only when spoken to, and sacrifice every dream I had at the altar of duty. I did everything right. I was the perfect little girl, molded into the perfect little wife and it didn’t matter. None of it mattered because to Nico, I was never a partner. I was a possession. A pretty trinket to place on his arm and tuck away when he grew bored. He’s not a good man. He’s not fair, not kind, not loyal or loving. Nico Moretti is a fucking monster, cruel, cold, calculating. He doesn’t love, he conquers. Doesn’t speak, he commands. And I let it happen. For five long, excruciating years, I let it happen. I sat at his feet. Smiled at his guests. Silenced my screams behind crimson lips and diamond collars. I played my part so well I almost forgot who I really was. Almost. There was a time I believed he’d change. That if I were just a little more obedient, a little more beautiful, a little more worthy, he might one day come home and see me, really see me, and love me the way I loved him but love like that doesn’t grow in cages and I’m done pretending. I’m done waiting for a man who never saw me as anything more than his father's leverage. Now?Now I want to fucking live.
Five Years Ago
“Ava! Oh, my sweet girl, look at you!”My mother’s voice trembles with emotion as she fusses over my wedding gown for the third time, dabbing delicately beneath her eyes so her mascara won’t smudge. She’s radiant in a champagne silk dress, smiling so wide it almost feels contagious. Almost. I stand still before the mirror, trying to feel something. Joy. Excitement. Hope. My Vera Wang gown is a masterpiece. Tight across my chest, it hugs my figure before flaring out into a train of ivory lace that trails behind me like royalty. My naturally pale blonde hair is pinned into a high bun, not a strand out of place. My veil falls from it like gossamer, a thin line of pearls glimmering in the light. My shoes are Jimmy Choo. My necklace is Bulgari. My earrings are antique diamonds from my father’s vault, a gift passed down from one mafia queen to the next. Today is the day I’ve been raised for. My eighteenth birthday. My wedding day. I’ve never met my husband but I know his name, Nico Moretti. Seven years older. One of the youngest billionaires in the world. Owner of more than a hundred legitimate businesses, and God only knows how many illegal ones. My father calls him “a man of vision.” My mother calls him “a dream match.” Me? I just call him… unknown. But I’ve been trained not to question. Daddy says this is my birthright. That girls like me are born to secure alliances, to make peace through vows instead of bullets. So I hope. I pray. I hope Nico is kind. That he’ll speak softly. That he’ll look at me not like I’m property, but a person. I pray he’ll be the husband I’ve been promised, a protector, a provider. Someone who might one day look at me not as a duty, but as his. My heart is a fluttering bird in a golden cage, and even as the doors close around me, I tell myself this is happiness. That this is the start of something beautiful.
"Ava, are you ready?" my father asks as he steps into the room.
"I'm ready, Daddy," I reply, though the words catch in my throat. The lump of anxiety lodged there is thick, suffocating. "Good. Everything will go perfectly today. The Moretti and Campelli families will finally be joined." He doesn’t mention the dress I spent hours being stitched into, or the way my hair was curled and pinned into place with jeweled clips that feel more like a crown of thorns. But that’s not surprising, my father has never been one for sentiment. His love is measured in power, legacy, and alliances. He offers his arm. Silently, I take it.We walk together down the long corridor toward the cathedral’s grand entrance. The hallway is quiet except for the soft click of my heels on marble. The walls are blanketed with roses, blush pink and ivory white, carefully chosen to represent purity and union. Sunlight spills in through stained glass windows, casting fractured rainbows across the stone floor. With every step, the weight of what I’m walking toward grows heavier. We pause behind a cluster of bridesmaids and flower girls, distant cousins and daughters of family allies. I barely know most of them but I don’t mind. This day isn’t about friendship. It’s about duty. The soft swell of a piano begins behind the doors. My heart skips a beat. The massive oak panels creak as they begin to part. I lower my veil with trembling fingers and square my shoulders.
I was born for this. Bred for this.
My life isn’t my own, but today, I give it away anyway. For family. For legacy. For peace.The house has quieted, the warmth of dinner fading into the soft hush of dishes clinking in the sink. I stand at the counter, slowly drying plates with a worn towel as Conner rinses each one beside me. The guys have retreated to their rooms or disappeared to do whatever it is Irish Mafia men do when they’re not acting like a sitcom family but the laughter lingers in the walls. In the scent of garlic still hanging in the air. In the soft hush of Conner’s movements beside me. I place another clean plate in the cabinet, my muscles aching in that bone-deep way, not from violence this time, but from the unraveling of something tight inside me. I didn’t even realize how badly I needed the silence to be this… gentle.“You don’t have to do this,” Conner murmurs. “I’ve got it.”“I need to move,” I say. “Helps keep my head quiet.”He doesn’t argue. Just hands me the next plate. When we’re done, he wipes his hands on a rag and turns to me. His voice is lower now, softer. “You need sleep.”I nod,
Wrapped in soft clothes Conner gave me, an oversized hoodie that smells like cedar and smoke, and clean cotton shorts. I pad barefoot down the hallway. The hardwood creaks softly beneath my feet as warmth and sound draw me forward. Laughter bubbles up from somewhere ahead, deep and unguarded, echoing off the walls like it belongs here. It sounds like safety. Like home. I stop just shy of the kitchen entrance, hand brushing the doorframe as I inhale. The scent hits first. Roasted garlic. Simmering tomatoes. Fresh basil crushed between someone's fingers not long ago. There’s warmth in the air, not just heat from the stove, but something deeper. Rich. Comforting. It smells like someone actually cares. Like effort. Like a memory I didn’t realize I missed until it clutched at something tender in my chest. My feet move of their own accord, carrying me into the glow of the kitchen. Conner stands at the stove, sleeves rolled up to his elbows, a wooden spoon in one hand as he stirs a bubbling
AvaWarmth. It’s the first thing I register. Soft, slow, unfamiliar warmth cradling my limbs like sunlight through water. I don’t remember falling asleep. I don’t even remember getting here. All I remember is cold, the way it gnawed at my skin like teeth and then arms. Strong ones. Lifting me out of the dark. Now there’s warmth and a heartbeat. Not mine. I crack my eyes open, blinking against a soft, golden light. There’s a steady thrum beneath my cheek, a slow inhale under my fingers. I’m curled against a chest, bare, firm, breathing. My legs are tangled with someone else’s, and I’m wrapped in a blanket that smells like...Cedar. Bourbon and something darker. Something dangerous.“Conner,” I whisper, my throat scraping raw.He shifts instantly, as if he’s been awake the whole time, just pretending to sleep so I could feel safe. His arm tightens around my waist. He doesn’t speak right away, just lowers his head slightly, resting his cheek against the top of mine.“You’re okay,” he says
The whiskey burns, but it’s not enough. Nothing is. Not the silence that came after she was carried out. Not the slam of the basement door or the look Conner gave me like I was already dead. Not even the blood on my hands from punching the concrete wall downstairs when I realized...She doesn’t look at me the same. She might never again and I deserve it. I sit slumped in my chair, staring at the liquor in my glass like it might hold answers. It doesn’t. I don't even remember when I poured it. Maybe the third one. Or the fifth. I keep hearing her scream. Not words. Just pain. Raw, primal, animal and it wasn’t the basement that did that to her. It was me. I put her there. I made her think she had no one left. Even as she tried to protect me. I thought I was punishing a traitor. Turns out I was torturing my fucking wife and now she’s gone. Because no woman survives that kind of betrayal and comes back the same. Not for a man like me. Not after this. The glass tips. I pour another. This on
NicoThe office reeks of tension, of sweat, blood, and desperation masked with overpriced cologne and spilled bourbon. The overhead light flickers once. The laptop casts a sickly glow over the papers and drives strewn across the desk, across the floor, across the leather couch where I haven’t moved in... I don’t know how long. Ava’s voice echoes in the back of my skull.“Someone’s siphoning from the East accounts. It’s a backdoor.”I’d laughed in her face. Told her to stay in her lane. Turns out the only one running the right direction was her. The logs don’t lie. A transaction rerouted through a shell we dissolved six months ago. A safety protocol overwritten with a passkey only six of us have. My fingers fly across the keyboard again. I reopen the spreadsheet for the hundredth time. My eyes burn, dry from hours of not blinking enough. Of seeing the same trail. The same smoke Ava saw. And realizing too late that she was already burning when she handed me the match. Another offshore a
AvaThere’s no sound. Not even the hum of electricity. No light. No air movement. No ticking clock. Nothing. Just me. Me, and the dark. I don’t even hear the lock anymore. I don’t know how long it’s been since the door shut behind me. Minutes. Hours. Maybe days. Time doesn’t exist in here, not when you can’t measure it, not when your thoughts loop and stretch until the line between memory and hallucination starts to blur. The first few minutes, I screamed. Cried out, pounded the door with fists and feet and curses so sharp they tore my throat open. I think I threatened to kill him. Begged him. Wept. Raged. All of it and nothing happened. No one came. So I stopped. I lay on the freezing floor for a long time. Curled up, robe clutched tight around me, my bare legs numb against the concrete. I tried to keep my thoughts organized, to recite names, equations, dates from my father’s ledgers. Tried to give myself structure. Anchors. It didn’t work. Because that’s the thing about silence. Eve