My father and I step across the threshold, the doors closing behind us with a low, echoing thud that sounds far too final. All around us, rows of seated guests turn to look. The weight of their stares presses in from every angle, but I don’t register a single face. Not really. Their presence is background noise, a blur of expensive silk and forced smiles. Because my eyes, my entire world, are fixed on the man waiting at the altar. Nico. My soon-to-be husband.
He stands like a statue carved from shadow and steel, dressed in a sharp black suit that clings to his form like it was made for him alone. He is flawless, from the crisp lines of his jacket to the polished shoes planted shoulder-width apart. His dark hair is slicked back with ruthless precision, not a single strand daring to fall out of place, just like him. Controlled. Composed. Cold. But then… for a heartbeat, something cracks. His gaze meets mine, and I swear, I swear, his eyes widen, just a fraction. A flicker of something, maybe shock, maybe awe, maybe regret, flashes across his face before he buries it beneath the practiced, impassive mask he wears and then the moment is gone. I blink, and suddenly we’ve reached the altar. My father doesn’t speak, he never does when words aren’t necessary. He simply places my hand into Nico’s with a curt nod, like sealing a business transaction. His footsteps fade as he walks away, the empty space beside me suddenly more noticeable than ever.
Nico’s hand closes around mine. Large. Calloused. Solid. There’s warmth in his grip, unexpected and steady, like an anchor pulling me into this moment. His thumb brushes ever so slightly over the back of my hand. A whisper of comfort? A warning? I don’t know. All I know is that we’re here. Standing side by side at the altar. The priest is speaking, his voice echoing softly through the cathedral like a distant bell, low, steady, meaningless. I can see his lips moving, see his hands gesture, but the words don’t land. They don’t matter. All I can hear is the pounding of my own heartbeat in my ears, thunderous and relentless, like a war drum marking time. The only thing tethering me to the moment is the weight and warmth of Nico’s hand wrapped around mine. His grip hasn’t changed. Neither has his expression. Still composed. Still unreadable. Like this is just another deal being closed. Something cold and metallic slips onto my finger, and I blink.
“…I do.”The first words I truly register from my husband’s mouth. They land like a stone in my chest. His voice is deep, smooth, definitive, so sure, so final, and yet it echoes in my mind like it was spoken from far away. At the same time, his hand tightens slightly around mine, and I glance down. The ring on my finger glints under the cathedral lights. Massive. Heavy. Extravagant. It catches the sunlight in a blinding sparkle, like a beacon, one that might actually be visible from the moon. A possession disguised as a promise. A light tap on my shoulder startles me from the haze. I turn slowly, pulled from the trance like surfacing from deep water, and find the priest gesturing gently toward Nico’s waiting hand. I hadn’t even noticed the ring I’m supposed to give him. It wasn’t shown to me, never chosen by me. Just another decision made without my voice, like so many others. Nico lifts his hand, steady and sure, and I take it. My fingers tremble slightly as I slide the thick gold band onto his finger. A simple, brutal circle of commitment. One I didn’t ask for, but one I now wear in mirrored form.
“I do,” I manage to say. The words leave my lips barely above a whisper, but they’re enough.
The priest’s voice sharpens with ceremonial authority. “I now pronounce you husband and wife.” He turns to Nico. “You may now kiss your bride.” A hush falls over the room, thick and expectant. My breath catches in my throat. This is the moment. The final seal. The point of no return. Nico, my stranger of a husband, steps forward. His hand lifts, brushing against the delicate lace of my veil. Slowly, he lifts it. The fabric glides over my face, the air kissing my skin as it falls back behind my shoulders. I'm exposed now. Unhidden. And under the full weight of his gaze. He looks at me, really looks at me and for the first time, there’s something more than calculation behind those dark eyes. Something raw, buried, and barely restrained. Hunger, maybe. Or power. Or both. His hand, the one not still tethered to mine, rises to gently frame my cheek. His thumb grazes the edge of my jaw, slow and sure, as if memorizing the shape of me. I don't breathe. I can’t. Then, without warning, he leans in. His mouth captures mine in a kiss that is anything but gentle. It’s not a question. Not a request. It’s a claim. Possessive. Decisive. Final.His lips press hard against mine, demanding I surrender and I do because there is no space, no air, no choice in this moment. His body moves closer, heat rolling off him in waves as his fingers tighten slightly against my jaw. Not enough to hurt. Just enough to remind me who I now belong to. The cathedral is silent, but I can feel every single person watching. Still, all I know is him. Nico. My husband. His kiss tastes like dominance, like control, like a vow spoken in a language of power and pride. It lasts longer than it should, long enough to be remembered. When he finally pulls back, his eyes are still on me, unreadable once more. His hand doesn’t leave my face. He leans down, just enough for only me to hear.
“You’re mine now, Ava. Don’t forget that.” A shiver runs down my spine. I don’t nod. I don’t speak. I just let him take my hand again as we turn to face the crowd, Mr. and Mrs. Moretti. But inside, something sharp curls inside my chest. Not fear. Not yet. But something close enough to make my heart race all over again.The house has quieted, the warmth of dinner fading into the soft hush of dishes clinking in the sink. I stand at the counter, slowly drying plates with a worn towel as Conner rinses each one beside me. The guys have retreated to their rooms or disappeared to do whatever it is Irish Mafia men do when they’re not acting like a sitcom family but the laughter lingers in the walls. In the scent of garlic still hanging in the air. In the soft hush of Conner’s movements beside me. I place another clean plate in the cabinet, my muscles aching in that bone-deep way, not from violence this time, but from the unraveling of something tight inside me. I didn’t even realize how badly I needed the silence to be this… gentle.“You don’t have to do this,” Conner murmurs. “I’ve got it.”“I need to move,” I say. “Helps keep my head quiet.”He doesn’t argue. Just hands me the next plate. When we’re done, he wipes his hands on a rag and turns to me. His voice is lower now, softer. “You need sleep.”I nod,
Wrapped in soft clothes Conner gave me, an oversized hoodie that smells like cedar and smoke, and clean cotton shorts. I pad barefoot down the hallway. The hardwood creaks softly beneath my feet as warmth and sound draw me forward. Laughter bubbles up from somewhere ahead, deep and unguarded, echoing off the walls like it belongs here. It sounds like safety. Like home. I stop just shy of the kitchen entrance, hand brushing the doorframe as I inhale. The scent hits first. Roasted garlic. Simmering tomatoes. Fresh basil crushed between someone's fingers not long ago. There’s warmth in the air, not just heat from the stove, but something deeper. Rich. Comforting. It smells like someone actually cares. Like effort. Like a memory I didn’t realize I missed until it clutched at something tender in my chest. My feet move of their own accord, carrying me into the glow of the kitchen. Conner stands at the stove, sleeves rolled up to his elbows, a wooden spoon in one hand as he stirs a bubbling
AvaWarmth. It’s the first thing I register. Soft, slow, unfamiliar warmth cradling my limbs like sunlight through water. I don’t remember falling asleep. I don’t even remember getting here. All I remember is cold, the way it gnawed at my skin like teeth and then arms. Strong ones. Lifting me out of the dark. Now there’s warmth and a heartbeat. Not mine. I crack my eyes open, blinking against a soft, golden light. There’s a steady thrum beneath my cheek, a slow inhale under my fingers. I’m curled against a chest, bare, firm, breathing. My legs are tangled with someone else’s, and I’m wrapped in a blanket that smells like...Cedar. Bourbon and something darker. Something dangerous.“Conner,” I whisper, my throat scraping raw.He shifts instantly, as if he’s been awake the whole time, just pretending to sleep so I could feel safe. His arm tightens around my waist. He doesn’t speak right away, just lowers his head slightly, resting his cheek against the top of mine.“You’re okay,” he says
The whiskey burns, but it’s not enough. Nothing is. Not the silence that came after she was carried out. Not the slam of the basement door or the look Conner gave me like I was already dead. Not even the blood on my hands from punching the concrete wall downstairs when I realized...She doesn’t look at me the same. She might never again and I deserve it. I sit slumped in my chair, staring at the liquor in my glass like it might hold answers. It doesn’t. I don't even remember when I poured it. Maybe the third one. Or the fifth. I keep hearing her scream. Not words. Just pain. Raw, primal, animal and it wasn’t the basement that did that to her. It was me. I put her there. I made her think she had no one left. Even as she tried to protect me. I thought I was punishing a traitor. Turns out I was torturing my fucking wife and now she’s gone. Because no woman survives that kind of betrayal and comes back the same. Not for a man like me. Not after this. The glass tips. I pour another. This on
NicoThe office reeks of tension, of sweat, blood, and desperation masked with overpriced cologne and spilled bourbon. The overhead light flickers once. The laptop casts a sickly glow over the papers and drives strewn across the desk, across the floor, across the leather couch where I haven’t moved in... I don’t know how long. Ava’s voice echoes in the back of my skull.“Someone’s siphoning from the East accounts. It’s a backdoor.”I’d laughed in her face. Told her to stay in her lane. Turns out the only one running the right direction was her. The logs don’t lie. A transaction rerouted through a shell we dissolved six months ago. A safety protocol overwritten with a passkey only six of us have. My fingers fly across the keyboard again. I reopen the spreadsheet for the hundredth time. My eyes burn, dry from hours of not blinking enough. Of seeing the same trail. The same smoke Ava saw. And realizing too late that she was already burning when she handed me the match. Another offshore a
AvaThere’s no sound. Not even the hum of electricity. No light. No air movement. No ticking clock. Nothing. Just me. Me, and the dark. I don’t even hear the lock anymore. I don’t know how long it’s been since the door shut behind me. Minutes. Hours. Maybe days. Time doesn’t exist in here, not when you can’t measure it, not when your thoughts loop and stretch until the line between memory and hallucination starts to blur. The first few minutes, I screamed. Cried out, pounded the door with fists and feet and curses so sharp they tore my throat open. I think I threatened to kill him. Begged him. Wept. Raged. All of it and nothing happened. No one came. So I stopped. I lay on the freezing floor for a long time. Curled up, robe clutched tight around me, my bare legs numb against the concrete. I tried to keep my thoughts organized, to recite names, equations, dates from my father’s ledgers. Tried to give myself structure. Anchors. It didn’t work. Because that’s the thing about silence. Eve