LOGIN“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” he asked finally. “What I should have done a long time ago,” I replied, not turning around. “Leaving you.” My hand closed around the door handle. “Not with my child.” --- Married off to him to settle a debt that was never mine, I was nothing more than a contract… a means to an end. An heir. That was all Adrian Blackwood ever wanted from me. Not my love. Not my heart. Not me. But still… I gave it to him anyway. Year after year, I loved a man who never once looked at me the way I looked at him. And when my time was up, when the contract ended and no child tied me to him, I walked away. Until fate played its cruel joke. Because just when I finally left him behind, I found out I was carrying his child. Now the man who never wanted me… refuses to let me go.
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The door opened and I opened my eyes. For a brief second, I didn’t know where I was. The room felt unfamiliar, my body heavy, my neck stiff from sleeping at the wrong angle. Then reality settled in slowly, like dust after a fall. I had fallen asleep on the couch again.
I closed my eyes briefly, swallowing the familiar wave of disappointment. I couldn’t believe I had fallen asleep here again, even after promising myself again that I wouldn’t wait up for him anymore. That I would go to bed like a normal wife and stop clinging to hope that never showed up. But hope had always been my weakness.
He walked in without hesitation, without pause, his presence commanding the space without acknowledging it. His footsteps were measured, confident, like a man who knew exactly where he was going and had no reason to look around. No reason to look at me.
“Welcome,” I greeted softly, my voice rough from sleep.
He didn’t respond, not even a nod, nor even a glance.
He walked past me like I was part of the furniture, like I was something fixed and unmoving in his world, and strode straight into the bathroom. The door closed behind him with a soft, almost polite click. But that sound echoed louder in my chest than it should have.
I released a breath I didn’t realize I was holding and sank deeper into the couch, my shoulders curling inward as if trying to make myself smaller. My eyes burned, and I blinked rapidly, forcing the tears back. I knew better than this, I knew better than to expect anything. And yet, it still hurt every single time.
I wiped my face quickly, as if he might suddenly come back out and catch me in my weakness. Not that it mattered, he never looked at me long enough to notice anything—my tears, my silence, my existence.
The house felt too large in moments like this, too quiet. Every sound carried weight—the hum of the air conditioner, the ticking of the wall clock, the faint echo of running water beginning in the bathroom.
We were never supposed to be married. The thought drifted through my mind like a refrain I could never silence. We were never supposed to be married, but we did anyway. A marriage born not from love, or even convenience, but desperation.
After my father’s sudden death, everything fell apart so quickly I barely had time to grieve. One moment, he was there, strong, stubborn, full of plans for the future. The next, he was gone, leaving behind a company held together by trust and goodwill. A trust my brother shattered within months.
The company my father spent his entire life building was handed over to someone who didn’t understand restraint. Decisions were made too fast, risks taken too boldly. One bad investment led to another, loans taken to cover existing losses, promises made that couldn’t be kept. Until one day, the numbers stopped making sense, and the creditors stopped waiting. By the time the truth surfaced, it was already too late. Meetings turned frantic, calls went unanswered, the name my father had worked so hard to protect became a liability overnight. We were drowning.
And then he appeared.
A man powerful enough to erase our debt with a single signature. A man whose influence reached boardrooms and courtrooms alike. A man cold enough to look at our desperation and see opportunity.
He didn’t ask for money in return, he asked for marriage. Not for love, not for companionship, but for an heir. And I who was desperate, obedient, terrified of losing everything my father built became the unfortunate collateral.
I swallowed hard and pushed myself off the couch, my joints stiff from sleeping there night after night. My reflection caught briefly in the dark glass of the window—rumpled clothes, tired eyes, hair hastily tied back. I looked older than my years.
This house… this massive, beautiful house had never felt like a home. It felt like a waiting room, somewhere I stayed until my purpose was fulfilled.
I walked into the kitchen and poured myself a glass of water, my hands trembling slightly. The cool surface of the counter grounded me for a moment. I stared at the glass in my hand, watching the water ripple from the faint shake of my fingers.
Suddenly, it felt pointless, and I set the glass down without drinking and turned away, my chest tight. I didn’t need water, I needed something I couldn’t have.
I returned to the bedroom and sank back onto the couch just as the sound of the shower filled the space. The steady rush of water echoed through the walls, loud and impersonal.
We had been married for three years but there had always been a barrier between us. It has been three years of polite distance in public, three years of cold indifference in private, three years of carefully scheduled intimacy reduced to calculations and ovulation charts, three years of trying and failing to give him the heir he wanted.
The doctors said there was nothing wrong with either of us. No medical explanation, no reason, just time passing and hope slowly dying.
At first, I thought if I tried harder, if I was more patient, more understanding, more accommodating, he would eventually soften. That he would see me as more than a contract signed in desperation.
But I was wrong.
The bathroom door opened, and my body stiffened instinctively. He emerged already dressed, suit immaculate, tie perfectly knotted, cufflinks fastened with practiced precision. He didn’t look at me as he passed, his attention fixed on adjusting his watch. Always in control, always untouched. Even in the moments meant to bring us closer, there was distance. Everything between us felt mechanical, emotionless, like another obligation to fulfill. It was never lovemaking between us, it was a baby-making process.
Just like today, he had undressed in the bathroom and dressed again in the bathroom. No shared space, no proximity, no lingering touch.
“I’ll be late,” he said flatly.
I opened my mouth, unsure of what I wanted to say. Don’t go. Stay. Look at me. Instead, I nodded. “Okay.”
“Breakfast should be ready by now,” I added quietly. “You should have something before you leave.”
He didn’t respond.
“If you can’t wait for it, I’ll help you pack it so you can take it with you,” I said again, forcing my voice to remain steady.
He picked up his briefcase and moved toward the door, then he paused for half a second, just long enough to make my heart leap. Then he walked out without a word.
The sound of the door closing felt final. I stood there long after he was gone, staring at the space he had occupied. Slowly, I pressed a hand over my stomach, not consciously, just out of habit. A bitter smile curved my lips as I realized that there was still nothing, just an empty womb and a heavier heart.
I had told myself I would stop waiting up for him. Stop hoping for scraps of attention. Stop pretending this marriage would ever be more than what it was meant to be...a transaction.
And I was so tired.
Jane's POV. I woke up the following morning with his words in my ears, "I'm sorry."I heaved a heavy sigh as I sat up. Those words weren't enough to atone for all the wrong things he did to me. I glanced at my alarm clock and gasped. I was gonna be late for work if I don't get out of bed now. Quickly, I scrambled out of bed, dashing into the bathroom immediately. After a quick bath, I put on something classic, corporate yet comfy. There was no time for breakfast but I wouldn't dare to miss breakfast. Not when I have a child in my belly. I rushed out of my bedroom and froze at the door, my whole body going still instantly. Slowly, I crouched to the floor in front of him. God, I can't believe he slept here at the door, sitting on the floor, leaning against the wall, his body all coiled up and his head badly placed. I hissed under my breath and reached out to placed his head properly and I flinched as soon as I touched him. He was so cold. Without thinking, I rushed back into m
Adrian's POV. I don't know what happened with me but I went crazy seeing him... him and her... I couldn't bear it. I claimed her lips softly, shutting my eyes. I expected her to push me away but she didn't. I pressed closer to her, feeling her soft body against my hard one. Her lips trembled softly against mine, and that tiny reaction alone nearly destroyed whatever sanity I had left.God.For three years I had lived beside this woman without truly touching her heart, and now one kiss felt like drowning.I deepened the kiss carefully, afraid that if I moved too fast she would disappear again.Jane's fingers curled weakly against my shirt, and my chest tightened painfully.She kissed me back, not fully, not completely but enough to make my mind go blank. Enough to make hope bloom dangerously inside me.My hand slid carefully to her waist, pulling her slightly closer, and a soft sound escaped her lips before she suddenly stiffened as reality hit her.I felt the exact moment it retu
Jane's POV.I focused solely on my already soggy bowl of noodles. Ethan sat with me on the couch but there was a meaningful distance between us. A very meaningful one. We hadn't said a word to each other since he confessed his feelings to me a while ago.The doorbell rang and I sprang up quickly to get it, thankful the distraction. I opened the door and froze. "You?" "Hi darling," he flashed me a bright smile, pushing past me into my apartment. What?!I closed the door and followed right behind him instantly. "Adrian, are you —""Mmmm," he nodded in understanding. "I see that you're busy," he said, taking in the papers on the table. "Exactly as I predicted," he added as his gaze fell on the bowl of noodles. What the hell did he predict?"And I'm here to help you get that fixed," he finished with a smile. I raised an eyebrow at him, and he gave me an even wider smile that formed a knot in my stomach. "Adrian, get out!" I spat, more exhausted than angry. "Yeah, I will," he agree
Adrian's POV. I slid my phone back into my pocket. If being creepy is gonna get me Jane, then I don't mind. "Adrian?" I heard that familiar, unmistakable voice. One of the voices I really don't want to hear right now. I turned to find her approaching me with hurried steps, as if I might disappear if she wasn't fast enough. "Thank goodness I met you here," she said as she stopped in front of me. "I went to the Blackwood estate many times, they told me you moved out. I don't see you at the company, and you no longer answer my calls. What is going on, Adrian?" I gazed at her for a few seconds before I finally spoke. "I'm no longer the CEO of Blackwood Holdings, and I'm a soon to be father who is busy taking care of his family.""You divorced her!" Her voice raised slightly as if trying to assert a fact on me."Which is the stupidest thing I've ever done in my life," I retorted. She seemed shock. "Adrian..." her voice dropped as she stepped closer to me. "Adrian, this isn't what yo
Jane's POV.His words at Ethan provoked me, he was really mannerless. I tried to tell him he was wrong, trying to tell him that influence or power doesn't solve anything, and all he did was silence me? That too, in the most annoying way ever? Again he was trying to use the situation to his own gai
Jane's POV.I woke up from the discomfort lodging in my nostrils, and my throat. Opening my eyes, the room was misty. Smoke?Where was it coming from?I rushed out of bed, coughing hard as I stepped out of the guest room I was in. The living room was worse, the workers coughing in discomfort as t
Jane's POV.For the first time, I see helplessness in his eyes. I had never experienced this side of Adrian before that if felt so much like I was dreaming. He looked at me, but not with anger, he looked at me with regret of something I wasn't sure of. I looked at the mess I had made on him, tha
Jane's POV.So I'm not invincible to Adrian. He even called me. In our three years of marriage, Adrian has never been the first to give me a call. Even when he saw my missed calls and messages, he never called or texted back.I placed my hand on my stomach out of habit, and a smile curled up my lip












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