LOGINTHEODOSA.
I felt my soul crumble.
“No…”
That wasn’t fair. I didn’t deserve to die because some girl who looked like me had wronged them.
“I’m telling you I have no idea who Oceanne or Luna Trivian is. I’m Theodosa Fane. I have siblings, Binny and Pippa Fane. My mother died years ago, but I knew her. I wasn’t adopted. I have pictures of her pregnant.” Tears slid down my cheeks. “You can’t do this. I have a life to return to.”
His eyes narrowed. “How did you end up here?”
“T-There was a game… a party. My brother and I fell into the water.”
“Quite reckless with the tides.”
Quite mean.
Quite horrible.
Quite unlike the Narra I thought I knew.
“The current washed me here,” I whispered. “I didn’t come on my own.”
“And what happened in the forest?”
My chest cooled at the memory of Xahen wrapped in shadows.
“He called me... his mate,” I dropped my gaze to the floor, “Then he told me to run.”
“He told you to run?” he asked, surprised.
“Yes. And I did.”
“Did he shift?”
“He did. His wolf chased me.”
His gaze dropped to the wound I clutched. “Do you remember how you got that wound?”
“Vaguely. I was running, and his wolf was chasing me till I got to the edge of the hill. He was about to attack and I screamed.” I shook my head, “That’s all I remember.”
“You were both unconscious when I found you.” He went back to his chair. “Sit. Let’s talk.”
If his presence kept Xahen away, I would have worshipped his boots to make him stay. “What do you know about this kingdom? Tell me the rumors.”
“People don’t come here,” I said, “The river was closed off a really long time ago, when it turned black.” I met his gaze, “And that people who come here don’t make it back alive.”
“Why?”
“Because of Xahen’s wolf. He kills anything that enters.” My hand brushed the wound.
He smirked. “Is that all?”
“They say your king can’t control his wolf.” I recalled his words from earlier, “You said so too.”
“Because it’s true. Everything you’ve heard is true.”
Goddess.
“Do you feel a mate bond with Xahen?”
After a moment, I nodded.
“Ah. For the very third time in a row.” He leaned back, scrubbing a palm over his smile, “The goddess must hate him.”
I tried to think a way out of this.
I didn’t think escaping was an option; they had to have stationed guards.
“Please,” I whispered, “let me prove I’m not who you think I am. I’ve never hurt anyone. I’m not a monster with a target on Xahen’s back. I’m scared of him. I’ve always been scared of him. Stories about him are told all the time in Duskmire. You have to believe me, I’m begging you.”
The man watched me so carefully, and then he did a slow survey of me from top to bottom.
Self-consciously, I remembered my dress was short and ripped at the side. It had dried badly and was sticking to my flesh at all angles.
“I will say, there are some differences from the last two.”
My cheeks went pink.
The difference was that I was much, much chubbier than them.
“No need to be embarrassed,” he noticed my reaction, “I’m only stating the obvious. Keep for the red hair and face. You may be a different person after all.”
Hope blossomed.
“But it doesn’t matter. Xahen won’t take the risk.”
“What risk?” I cried.
He cocked his head sharply, “Have you not been paying attention? You’re the very reason he is not himself anymore. You, or someone who looked like you, struck a knife deep in his heart and left him to die. Your betrayal severed the bond he had with his wolf.”
My breath stilled.
“And despite that,” he continued, “you show up a hundred years later with no memory and a mate bond pulsing between you. He forgave you. And then you betrayed him again. The man my brother has become today is as a sole result of you coming into his life. And I can assure you, the next time you’re near him, you’ll be dead before you realize he’s the one slitting your throat.”
“No! No! Please!” I covered my ears, shrinking into myself, “I’m innocent!” I screamed at the top of my lungs, “Let me go! Let me out of here!”
“What a waste of time.”
I sank to the floor, sobbing.
“I’m willing to help you escape.”
I looked up, stunned.
“But you’ll have to do something for me in return.”
“What?” I stood up, wiping my cheeks.
“Seduce him.”
What? “You want me to seduce a man who wants to kill me?”
“I want you to lower your voice first.” He stepped closer. “And not just seduce him. Give him the best night of his life.”
“I can’t do that. I won’t even get the chance.”
“I’ll get it for you.”
“How?”
“I’ll convince him it’s better to execute you tomorrow. Tonight, he won’t be conscious. I need him in the state he’ll be in after you’re done.”
“What state is that?”
“Satisfied,” he said flatly. “And pliant enough to stay in his cabin long enough for me to do what I need to. Pliant enough to forgive me for setting you free. It’s either this, or you die.”
“How do you know it will work?”
His grin returned, “You underestimate what a mate is to a male wolf.”
Dread coloured my heart. “H-How will I get home?”
“Slip out of his chambers. A boat will be waiting on the shore. If you can’t maneuver it, learn.”
Did I have any choice?
“How can you guarantee he won’t be conscious?”
“Leave that to me. Do you agree?”
I hugged myself.
The goddess had to forgive me.
I nodded my head.
“Very well.” He walked over to me, stretching out his hand, “It’s quite a ride seeing your face again... Theodosa. Since you can’t remember, my name... is Kane Ithorno.”
––•––
That night, Kane kept his promise.
I showered, he gave me clean clothes and snuck me out of the cell.
“You’re certain you’re up for this?” he asked as we stopped before a large cabin.
I wrung my fingers. “Are you certain he’s out of it?”
He smirked. “Xahen is hardly ever in his right mind. I’m certain you’ll have no issue. Be sure to leave while he’s still asleep. Otherwise, I can’t guarantee your safety.”
“The boat will be waiting?” I needed to hear it again.
He nodded. “The boat will be waiting.” His hand pressed gently to my back, guiding me up the steps. Without knocking, he opened the wooden door.
“Go on,” he urged.
I sent a quiet prayer to the goddess. If this was a trap, he was still my only chance. If not, then maybe there was hope.
I stepped inside.
Instantly, my body reacted.
Xahen was definitely here.
The mate bond hit me so hard I could tell instantly.
“He’ll be in the room down the hall, to your left,” Kane whispered. “Don’t speak. And leave once it’s midnight. There’s a clock in there.”
I nodded. Hope flickered.
“Go.”
And so I walked into the bedroom of the most feared man in our realm.
Darkness filled the room, the only light spilling from a single moonlit window. But my body still pulled toward him—dangerously certain.
I moved closer to the bed.
He lay on his back, arms thrown out at his sides, chest rising slowly. My foot knocked a bottle, sending it rolling. There were several on the floor.
He was definitely out of it. But this didn’t look like Kane’s doing.
Kane had said Xahen was hardly ever in his right mind.
Was he a drunk?
My hands curled into fists as I climbed gently onto the bed beside him.
Goddess. Where did I begin?
He was all hard muscle and dark ink, wearing nothing but boxer briefs. I wasn’t even sure I’d be able to get them off.
What could I do?
With a shaking hand, I reached toward his chest to see if he’d react.
The moment I touched him, his eyes snapped open.
Bright gold.
He shot upright and fisted a hand in my hair, yanking my head back. My heart died in my chest.
This was it.
I was going to die.
But he growled, “Mate!”
And then, with a rough force that stole my breath, he crashed his mouth onto mine.
THEODOSA. Nala settled deeper into the armchair and a small cloud of dust lifted around her. She scrunched her nose at it, looked around at the murky interior of the cabin like she was taking stock of it, and then seemed to decide she had bigger problems. Her fingers found one of the tattoos on her upper arm and traced over it slowly, absentmindedly, while she let out a long breath. "Well." She paused for a moment. "Where do I begin?”I pulled my knees up and waited. I was good at waiting when I needed to be.She shrugged, shifting in the chair. "From what I know, when he got his gift, he used his shadows to barricade this whole territory from the rest of the northern realm." She looked at me. "That's how he protects his people. Against ferals."I held back a shiver at that.Ferals. Monstrous, humanless rabid things. Whatever had once made them wolves was long gone. They lived down in the Unders, in the toxic lower levels of the northern realm where nothing grew and no one with any
THEODOSA. Nala had been staring out the same window for ten minutes. I watched her from the armchair, picking at the edge of my thumbnail, tracking the way her eyes moved across whatever was outside without her expression giving anything away. The cabin was small and smelled like old wood and dust and nothing else. No one had been here in a while. I wasn't sure if that was comforting or not. "Are we safe here?" I asked. Nala didn't turn around. "We're not safe anywhere." I stopped picking at my nail. She turned then, and looked at me the way she sometimes did, like she was taking stock of something. Then she crossed the room, moved a pile of folded cloth off the worn armchair across from mine, and sat down. "What happened," she said, and it didn’t come out like a question. So I told her. From seeing the eye at the window. Climbing out into the dark. The wolf backing up when I told it to, like it understood me, and then dropping its whole head into my lap like that was ju
THEODOSA.The first thing I registered was that I couldn't breathe.My chest was compressed and there was heat everywhere, pressing me into the ground from above, and my lungs were working against it absentmindedly.My mouth was dry.The back of my neck was damp. And the smell hit me before anything else did… It was dark, earthy, warm and familiar in a way that made my heart rate pick up before I was even fully awake.I lay there in confusion for a moment, trying to place myself.There was grass under me, and the cold morning air on my legs.And then my heart slammed with one hard lurch, straight up my throat as I remembered last night.I blinked my eyes open fast.The black curls were the first thing I saw.A full, thick mop of them, right there, buried in the center of my chest. I stared down at them without moving. The weight compressing my ribcage resolved itself into a broad back, tattoos I recognized without wanting to, muscles I could count from here. Xahen’s arms were wrap
THEODOSA.My brain was still trying to catch up to what had just happened. It had understood me…It had actually understood me and proven it, and now it was sitting at my window looking at me like it was waiting to see what I did next.The question came out before I could stop it, as I shook my head in wonder, "How different are you from him?"The wolf snorted.I drew back from the glass in surprise. It had heard me. And from the sound it made, it had thoughts about what I'd asked.I stared at it.It stared right back.Slowly, I glanced over my shoulder at my bedroom door.Nala was right there. Twenty feet away. She would know what to do with this. She always knew what to do.A soft whine reached my ears and I snapped my head back to the window fast.The wolf had its paw on the glass. It wasn't pounding this time. It was just pressing there, slow and steady against the surface.It felt like it was reaching for me.I stood there and tried to think clearly about this.The last time I'd
THEODOSA.I was still working the towel through my wet hair when I stepped out of my bedroom.The shirt Nala had given me hit mid-thigh and my feet were bare and I was in the middle of trying to detangle a section of curls at the back of my neck when something settled on my chest like something had reached in and grabbed it.I went still.My blood was pulsing in a way that had nothing to do with my heartbeat, and my hackles rose before I'd fully registered what I was feeling. My eyes went straight to the door.Xahen was close.A sound at my window made me turn my head.The gasp came before I could stop it.A single golden eye blinked through the glass of my window. It blinked at me again, focusing on me more with every second that passed.My heart stopped completely.I stood there. That was Xahen's wolf outside my window. I couldn't work out what in the realm he was doing there and my hands were already shaking when the towel hit the floor.The wolf's face disappeared from the glass.
XAHEN.My sedatives rattled in their tin as I turned it over in my hands.Nala had dropped it off and left without a word, which was how she handled things when she didn't want a conversation. She came here now because she wasn't about to find me anywhere near her cabin.I ran my tongue over my teeth and told myself not to think about why.That lasted about as long as it always lasted.I hadn't stopped thinking about Theodosa since she'd grabbed my cock and made use of me like I was there for her convenience.I still couldn't fully work out what to do with that. Theodosa moved around me like she was scared of me half the time, and then she did what she did in that bedroom and I didn't know what to make of her anymore. A woman who was genuinely frightened of a man didn't close her eyes and take what she wanted from him without asking.I pressed a hand to my mouth.I was pacing my cabin again, thinking about that fucking bitch.Every day since she'd stood in my bathroom doorway. Every
THEODOSA. I should try to escape. The thought had been circling my mind like a vulture for hours—maybe days—waiting for me to be desperate enough to actually consider it. I stared at the bars of my cell, then down at the silver chains on my wrists. The burns were worse now. Red and weeping,
XAHEN. The council chamber was already loud when I pushed through the heavy doors. Seven voices overlapped in the kind of organized chaos that told me they’d been at it for a while. I was late. Again. What else was new? The conversation died the moment I stepped inside, but not in the us
THEODOSA.The guard's hands were rough as he clamped the silver chains around my wrists.The burn was immediate and vicious, like he'd pressed hot iron directly to my skin. I bit down hard on the inside of my cheek, tasting copper, refusing to give him the satisfaction of hearing me cry out.He yan
XAHEN.“Search the western wing again. Every closet, every crawl space. If a mouse moves, I want to know about it.”My voice seemed to bite into the walls of the throne room. The guard didn't even look up. He simply bowed, his shoulders hunched in fear, and scrambled away. I watched his retreating







