LOGINTHEODOSA.
I felt my soul crumble.
“No…”
That wasn’t fair. I didn’t deserve to die because some girl who looked like me had wronged them.
“I’m telling you I have no idea who Oceanne or Luna Trivian is. I’m Theodosa Fane. I have siblings, Binny and Pippa Fane. My mother died years ago, but I knew her. I wasn’t adopted. I have pictures of her pregnant.” Tears slid down my cheeks. “You can’t do this. I have a life to return to.”
His eyes narrowed. “How did you end up here?”
“T-There was a game… a party. My brother and I fell into the water.”
“Quite reckless with the tides.”
Quite mean.
Quite horrible.
Quite unlike the Narra I thought I knew.
“The current washed me here,” I whispered. “I didn’t come on my own.”
“And what happened in the forest?”
My chest cooled at the memory of Xahen wrapped in shadows.
“He called me... his mate,” I dropped my gaze to the floor, “Then he told me to run.”
“He told you to run?” he asked, surprised.
“Yes. And I did.”
“Did he shift?”
“He did. His wolf chased me.”
His gaze dropped to the wound I clutched. “Do you remember how you got that wound?”
“Vaguely. I was running, and his wolf was chasing me till I got to the edge of the hill. He was about to attack and I screamed.” I shook my head, “That’s all I remember.”
“You were both unconscious when I found you.” He went back to his chair. “Sit. Let’s talk.”
If his presence kept Xahen away, I would have worshipped his boots to make him stay. “What do you know about this kingdom? Tell me the rumors.”
“People don’t come here,” I said, “The river was closed off a really long time ago, when it turned black.” I met his gaze, “And that people who come here don’t make it back alive.”
“Why?”
“Because of Xahen’s wolf. He kills anything that enters.” My hand brushed the wound.
He smirked. “Is that all?”
“They say your king can’t control his wolf.” I recalled his words from earlier, “You said so too.”
“Because it’s true. Everything you’ve heard is true.”
Goddess.
“Do you feel a mate bond with Xahen?”
After a moment, I nodded.
“Ah. For the very third time in a row.” He leaned back, scrubbing a palm over his smile, “The goddess must hate him.”
I tried to think a way out of this.
I didn’t think escaping was an option; they had to have stationed guards.
“Please,” I whispered, “let me prove I’m not who you think I am. I’ve never hurt anyone. I’m not a monster with a target on Xahen’s back. I’m scared of him. I’ve always been scared of him. Stories about him are told all the time in Duskmire. You have to believe me, I’m begging you.”
The man watched me so carefully, and then he did a slow survey of me from top to bottom.
Self-consciously, I remembered my dress was short and ripped at the side. It had dried badly and was sticking to my flesh at all angles.
“I will say, there are some differences from the last two.”
My cheeks went pink.
The difference was that I was much, much chubbier than them.
“No need to be embarrassed,” he noticed my reaction, “I’m only stating the obvious. Keep for the red hair and face. You may be a different person after all.”
Hope blossomed.
“But it doesn’t matter. Xahen won’t take the risk.”
“What risk?” I cried.
He cocked his head sharply, “Have you not been paying attention? You’re the very reason he is not himself anymore. You, or someone who looked like you, struck a knife deep in his heart and left him to die. Your betrayal severed the bond he had with his wolf.”
My breath stilled.
“And despite that,” he continued, “you show up a hundred years later with no memory and a mate bond pulsing between you. He forgave you. And then you betrayed him again. The man my brother has become today is as a sole result of you coming into his life. And I can assure you, the next time you’re near him, you’ll be dead before you realize he’s the one slitting your throat.”
“No! No! Please!” I covered my ears, shrinking into myself, “I’m innocent!” I screamed at the top of my lungs, “Let me go! Let me out of here!”
“What a waste of time.”
I sank to the floor, sobbing.
“I’m willing to help you escape.”
I looked up, stunned.
“But you’ll have to do something for me in return.”
“What?” I stood up, wiping my cheeks.
“Seduce him.”
What? “You want me to seduce a man who wants to kill me?”
“I want you to lower your voice first.” He stepped closer. “And not just seduce him. Give him the best night of his life.”
“I can’t do that. I won’t even get the chance.”
“I’ll get it for you.”
“How?”
“I’ll convince him it’s better to execute you tomorrow. Tonight, he won’t be conscious. I need him in the state he’ll be in after you’re done.”
“What state is that?”
“Satisfied,” he said flatly. “And pliant enough to stay in his cabin long enough for me to do what I need to. Pliant enough to forgive me for setting you free. It’s either this, or you die.”
“How do you know it will work?”
His grin returned, “You underestimate what a mate is to a male wolf.”
Dread coloured my heart. “H-How will I get home?”
“Slip out of his chambers. A boat will be waiting on the shore. If you can’t maneuver it, learn.”
Did I have any choice?
“How can you guarantee he won’t be conscious?”
“Leave that to me. Do you agree?”
I hugged myself.
The goddess had to forgive me.
I nodded my head.
“Very well.” He walked over to me, stretching out his hand, “It’s quite a ride seeing your face again... Theodosa. Since you can’t remember, my name... is Kane Ithorno.”
––•––
That night, Kane kept his promise.
I showered, he gave me clean clothes and snuck me out of the cell.
“You’re certain you’re up for this?” he asked as we stopped before a large cabin.
I wrung my fingers. “Are you certain he’s out of it?”
He smirked. “Xahen is hardly ever in his right mind. I’m certain you’ll have no issue. Be sure to leave while he’s still asleep. Otherwise, I can’t guarantee your safety.”
“The boat will be waiting?” I needed to hear it again.
He nodded. “The boat will be waiting.” His hand pressed gently to my back, guiding me up the steps. Without knocking, he opened the wooden door.
“Go on,” he urged.
I sent a quiet prayer to the goddess. If this was a trap, he was still my only chance. If not, then maybe there was hope.
I stepped inside.
Instantly, my body reacted.
Xahen was definitely here.
The mate bond hit me so hard I could tell instantly.
“He’ll be in the room down the hall, to your left,” Kane whispered. “Don’t speak. And leave once it’s midnight. There’s a clock in there.”
I nodded. Hope flickered.
“Go.”
And so I walked into the bedroom of the most feared man in our realm.
Darkness filled the room, the only light spilling from a single moonlit window. But my body still pulled toward him—dangerously certain.
I moved closer to the bed.
He lay on his back, arms thrown out at his sides, chest rising slowly. My foot knocked a bottle, sending it rolling. There were several on the floor.
He was definitely out of it. But this didn’t look like Kane’s doing.
Kane had said Xahen was hardly ever in his right mind.
Was he a drunk?
My hands curled into fists as I climbed gently onto the bed beside him.
Goddess. Where did I begin?
He was all hard muscle and dark ink, wearing nothing but boxer briefs. I wasn’t even sure I’d be able to get them off.
What could I do?
With a shaking hand, I reached toward his chest to see if he’d react.
The moment I touched him, his eyes snapped open.
Bright gold.
He shot upright and fisted a hand in my hair, yanking my head back. My heart died in my chest.
This was it.
I was going to die.
But he growled, “Mate!”
And then, with a rough force that stole my breath, he crashed his mouth onto mine.
THEODOSA.I was trying very hard not to look down.Every time I did, my stomach dropped out from under me and I had to remind myself that Base knew what he was doing and the invisible floor under my feet was solid and I was not going to fall. The reminders were working about sixty percent of the time.I had both hands fisted in the back of Base's shirt. I was not apologizing for that.We were hovering near the treeline where Xahen's forest began, several feet off the ground, and the four of us had already circled the entire perimeter of the palace. No wolf. No blood. No destruction. No guards or maids or staff lingering anywhere outside, which meant whatever warning had gone out had been listened to, or at least listened to enough. The grounds were empty and quiet and the wolf was nowhere in the palace perimeter at all.Nala had decided we might as well check where I thought he might be.So here we were."Alright," Base said. "We're here." He glanced back at me and caught my expressio
THEODOSA.There was nothing but darkness.No light. No sound. No up, no down. Just black, thick and endless, and me floating somewhere inside it like I didn't exist at all.It was the most disorienting thing I'd ever felt.I couldn't tell if my eyes were open or closed. Or if I was even breathing. For one terrifying second, I wondered if I was dead.Then I heard something faintly. Like it was faraway.Getting closer with every passing second, like someone turning up the volume on the world.Nala.I couldn't make out the words yet, just the shape of her voice, familiar enough to anchor me to something.I blinked. Or I thought I did. But nothing changed.I tried again, and again, rapidly and uselessly, my body doing something my eyes weren't catching up to.Slowly, the voices sharpened."––Nala, calm down––"That was clear enough to land.My vision cracked open into a blur, gray and formless, and I blinked through it until shapes started bleeding into focus. A ceiling first. Massive and
XAHEN.Pain.That was everything. That was all there was.It moved through me in waves that never finished. My flesh would begin to close and the roots would find the new skin and start again. Over and over. Patient. Relentless. My body regenerating just fast enough to give them something fresh to work with.I had no idea how long I'd been here.Then I did.That was worse.I groaned. The sound went nowhere. The soil around me swallowed it and gave nothing back. I groaned and grunted and when the roots found something deep enough, I bellowed. And when the bellowing wasn't enough I screamed. Long and raw and completely without dignity, because dignity belonged to creatures who were allowed to die when dying was warranted, and I was not one of those.I screamed her name sometimes.Not on purpose. It just came out of me the way everything came out in that place, without permission, without warning, dragged up from somewhere I didn't have control over anymore. Luna. The name tore through m
THEODOSA.I took a second to think.I could be honest about this one. I could tell him about my gift and hope he didn't connect it to anything else. He could take it at face value, move on, and not connect the dots to his wolf. Xahen titled his head with impatience.That was all he did, and somehow that was enough to push me right to the edge of everything I was trying to hold together. I needed to answer him. If I didn't answer him he was going to do something to jarr me out of my composure. And once that shattered, I wouldn't be able to lie my way through anything else tonight.I looked at the floor."I can bond with animals," I said.I moistened my lips. The weight of all his attention on me had been sitting on my skin for so long it was starting to feel like something physical. "I can talk to them," I added. "And sometimes understand them."Silence.I forced myself to look up.He was watching me. Quietly, his eyes on my face, giving me nothing back.Then he asked, so evenly it
THEODOSA.My heart was pounding so hard I thought the shape of my chest was changing with it.I had no idea what had happened outside. Hale had done something to Nala. That was all I knew. Was she even okay? I looked between Xahen and the front door.There was no one coming to save me.Xahen bent down and picked up the butter knife. He twirled it in his grip, staring at it. Then his eyes lifted to me.He looked at my wrist first, pinned above my head. Then down to my face. His eyes trailed over my freckles the way he always did, cataloguing them. Then his gaze shifted to my neck and stayed there.His eyes moved across my throat slowly, and I realized he was looking for something.I thought about this morning. Him waking up and finding me underneath him and trying to kill me in the next breath. And I wondered if that was what he was thinking about right now.He said nothing yet though. His eyes moved away. He fisted the knife and lowered it to his side before turning around. Then
XAHEN.Nala came down the cabin steps with one finger already raised."Xahen." Her voice had that particular edge it got when she thought she was about to prevent something. "Don't."I studied her for a moment."I've given you much leave," I said, "and just as much respect." I let that sit. "But you won't stand in my way this time."Nala looked at me without blinking. "Are you going to kill her?"Theodosa's face came back to me before I could stop it. The way she'd looked when I had my hands around her throat. The fear on her face, open and real and directed entirely at me.I pushed it away. I hated that it had come at all.I tilted my head. "And if I did?"I stepped closer to her. "She's been in your custody for some time and you've given me nothing. You've been useless to me on her account." I held her gaze. "Fault me not for taking matters into my own hands."I moved to walk past her.Nala put her hands up.I slapped them out of my way.Her hands came back up instantly, faster this
THEODOSA. I sat there watching him, completely lost.My gaze traveled to the wall of shadows still blocking the door. Still trapping me here with him.I looked back down at Xahen in confusion.Muffled sounds came from outside. Probably Nala and Anfie being just as confused as I was and unwilling t
THEODOSA. I should try to escape. The thought had been circling my mind like a vulture for hours—maybe days—waiting for me to be desperate enough to actually consider it. I stared at the bars of my cell, then down at the silver chains on my wrists. The burns were worse now. Red and weeping,
XAHEN.Nala sighed, watching me wrestle with it. "You can still kill her in the end, you know. But you can wait a little longer." She lifted her brows. "You've waited this long anyway. What's a bit more time?"I stared past her, toward the dark forest, my jaw working.I didn't want this happening a
XAHEN.“Search the western wing again. Every closet, every crawl space. If a mouse moves, I want to know about it.”My voice seemed to bite into the walls of the throne room. The guard didn't even look up. He simply bowed, his shoulders hunched in fear, and scrambled away. I watched his retreating







