LOGINWe rode back from Stonewater through the night, and the sun was already up when I fell into bed.
I woke to a knock. It was the twenty-eighth day, late morning, and the light lay across the floor in a long pale bar. I lay there for a moment, listening. Someone was standing outside my door. Someone was standing very, very still, with a great deal of effort.
He had promised me breakfast, in the study, three nights ago, and I had assumed it had died with the lamp. I had walked out o
I did not eat much at supper, and nobody remarked on it.Marrit put a bowl of barley stew in front of me and watched me finish half of it, then took the bowl away without a word. Hild looked at Luca, then at me, then at her own plate, and began a long and deeply boring story about a mule. Maeve kicked me under the table. I kicked her back. The only person who did not look at either of us was Orla, who studied her cup as though it held the secrets of the gods.When I stood to leave, Luca did not stand. He kept his eyes on the table and his hand flat beside his plate."An hour," he said, very low."An hour," I said.I went upstairs and lit the candles. I washed my face. I unbraided my hair and braided it again and unbraided it again. Then I sat down on the edge of the bed with my father's wooden wolf in my lap and waited, and my heart beat so hard I could feel it in my throat.He knocked once. Quietly. As if the wood might object."It's open," I said.He came in and closed the door and
Luca told me everything Ovrin had said, and he told it word for word.He stood in the middle of the war room with the blue pouch in one hand and did not soften a syllable. Numb mouth. Numb throat. I wanted very much to agree with whatever you said next. When he reached Not a word kinder, his voice stayed level, and I understood that the levelness cost him.Nobody spoke for a moment. Hild had stopped chewing her bread."Seven years," I said at last. I was sitting on the edge of the long table with my hands wrapped around a mug of plain water. Ovrin had boiled it himself and sent it up with a note that said drink only this. "She handed me that tonic every time I was sore. Every time I couldn't sleep. And every time, I was a little easier to talk to the next day.""You were never easy to talk to," said Maeve from the window seat."Thank you, Maeve.""I'm only saying it can't have been working very well." She pulled her knees up and gave me a small crooked smile. It was the first I had se
Ovrin keeps his poisons in a room under the infirmary that smells like a wet cellar and a very old argument.I found him there at midmorning, perched on a stool among his jars with a lens screwed into one eye and the blue cloth pouch open on the bench in front of him. He did not look up when I came in. He lifted one finger, which meant wait, and I waited. Nobody has ever hurried Ovrin. People who tried went home with worse symptoms."Shut the door," he said at last. "You're letting the warm out.""It's a cellar. There is no warm.""There was." He pulled the lens from his eye and glared at me with the other. "Sit. Don't touch anything. Half of it will kill you and the other half will only make you wish it had."I sat on an upturned crate. Between us on the bench lay three small white dishes. In the first he had tipped a pinch of the dried herb from the pouch. In the second, a sliver of the honey block that had come wrapped inside it. The th
I did not sleep. I sat on the floor of my room with my back against the bed and my mother's letter on my knee, and I watched the window go from black to iron to the thin pale gray of morning.I read it eleven times. I know because I counted. It was something to do with my mind besides think.You have my left one, and it will not lie to you even when you do.At some point in the small hours I found that I was holding the pouch again, the blue cloth gone warm in my fist, and I set it on the table at the far side of the room, as one sets down a thing that might bite. Then I turned my back on it and read the letter a twelfth time.When the light reached the sill, I got up, stiff in every joint, and opened the door.Luca was sitting in the corridor with his back against the wall.He was asleep. His head had fallen sideways against the stone and his arms were folded, and one boot was stretched across the threshold so that I would have had
I did not open it at once.I stood in the middle of the carpet with the packet in my palm, and for a long moment I could not make my other hand lift. The oilskin was warm from Luca's fingers. A thread of green wool, faded almost to gray, had been wound twice around it and knotted. It was the knot I noticed. It was a small, tight, left-handed knot, the kind I tied myself, the kind Hild had once called backwards and stubborn."I'll go to the window," said Luca."You don't have to.""I know." His voice was rough. "I'd like to."He went. He stood with his back to the room and his hands behind him, looking out at the black lake, and the thread between us went very quiet, the way a person goes quiet when they are trying not to breathe too loudly in the room of someone who is grieving.I broke the seal with my thumbnail.Inside the oilskin lay two things. The first was a curl of hair, no longer than my finger, tied at the middle wit
Nobody spoke until the last of the Frostmaw had gone over the rise, and then everyone spoke at once.The Blackmere rows broke into knots of furious muttering. One of the hill elders demanded loudly that someone fetch her a chair, since she had not been informed that the end of the world would involve this much standing. Perrin swore in four languages. Somewhere behind me, a man began to laugh and could not stop, and was hushed by three people at once.I stood at the water's edge and heard almost none of it.My left hand was curled against my thigh. I looked down at it as though it belonged to someone else. You've begun favoring your left hand. I had not known. I had not noticed it once, in all those weeks of wooden swords and Hild's barking, that I had stopped reaching with the right.I uncurled the fingers one at a time. They did not want to go."Well," said Hild, at my shoulder. She was gray around the mouth and sweating from standing so







