What am I doing

*******Christian********

“Please please don’t kill me” the man begged desperately as he struggled to get up from the floor.

I looked at the fool who thought he could run past me.

He wasn’t smart and he left his way open to me.

What did you think would happen when you found her and who sent you ?

The man spat out blood as he knelt clutching both his hands together again.

I knew he wasn’t going to talk before he could grasp what was going on, Tristan pulled him up and then put his hands on the table in front of me.

My eyes went to the man and I hoped that he said the words that I wanted to hear him speak, but I knew what he had done, he wasn’t going against the code.

With the small knife in my hands , I cut off two of his fingers.

His scream tore out of the whole building and I couldn’t help but smile.

Seeing his blood flow out gave me that satisfaction that I wanted.

He wants to keep shut, then I can help him do that ,he can be stubborn.

Please,I have a wife and a son.

Then you should have thought of that before you tried to do what you did.

This time I cut off the rest of his fingers as his screams tore through the building.

The rest of the men came in and pulled him away.

I didn’t want to kill him,not now but I only wanted to send out a warning to all those who think they can come for what was mine.

Tristan handed a towel to me as I cleaned the blood in my hands.

I knew that look on his face, he had so much that he wanted to say.

“Don’t start” I cut him off before the words came out.

Tristan let out a deep breath before walking away and then turned back to face me.

“You can’t do this Chris” he said again more like a warning , it was the same thing that he said to me the first time.

I can’t do what?.

Tristan looks away and then hands me the stick of cigarette he had with him.

You can’t pull her into your world , she’s innocent , if there’s anyone you should hate then it should be Callum.

But she married him, she knew what he was when he married her and that makes her a part of it.

Well,maybe you should look at it the other way because I heard that he left her with nothing and not just that he left her in debts.

I know you hate callum for what he did but she also got a taste of the monster he was but marrying her isn’t on the list.

I didn't reply to Tristian, I gave him the silent treatment.

Tristian walks out of the secret cell house I had while I watched him go.

The boy I had asked to take her home had arrived and I knew she was safe.

Unlike Tristian who thinks he’s looking out for her and I was the monster but I wasn’t.

For the first time in my life, I can’t help but wonder why I can’t seem to get her off my head.

It was the night , the night I first met her at the bar sobbing at her husband's affairs.

I stood in the shadow watching her,yes I only want a contract marriage with her because I want to make him suffer.

He took something precious away from me and his innocent wife is the one who would pay the price but what I still don’t get is why I can’t help but feel a pang of guilt for what I’m doing.

I’m the monster people are supposed to fear and I shouldn’t be having any emotions but why with her.

Maybe it was the way her eyelids flickered whenever she was scared or the nervous and tense feeling building up in her when I’m close.

Maybe it was the fear in her eyes and the way she looked so innocent or the way her heart thumps against her chest making her boobs move up and down.

Was it the night I saw her dancing at the club? The raw anger I felt watching those men look at her seductively or the ones who took advantage of her drunken state to touch her.

That night I said some things I shouldn’t have said, but I don’t regret them. Thinking about it made me excited right there in that club , I wanted to claim her and make her mine.

The night I slammed her against the wall in the elevator , I couldn’t help but notice the marks on her neck.

That day when she slapped me across the face, I felt nothing.

Nobody had even done that but when she did it stunned me.

She was the innocent girl who got married to a monster.

The thought of her excited me and seeing her cry made me angry but she’s the wife of my enemy and I didn’t plan on letting her go.

There was something about her, something that drew me so close to her but scared me.

Daisy was mine and I could do to her whatever I liked , maybe if I had just a taste of her then I would stop imagining things with her.

But I wasn’t done,I was going to owe her, claim her and make her beg for more and by the time I was done with his precious little wife, Callum would crawl out from whatever hole that he was in.

Thinking of her alone excites me.

I saw the hate in her eyes today when I made her sign that agreement but if only she knew the things she said to me or when she begged me to marry her because of the depths her husband left her in.

Regardless of how much I wanted to make her suffer, Daisy was mine.

My name was the only thing that’s supposed to bring her fear.

And no one touches what’s mine.