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023. He's my fucking downfall
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Break Me Apart (MxM) From the author
I want to start by apologizing if the new direction of this book isn't meeting your expectations. I'm truly sorry if the changes or previous chapters haven't been what you hoped for. Please trust me and have faith in this story because we still have a long way to go, and I'm confident that everything will unfold as you've envisioned.To those who aren't fond of Cole's character, I understand your concerns. Without giving too much away, I can assure you that Cole's actions are intentional and he has good reason for what he's been doing.I kindly ask that you continue reading, as the story will reveal more about his character in due time.Your support means the world to me. I'm humbled by your enthusiasm, and I'm committed to delivering a story that resonates with you. Currently, I'm not feeling well, but I'm working hard to provide more content as soon as possible. Your encouragement fuels my creativity, and I promise to share more chapters regularly once I'm feeling better. Thank y
Break Me Apart (MxM) 071. Get in the car, Jayce.
JAYCE BECKETT It had been over an hour since Cole left with his fathers to discuss some personal business with them, and I hadn't seen any sign of the three of them since then. My legs felt like lead, weighed down by exhaustion, as I slumped against the wall, too drained to even muster the energy to stand up and go home. I desperately wanted to know why Renato had been snooping around my apartment, but my body seemed to have given up on me. My eyelids drooped, heavy with fatigue, and my mind struggled to focus. "If only that bastard would pick up my calls and tell me exactly what he was looking for in my apartment..." I let out a weary sigh, my voice barely above a whisper. I tried to call him again, but it went straight to voicemail. My head lolled back against the wall, and I closed my eyes, feeling the weight of my exhaustion bearing down on me. I had so much to think about.Why was Curtis taking so long to regain conscious? And what could Renato possibly be looking for in m
Break Me Apart (MxM) 070. It was both our fault.
JAYCE BECKETT My head was still throbbing, and my ears were ringing like an alarm was going off in my head. For two days, it had been like that. For two days, I hadn't managed to close my eyes for sleep. For a good two days, I hadn't put anything in my mouth, not even water. And for those fucking two days, I had been feeling like a total shit. The only question I had been asking myself over and over for days was 'What the fuck have I done?' If it wasn't because of me, everything that happened wouldn't have happened. I wouldn't be here now, pacing the long corridor of this damn hospital with my hands trembling with fear. If I hadn't drunk all that alcohol, maybe I would have been able to go back home that night, and Curtis... Curtis wouldn't have..."Fuck me!" I cried out, fisting my hair in both hands, pacing back and forth with my eyes burning with unshed tears. I couldn't stop myself from pulling at my hair as the memory of Curtis passing out cold in the bathroom flooded my
Break Me Apart (MxM) 069. Is he married?
RENATO MARINO One thing I hated most in the world was being ignored. Or, maybe not. Maybe what I hated most was being treated like I didn't matter, or not? But I sure as hell hated it when a toy was playing hard to get, and that's exactly what Jayce had been doing. My back ached from sitting in the same position all day, staring at my phone in hand with my legs bouncing restlessly under the office table.It had been well over two days since I'd called that little bastard, and two days since I'd been ignored. He never came, never heard from him. Maybe I wouldn't have been so enraged if he'd called, maybe given me a good reason why he couldn't come. Or would it have been better if he'd asked me to come to him instead? Would that have been better than being ignored like my words were nothing... like I didn't matter to him? "Fuck!" I cursed, typing out a quick message and letting my thumb hover over the send icon, wondering if I really wanted to do this. What would that make me if
Break Me Apart (MxM) 068. You are my fucking husband!
JAYCE BECKETT Taking my last name was just out of the question, and as much as I tried to brush it off, I just couldn't shake it off. The more the night wore on, the more I felt like this was all becoming terrifyingly real. What if I actually married my best friend for real? Oh God, a lot could go wrong! A lot of things would spiral out of control, and we might not be able to fix it. The thought alone was sending me into a panic, and I couldn't help but asked myself, "what have we gotten ourselves into?" "What?" Cole asked, suddenly stopping dancing, but his hands were still loosely wrapped around my waist, his eyes boring into mine. "Don't look at me like you don't know," I retorted slowly, my hands slipping down from his shoulders. I knew he understood exactly what I was saying, and this wasn't the time to play pretend. Cole sighed, his head dropping to his chest, and then slowly looking up at me. "You can't blame me, can you?" he asked, gently releasing my waist and ke
Break Me Apart (MxM) 067. Mr. and Mr. Beckett.
JAYCE BECKETT If only I knew how extra Cole was going to get with this marriage, I wouldn't have agreed to this shit in the first place. I didn't know how many times I had to spell it out to him that this whole thing was fake and that we didn't need this much attention. My body was literally trembling with rage, and I didn't even know how to react to everything that was going on. But one thing was sure: if I reacted with how enraged I was right now, I definitely would punch Cole. But I couldn't do that now, could I? Not when everyone was here and watching.My eyes scanned through the crowd of people, and I felt my heart quicken when my eyes met Cole's fathers'. They had their eyes on us, and they were smiling. Paul seemed the happiest, as if he had always wanted this to happen between Cole and me. It made me feel bad. How were we going to get divorced later without hurting those two? Cole must have sensed how tense I was; he let go of my hand and wrapped his arm around my waist
Break Me Apart (MxM) 066. Dinner date
JAYCE BECKETT The officiant cleared his throat. “Congratulations, you two. It's nice to see young people loving wholeheartedly. It makes me feel young again." He said, the corner of his eyes wrinkled as he smiled. "Uh, I don’t mean to rush you out, but we do have a 4 p.m., ceremony, and you still need to sign the certificate.”"Right?" Cole grinned, pulling away and took a step backward, his hand shot out, wiping my lips. "I almost forgot about the most important thing. Not like any of this is less important.""I won't judge you if you say it's the most important of the whole event. I mean, it's the proof of your marriage and proof of new beginning." The man chucked, giving me a quick glance before looking away.We quickly got that out of the way, and then he handed me the piece of paper we were never going to file. I handed it off to Cole, because the last thing I needed was a reminder that today happened. I just wished I could go home, sleep and when I woke up, I would forget ever
Break Me Apart (MxM) 065. Kiss the groom.
JAYCE BECKETT It had been three days since I'd last visited Renato's villa to tend to his wound, and I still hadn't heard from him. I wouldn't deny that I was worried about him, which didn't make sense. I wanted to know how he was doing, if he was taking his medication, and if his wound had healed. But I couldn't get any answers.When he sent one of his guys to pick up his car—the one I had borrowed—I asked the guy how Renato was doing, but he wouldn't tell me anything. I wondered if Renato was mad at me, whether it was because I had refused to answer his questions about that name or because I had refused to stay the night.But how could I? Just mentioning that name was enough to shatter my heart. I couldn't possibly be jealous when we weren't even dating. But maybe I felt bad, like Renato was cheating on the person named Aspen with me.But even I knew that was a lie. I didn't feel bad, but I couldn't tell what that emotion was.Could it be jealousy? I wouldn't know.My hand unco
Break Me Apart (MxM) 064. Isn't he jealous?
RENATO MARINO "You're... Hmmph..." He gasped, his hands found my collar, and he pulled me to him, his body pressed against mine, like we were one person.I let my hand slide down his back, sneaking my hand into his shirt, feeling his warm skin against my skin, my fingers trailing his hard muscles."You're an asshole. I hope you know that." Jayce groaned into my mouth, his words tickling my tongue as he greedily sucked on my tongue, just the way I loved it.I wanted more, kissing him alone won't do.I wished it was possible to eat him up and still have him. I wanted him swallow him whole, to have his skin pressed against my bare skin. To have us tangled together in my bed and stay that way forever.This was the very thing I'd feared. The reason I'd never dared to tread this path again after Aspen. I don't do love; I do possession. Obsession is my game, and once I've claimed someone, nothing— not even death—can extinguish the all-consuming fire that drives me to have them. Jayce was
