Broken chap 8

Chapter 8

Tanya's pov

What do you think about me? That I am a whore? That I couldn't control myself in front of these brothers? No. I know that if my husband wants to avenge his brother, he will try breaking Sanvi and for that, he needs her weaknesses. Which means that he will dig out more information about her and there is a risk that she will suffer because of me.

So, this was my way of distracting him. I don't want him to be free anytime. 

I will help Sanvi and no one can stop me from doing so, but even my dignity and self-respect...

After four rounds of him making love with me, or I say raping I didn't know when I fell asleep. When I woke up, he was not with me. I panicked and started looking for him. I hear some sounds from the restroom. So, I close my eyes and pretend to sleep. I hear the door open and he comes closer to me and speaks while stroking my cheek, "Why are you not like her? Why are you so innocent? Why can't I hate you? Why can't I punish you?

He scoops me up in bridal style and my breath is caught in my chest, opening my eyes and struggling against him. His glare is enough for me to remain quiet and he takes me inside and places me in the tub. The warm water soothes my sore muscles and I moan. I hear a throaty groan from beside me and I stiffen. He goes out of the restroom and then I relax.

I just know one thing. It will take a lot of efforts to distract this man. He had such a huge stamina. I can't help but blush at the thought that it has not even been 24 hours after our marriage and he already took me nine times.

But anything for Sanvi and her daughter... I know that I don't know whom she gave birth to but it's my gut feeling that it is a girl. 

Yes, that thought was enough for me to bear him. I still can't believe that I'm the same girl who used to hate her and feel jealous for that b*****d. I said many bad things about her and tried to give her to him. But she still loves me. And now I can't believe that I love her so much that I can bear anything for her... 

He kidnapped me, married me, raped me but I still submitted myself to him to give him a distraction. I know that what I did was wrong but now I know that I don't have to live in guilt anymore. I have to be like Sanvi, without any negative thoughts, including guilt. Then only, I can convince him that I am Sanvi.

I relax there and come out of the restroom, feeling at ease with the soreness but it is still there. I shake my head to distract my thoughts. I have to think about him. Maybe, if I submit myself to him, it will be the least painful for me... After all, I have to survive and it is always survival of the fittest and for being fit for survival, I have to take the least amount of pain. Submission is the best option.

I come out of my thoughts when I see my husband coming towards me with lust in his eyes. Yes, because I am just in a towel. If you are thinking that I am not taking his name to increase his lifespan then no, is not like that. I am not taking his name because I don't remember his name because I was too busy in my thoughts that I forgot his name. He gave me an introduction of him but hell I don't remember anything because I was sedated. 

I forgot everything about what he told me at night but I remember everything he did to me. Yes, I don't care that his life will decrease. In fact, it will make my life easier...

I come out of my thoughts when he grabs my waist and pins me on a wall. I can't do this anymore. For god's sake, I don't even know his name... That's when I ask, "What is your name?" He looks at me, confused. I do the same.

"I just gave my introduction to you last night and it was a good enough introduction.... How the f**k you forgot everything in morning?" he said angrily

"actually it's your fault...." I said after I realise what I said 

"excuse me what you just say? My fault! HOW THE HELL IS IT MY FAULT??" he screamed 

"yes it's your fault you give me drugs to make me senseless. And it was the reaction of the drugs I don't remember anything about you said." I said 

"well OK it's my fault but you remember na what I did to u yesterday night?" he asked with a smirk 

He is a pervert. Nerves of this man after making my first time horrible he is asking me about it. 

"Yes, I remember how I forgot." I said 

"good for you never try to forget it or anything about me." he stated 

"Are you really Sanvi? I mean, you are so close to my family. Don't you even know my name?"he asked suddenly. 

Oh no! I have to convince him that I am Sanvi.

"It's not like that. They told me your name but I never saw you," hopefully he believed me.... And I add, "So, it was difficult to remember your name because I never saw you and I didn't know how to imagine you."I said 

"Oh. It's okay. I am AAarush Rathod. Brother of Ritvik Rathod. And I'm the mafia king. Of India and London " he said 

I sigh in relief. At least he was convinced. Wait what he said? He is a mafia! He is the mafia king! My husband is a mafia! What did I do to have a fate like this? God, why do you hate me so much? 

"Now now... Let me taste my delicious wifey," saying this. He brought me back to reality,

he digs his nails in my butt and I arch my back subconsciously. What? No one touched me like that, not even Ritvik. It's only normal if I react like this...

Soon, our bodies were intertwined and our breath heavy as we reached our orgasm for the third time. I rest my head on his chest. Maybe, this idea is not bad. Maybe I will fall in love with him...

Love! No. I can't love. Love only destroys lives. But my mind drifts to Sanvi and Akshit. If she can fall in love, why can't I? Yes, I will fall in love and make him love me. This way, he will just be focused on me and I will also be happy.

I look at his tired and sleepy face. He is so handsome. For the first time, I felt lucky that I married him..... 

She shivers at my words and opens the pallu of her saree and says," I am all yours. You married me and I am your wife. You have every right to do anything you want to do with me."

I lick my lips and start kissing her wherever I see skin. Her body shakes with the nervousness she is feeling. I can tell that she is not ready for this. Then why did she do that? Is she really that orthodox? No she can't be orthodox because she denied my brother after their relationship. But she is something that can attract anyone No wonder my brother fell in love with her…