Broken scared love

Back story 

Tanya is friends with Sanvi Akansha and Shreya. In college she loved Rithvik who loved Sanvi. Ritvik used Tanya to get Sanvi but to save Sanvi her twin sister Janvi reached Ritvik and when he got to know this he killed both of them and their unborn child. Tanya is living in gulit of it only 

Broken 

Chapter 1

Tanya's pov 

I am really ashamed of myself. How could I love him? And why do I still love him? I hate him but still I love him. And this guilt, it is killing me. Janvi lost her and her child's life because of him and I still love him. What type of friend am I? 

Today, Sanvi asked me if she can share our past with Akshit. Of course, I agreed. I didn't want to share it with anyone. But I lost my right to decline the moment I told Ritvik that his wife is Janvi and not Sanvi. Because of me, he killed her and her unborn child. Yes, her child. He says that the child was a mistake, his biggest mistake and he doesn't accept the child. He said that he should die with the guilt of touching a girl who is not Sanvi and at that moment, I once again realized that he can never be mine. I can't have him but what I didn't realise is that he shot himself too after shooting her. Because of his guilt of touching Janvi, he also shot himself and a part of me also died.

I am really guilty of loving him but I will love him no matter what.