Chapter 23

I spent longer than I really intended in the bathroom. The fact was that in there, I could let out my tears and my despair. There was no one watching and I didn't need to be strong. It was just me and my pain.

I let the water envelop my body, so that the heat concentrated on my muscles and relaxed them little by little. I tried to keep my eyes closed at first, but the images of David in the hospital bed filled my mind in such a way that I realized that staring at the bathroom tiles would be better.

Black. White. Black. White.

The feeling of guilt put almost unbearable pressure on my temples, creating a throbbing pain. If I hadn't been so preoccupied with making money, I would surely have noticed some evidence that things weren't going well with my brother. Over the last few days he'd seemed down and when I was at home, he stayed in his room almost all the time. all the time in his room. But that wasn't unusual. David loved to stay in his room with his movies, series and posters of ar