LOGINNOVA
I take one last look at my room, wondering if I'll ever be able to come back to it, before I grab the handle of my suitcase and drag it out the door. I don't know what to think of Mom's logic. It makes sense, but at the same time it doesn't. I know for sure Noah will be mad at me, but not enough to hurt me, right? I'm his sister. His biological sister whereas Enzo is just his friend. What could he possibly do that's making mom scared for me. The drive to Aunt Joan’s is two hours of silence. I'm not used to this type of silence. Whenever I go on drives like this with mom, we'll spend our time singing along to old school music like our lives depended on it. But, not today. Today, our favorite radio channel stays off. Mom's eyes are darting to her phone mounted on the dashboard every time it lights up with another missed call. I just stare out the passenger window, watching the familiar city landscape blur and dissolve into the rolling hills of the valley. By the time Mom pulls the SUV up the gravel driveway of Aunt Joan’s house, I've finally decided she's mad at me. She just doesn't want to show it. She has every right to be mad. I mean... she sees Enzo as her son. And if I had done this to Noah, mom would be doing the exact same thing she's doing now. The front door opens, and Aunt Joan steps onto the porch, wiping her hands on a dish towel. Behind her, a small crowd gathers. My cousins... Marcus, Kol and Chloe all poke their heads out. "Sarah? Nova?" Aunt Joan calls out, her brow furrowed as she walks down the porch steps. "What are you guys doing here? You didn't say you were driving down today." As Mom and I get out of the car, my cousins trail out onto the porch. Kol and Marcus are in t-shirts and shorts, holding gaming controllers. They are completely oblivious. Their home here in the valley is a bubble. They don't follow our city's high school sports drama, and the local news broadcast hasn't rippled out this far yet. To them, it's just a random Wednesday. "Kol, can you grab her duffel?" Aunt Joan says as I get to her. She gasps at my eyes which are bloodshot and swollen. "Sarah, what's going on? Why does Nova look like she's been crying for a week?" Aunt Joan asks. "Let's go inside, Joan," Mom says. "Please. Just let us get inside." We all crowd into Aunt Joan's living room. Kol has dropped my bags by the door and he's sitting beside me on the chair. "Okay, seriously, you guys are creeping me out," Kol says, breaking the silence. "Did someone die?" Mom takes a deep breath, standing in the center of the room. She looks at Aunt Joan, then turns to face my cousins. "Kids, listen to me. Nova is going to be staying here for a couple of weeks. And I need you all to understand the gravity of what is happening, because her safety and peace of mind depend on it." "Staying here? For weeks? In the middle of the school term?" Marcus asks. "What did she do, rob a bank?" "No," Mom says. "But back home, everything has blown up. Nova... she made a voice recording. An audio recording of her brother Noah and his best friend, Enzo Moretti." "The hockey guy?" Kol interrupts. He and his brother share glances and then he tries again. "Do you mean Enzo? The one projected to go top three in the NHL draft?" "Yes, him," Mom sighs, rubbing her temples. "They were having a private conversation in our living room about something... highly sensitive. Something involving a girl at school. Nova recorded it on her phone. She didn't mean to do anything with it, but her best friend Ava took her phone, found the recording, and leaked it. It's on the school forums. It's in the city group chats. It just hit the local televised news broadcast an hour ago." Chloe walks over and grabs my hand. "Hey, are you okay?" At least she's receptive. Kol and Marcus look amused. "Yo... Nova," Kol says. "The internet is going to go literally feral over this. If I'm correct, you practically just ended the Ridgeview Wolves' season before the playoffs even started!" "Seriously. I think it's kind of legendary. Cold-blooded, Nova. Absolute savage." Marcus says and he laughs. "It's not funny. His career is ruined, the whole school hates me, and my phone is blowing up with people calling me a snake!" Marcus smiles fades a little. "You're not a snake. You just did what you had to do." What I had to do? I wasn't even going to post the recording to the public. I would never do that to Enzo. And... and somehow doing that would affect the team that my brother plays for so why on earth would I do that? Marcus and Kol are idiots. They'd never understand. "You know what, I think you both should shut the fuck up. You're idiots." Chloe tells them, her hand squeezing mine a little. She pulls away and wraps her arms around me, hugging me tightly. "Ignore them, okay? They lack what I call emotional intelligence," Chloe whispers in my ear, pulling back to look at me. "I don't care about some hockey player. I care about you. I can see how terrified you are, Nova. But honestly? I am so excited you're here. We're going to get through this, and we actually get to hang out for a couple of weeks without anyone bothering us." She gives my arm a reassuring squeeze. "I've got your back. Always. We'll hide out in my room, watch movies, and ignore the boys." I nod, trying to smile but failing at it. Mom gives me a wink as she's pulling Aunt Joan into the kitchen corner so I follow them. "Joan, please," Mom says. "You have to promise me. Look at me." "I'm listening, Sarah. What is it?" I stare at both sisters, my eyes moving from one to the other. I know my mom is pretty close with her sister but I've never seen them being this close and it's usually hard to tell when they're on opposite sides of the room shouting instructions at their kids whenever we come for family visits. "You have to sit Kol, Marcus, and Chloe down and make them understand. You have to beg them not to breathe a word of this to Noah. Do not let them text him, do not let them snapchat him, nothing." Aunt Joan frowns. "Noah doesn't know she's here?" "Noah knows she made the recording, or at least he's pieced it together. He is protective of Enzo to a fault, Joan. He is furious. If Noah finds out Nova is hiding down here in the valley, he will get in his car and drive down within the hour. There will be a massive confrontation, and Nova cannot handle that right now. Not until her father gets off his flight and we can find a way to contain everything." Mom looks over at me, then she averts her gaze back to her sister. "Please, Joan. Beg your kids to keep their mouths shut." Aunt Joan looks over her shoulder at the kitchen counter, where Kol and Marcus are still snickering over their phones, and then at Chloe, who looks worried now. "Hey! All three of you, look at me right now," Aunt Joan shouts. Kol and Marcus instantly sober up, putting their phones down. Chloe finds me eyes and smiles. "Your aunt is asking for our help, and this is serious," Aunt Joan says, glaring pointedly at her sons. "If I catch either of you hinting to Noah, or anyone else from home, that Nova is staying in this house, I will personally confiscate your phones, your cars, and your gaming consoles until you graduate. Do you understand me? Noah cannot know she is here. Period." Kol frowns, looking like he wants to say son but he doesn't. "Yeah. Got it, Mom." "We won't say anything, Aunt Sarah. Promise," Marcus mutters. I look down at the phone in my lap as a new text pops up from Noah. Noah: I know you left school. Mom's car is gone too. Where the fuck are you, Nova? Answer me. "Is that..." Chloe asks, her eyes on my phone. I nod without a word. She mutters some curse words and takes my phone, sliding the power button down and I watch the screen fade to total black. Mom pulls me into one last hug, rubbing my back as she does. "You'll be fine, okay." "How long do I have to stay here?" I ask her. I don't want my cousins or my aunt to feel a kind of way because even though I love them, I love my immediate family as well. Mum shrugs. "For as long as your Dad and I can speak to your brother and get him under control."NOVAI trace the grain of the wooden coffee table with the tip of my finger. The anger that flared in my chest a moment ago is slowly being replaced by a cold, sinking feeling."If she sends it," I say quietly, not looking up, "it won't just be between you and me, Enzo. If she sends it to Noah... or to my parents...""I know," he interrupts. "I've already thought about that. Believe me, it's all I've been thinking about since I walked out of that room.""And?" I finally look at him. "And I'll deal with it," he says, his jaw clenching. "If she sends it to your brother, I'll take whatever he has to dish out. I'll take a punch, I'll take a broken nose... hell, I'll take whatever he wants. But I am not going to let her ruin my promise to you. I am not going to let her dictate who I talk to, who I care about, or what I do with my life."Well, I should take his word. He does sound sincere. Oh God. It’s terrifying how easily he can make me believe him, even when I'm not supposed to, given t
ENZOI storm out of the living room before I do something I'll regret. Something like smashing every fucking thing in this house. My mother's laughter follows me to the stairs."Don't forget to thank me when you're playing in the NHL, Lorenzo!"I flip her off without turning around."Such a lovely gesture!" she calls after me.God, I fucking hate her. I make it halfway up the stairs before the realization of what just happened hit me. I squeeze my eyes shut.Okay... I'm not seriously worried about what her reaction would be right? That's fucking right. I'm worried about what her brother's reaction would be when he listens to that recording. I practically tore his sister apart with every disgusting word.But then... I'd said those things to protect her, right? To make my mother believe there was nothing between us. And now my mother has a recording. A fucking recording.I pull my phone from my pocket and open Nova's contact. My thumb hovers over the call button.What am I supposed to
ENZO“No, you listen to me, you miserable...”I bite my tongue hard, my chest heaving like I’ve just played three consecutive periods of brutal overtime. I can’t do this here. Not with her standing in the entryway looking at me like I’m a malfunctioning machine.I turn on my heel, shoving past her, and storm up the stairs two at a time, leaving her screeching complaints against the walls.Once I hit the second-floor landing, I pull my phone out of my pocket, my thumb swiping. I can still remember what I told Nova downstairs. What we were going to do before my mother arrived unannounced. I open a browser tab. How to be good to her?A bunch of sappy, useless relationship blog links pop up. I stare at the screen, let out a scoff at some generic advice about "active listening and emotional availability," and delete the search. I try again. How to be a boyfriend.I scroll through a few more articles until one headline actually makes me snort. Signs you're failing as a boyfriend. Yeah, well
ENZOWhat is she doing here?That's what I think first when I sight my mother glaring at Nova. It's nothing new. It's been established that she doesn't like Nova. She doesn't care much for Noah but Nova... we all know she dislikes the girl. Then after the recording stuff... her hatred for the girl grew.My mother’s eyes... icy, and sharp, takes in the scene. First, they land on me, holding Nova’s hand tightly in mine. Then her gaze drags over to Nova. She takes in her damp hair, and the plain black shirt swallowing her frame... my shirt.I feel Nova flinch beside me, as she tries to yank her fingers out of my grip. Panic. She’s terrified. I don't let go immediately she tries to get her hand off. I tighten my grip, letting her know I’ve got her, before letting my fingers slide away."Mom," I say, stepping between them. I square my shoulders, blocking Nova from my mother's line of sight. "You said you weren't coming back until Sunday.""Evidently, I came home early," she replies. She do
NOVA The sun is scorching, shimmering, but that is the last thing on my mind.My palms are slick with sweat. My stomach is doing dangerous, acrobatic flips. And my brain? My brain has left me completely, leaving behind a mess.Yeah, I'm a mess. I'm a panicking mess.We haven't spoken since last night. Not a text. Not a glance across the hall at school. Nothing.I wouldn't even be standing here right now if Noah hadn't literally cornered me against my locker during fourth period, pinning me with his protective older brother glare and telling me, “Go see Enzo after school.”Easy for him to say. He didn't make a life-altering, utterly terrifying deal with his best friend to pretend to be a couple while secretly harboring feelings.I stand on the front porch of Enzo’s house, staring at the brass doorbell as if it's a venomous snake. I've been standing here for approximately five full minutes, my inner monologue screaming every possible worst-case scenario.What if his parents are home? T
ENZO"You heard me.""No, no. I'm just making sure I heard you correctly. You're saying you'd be relieved if Nova spent more time with me?""Yes."I stare at him. This motherfucker. This trusting idiot. He has no idea what he's handing me.No idea what his suggestion means when I've spent the last twelve hours trying to convince myself that I can be normal around his sister.No idea that every time I think about Nova, my brain helpfully supplies a hundred different ways I could get closer to her.And now he's giving me permission to do exactly that. I shake my head. "That's a bad idea.""You said she was going to tutor you, right?"My fingers tighten around the bottle. There it is. The universe has officially decided to fuck with me. "Yeah.""Then use that."I blink. "Use what?""The tutoring thing. Tell her she needs to come over after school. You know, to help you study."I stare at him."I'm serious. If she's spending time with you, she'll have less time to hang around Caleb.""Eve







