We arrived at a hotel in that beautiful town called Alentejo, a place I fervently wished would captivate me. I was filled with fears like never before, even starting to regret having traveled—who could understand me? At first, I hated the motorcycle, then I loved it madly, and later, that same machine was the only thing keeping me constantly entertained. Our arrivals should have meant rest and contemplation. Yet, at that point in the journey, I felt different, filled with desires, doubts, and questions that repeated and renewed in my mind every time my fears resurfaced. As we ate, I glanced sideways at the group, feeling both right and wrong at the same time. Danilo, with hair as black as mine and his youthful face—thick eyebrows, square jaw—always detached, cracking jokes about his university friends and sharing how happy he was to start his hospital internship. Joao, playful and joking as usual, with that enviable height, face, eyes, and body—yet never boastful, making clever rema
We parked in a secure spot where our belongings would be safe, dismounted the bikes, removed our helmets, and climbed into a waiting car. Once inside the small white van, we took in the dense pine forests surrounding us, breathing in that crisp, earthy scent I’d longed to experience. I could’ve closed my eyes and relaxed during the ascent, but the road was rough—and I wanted to see. Watching everyone’s expressions, I noticed Alfredo snapping photos with a high-end camera I hadn’t seen before. Suddenly, a flash went off—aimed at Maël and me, catching us off guard. I shot my boyfriend a questioning look, and he silently mouthed, "We’ll talk to him later." Bad. Very bad. That nearly sent me into a spiral. We’d never discussed whether our guide could document this trip. But the climb to the summit—with its terraced houses and farmland—distracted me enough to table the issue. Signs of glacial erosion marked the route, though we wouldn’t reach Pico Torre, the highest peak at over 2,00
For logistical reasons, we didn’t leave for the trip the next day, but two days later. Rosa, who had quietly been holding the best cards, surprised us by revealing that she still had a contact card given to her by one of the co-founders of IMTBIKE—a Spaniard named Alfredo Milmoar, the son of one of her patients during her university hospital rotations. Coincidence? Something told me this trip had been planned long before the graduation party, that I was the only one left out of the loop, and that sweet Rosa had been the one to suggest the motorcycle tour through Portugal’s landscapes. On one hand, their little charade to avoid alarming me was fair, given how cautious I was about my relationship with Maël. On the other hand, I felt a bit deceived. The fact that they had planned something without telling me, without including me, or only filling me in once the decision was practically made… I didn’t like it. In fact, I hated every time they talked among themselves, those moments when
"Listen up, damn it!" Danilo shouted, trying to get our attention. That wasn’t an easy task, given how much noise we were making—laughter and chatter filling the entire living room. "Alright, what does our favorite doctor have to say?" Joao asked. My brother’s graduation had taken place that afternoon, August 1st, in a formal university ceremony that felt worlds apart from our usual chaos. I was the only one officially recognized by our parents in attendance, while Maël and Joao had to wait in the parking lot. Now, late into the night, we were back in our apartment’s living room, just like always: the same four of us, with one almost inevitable addition—Rosa, Danilo’s classmate. I’d been hesitant at first, but my brother had begged me to let her come tonight. How could I say no? After all, she’d been with us on that strange, anxious, fateful day in Viana when we traveled for the hospital charity event. And honestly, her finding out our secret hadn’t been a disaster. That night
The living room of my apartment… Correction. The living room of our apartment became the entertainment hub for the only people who knew about the place: Joao, Danilo, Maël, and me. It wasn’t just about games, parties, or (as the dark-haired one liked to call them) "tech hangouts." It was also about endless hours spent on me, performing characters I’d played onstage or worked on behind the scenes. In other words, I was the entertainment—and as much as I loved my profession, I hoped their obsession with watching me act would fade someday. And it was all my brother’s fault! He’d told them that before they died, they *had* to see me perform. So dramatic. "She’s like a natural-born impersonator, but she impersonates things she invents herself," he’d said. But that wasn’t the moment I actually wanted to kill him. No, he took the opportunity to inform them that somewhere in the vast wasteland of the internet, my "little body" (his words) appeared in videos—acting, rehearsing, teaching, and e
I got up, went out, and carefully closed the door behind me, then stood there staring at the other white wooden door—the one to the next room. I closed my eyes, thinking about what I was about to face, about what I’d have to say to my brother, convinced I couldn’t fully predict his reaction to this madness I’d gotten myself into. Danilo was so unpredictable… The sound of the door behind me startled me, and out came Maël, pulling on his pajama pants. There he was—disheveled, shirtless, and drowsy—and I felt the butterflies in my stomach migrate to explore other parts of my body. “Hasn’t he gotten up yet?” I shook my head. “Well, it’s still early. I’m going to shower and get some training in. Let him sleep. When I’m done, I’ll make coffee.” “I can make it if you want. Are you going out today?” “Yeah, I have to prepare for an exhibition.” I smiled and almost suggested that he and his study group could work here, but then I remembered everything that would mean (Danilo flashed i