I guess one thing I finally figured out that not every crisis can be managed. As much as we want to keep ourselves safe, we can't protect ourselves from everything. If we want to embrace life, we also have to embrace chaos." Why didn't you asked Heather? Why she came to your office?" Robin asked me. And seriously, I felt like not explaining anything would be so great for my mental health and for my body. I am somewhat exhausted; I wonder how a battery feels when it pours electricity into a non-conductor?" Tell me, why are you so quite? usually you talk a lot but what happened now?"" Why you are stuck on Heather? We have a bigger problems than that. Eden is trying to threat to me legal action.I don't know what to do? don't know what's wrong with me, really. It's nothing, but it's also all-encompassing. I feel strangely empty, devoid of though and energy. I am not sure where my days go, but they go. Every single thing I must do--any hint of a demand--grinds against me. I don't know w
" WHAT NON-SENSE IS THIS HEATHER??YOU MUST BE LYING!! HE CAN'T DO THAT TO STASSIE. HE LOVES HER" Robin raised her voice at heather.A tear escape my eyes and I hate him for make me into thinking that we were almost there but u knew it was never going there. I seen forever but you had an alarm set. I wanted all but you only liked parts. I felt the universe in you but you only feel earth In me. I drank your soul but you only sipped my flesh. My mind became your protector but yours became my enemy. This moment feels so dreadfully sore, Like a prickly thorn that I can't ignore. It's excruciating, oh how it stings, Like a bee's sharp sting that really zings. Pain, oh pain, it's part of the love game, In love's game, it's never the same. From bumps and bruises to a broken heart, Pain finds a way to play its part. It sneaks up on me, oh yes it does, With a sting and a throb." Why are you screaming at me Robin?? It wasn't my fault that Eden loves me not stassie. He chose me not stassie and i
The Next MorningI groaned as I gradually regained consciousness. Buzzing pain drilled into the sides of my head. My eyes felt like they were getting pressed into my skull. Take the headache of staying up all night and crying all night, multiply that pain by five, or maybe even ten times. It was so bad I just wanted to chop my head off.First thought: How long was I unconscious?Second thought: Lucky no one tried to kill me while I was out.Flickering yellow light from an old bulb above greeted me as I tried to open my eyes. “Shit, that’s bright,” I said, my parched throat making my voice sound like I had sandpaper for vocal cords. I immediately closed my eyes again; the lights weren’t blindingly bright, but they made my head and eyes hurt.Waiting for my eyes to rest, I tried to feel around to have a clue where I was, but my body was too numb and weak to move and would barely follow my thoughts. It reminded me of the time Heather stupidly forced me to do a heavy leg workout day and I
The audacity this man has to send me flowers as an apology. I am going to lose my mind.First I lost my heart. Then I lost my mind. I am inundated with feeling. I feel like a pinball machine on tilt. All the buzzers are ringing, lights are flashing, and I am about to fry my circuits. Nothing is coming in,and nothing is going out. I feel electrified. The wires ignited, sparked, and fizzled. I want it all to slow down. My nerves needed a break, not a reminder of how much pain I am in. I prowled around, but it didn't help. I still felt like my skin was on too tight. There was this constant urge in me to tear my insides apart,I didn't know why. By the time I made my mind that it was impossible for meto do, there alighted the fear, haunting me with the words that rangconstantly in my head, "You're not brave enough".I didn't feel devastated, I felt the urge to be devastated. But not anymore I am brave enough to go and talk to him.And the next thing I know, I was stomping my feet on the
I shut down again. I went blank. One minute I was spinning, and the next minute my mind was dragging itself around in a circle, like an old arthritic dog trying to lie down. And couldn't comprehend with the fact that Victoria betrayed Eden. She is his business partner how could she commit this against their own company. My mind was blown by this revelation and so many questions and thoughts came in my mind, I respond, thoughts dropping away, like pebbles plopping one by one in water, sinking down, down into dark oblivion." Stassie??? what happened to you? You just because quite." Lara's voice brought me back to the reality. For a moment, I thought about telling lara about Victoria but then I rejected the idea because I don't have any proof to prove that Victoria stole the designs." I am listening to you but I need to talk to Eden urgently and you need to help me." I said. Lara paused for a moment, her eyes thoughtful. "If it's that urgent," she finally said, "you should go to Mr. Ed
The realization hit me like a ton of bricks. Paul, the one I had trusted, had betrayed me. The shadow I saw at the bakery last night was indeed him. He had overheard our conversation and relayed it to Victoria. Robin was right about him all along. He was a manipulator, exploiting my vulnerabilities for his own gain.Victoria broke into my thoughts, her voice laced with triumph. "What are you thinking, Stassie? Still thinking about telling Eden the truth? If yes, then you should listen to this first," she said, a smug smile playing on her lips. She pulled out her phone from her pocket and hit play. The familiar voices filled the room - our voices from last night's conversation. I felt my heart drop into my stomach. I was in utter shock.The room spun around me as the reality of the situation sunk in. I had been played, and the consequences were unimaginable. The feeling of betrayal was overwhelming, and the shock was paralyzing. Victoria's threat hung in the air, a chilling ultimatum.
Robin’s face hardened as I mentioned Paul’s name, her usually calm demeanor replaced by a storm of anger. “That… that traitor!” she spat out, her hands clenching into fists. “I can’t believe he would do something like this!” She got up from her chair and started pacing the balcony, her steps quick and agitated. “He had no right to give Victoria that recording,” she fumed, her voice rising with each word. “That was our private conversation!” She stopped pacing and turned to face me, her eyes blazing with fury. “And to think we trusted him!” she exclaimed, throwing her hands up in frustration. “He’s nothing but a backstabbing, manipulative liar!” Robin vent her frustration, but I wasn't worried about Paul. I was more about, what should I do? Should I tell Eden Victoria being the traitor or should I just keep my mouth shut. "I... I'm a bad person, Robin," I confessed, my voice barely above a whisper. "I lied to Eden, I made so many mistakes... I don't even know if it's fixable an
A Week laterIt's been a week since I have last talked to Eden. Robin was so mad at me for not telling Eden the truth when I had the opportunity to come clean but how can I tell him when he telling me that he don't want me to leave his life. I can't act so cruel and break his heart. Robin don't understand me and nobody understands me. Everything thinks I am so selfish and just thinking about myself but it was nowhere near truth... I sigh heavily and the doorbell rings of our house and billy was busy in his room, working on his music and I was designing the wedding dress for Greta since I promised her that I will make her wedding ceremony dress.As I opened the door, I found Amy standing there, her arms filled with fabrics and beads for the wedding dress. I remembered asking her to bring them over. "Amy, come in," I said, stepping aside to let her into the house.I led her into the living room, which was in a state of creative chaos. Pieces of fabric were strewn across the floor, a tes