TIRED

SAGE

I still couldn’t forget that moment when I felt like I was losing everything all over again. That weak moment which I want disappears from my head but refuses to do so.

Even though hours had passed, my mind refused to let go of what happened with Knight.

I didn’t want to imagine what could have happened if his sister hadn’t walked in.

I didn’t want to think about what more I would have lost.

I had locked everyone out, curled into a ball on the bed. My thoughts ran wild, crashing into each other like a storm I couldn’t calm. Everything felt distant, yet too loud at the same time.

How did my life turn into this?

Just a few days ago, I was preparing to become Luna. I had worn my best dress. I was ready to take my place beside Zach, the man I thought loved me. I was ready to become a mother. I was ready to start a life I believed I had earned.

But in a blink, everything shattered.

I was dragged from my coronation, accused of cheating, and humiliated in front of the whole pack.

My child… gone and now, here I am in a strange pack, nearly forced by a man I barely know anything about.

The one they said was broken. The one who almost ruined what little was left of me.

I wanted to scream so loud that the whole pack shook from fright. I wanted to tear my skin open and let everything inside bleed out.

But nothing came, even my voice is betraying me. Tears slipped quietly down my cheeks. No sound, just silence, that kind of felt heavier than death.

Zach didn’t just take my title. He took my child. He took my dignity and he left me betrayed and hurt not even thinking about our past.

I gripped my clothes, fingers shaking. My chest ached like my heart had been ripped open and sewn shut with regret.

I didn’t want to be here anymore. I didn’t want to breathe. What was the point?

I wanted to leave this place. Leave this life. I was tired. So, so tired.

Then I heard it. A knock on the door, the knock that hadn't stopped for hours even though I pushed her outside.

My heart slammed inside my chest as pain crawled up my spine.

“Leave! I don’t want to see anybody!”

I managed to shout, but my voice cracked, the words barely escaping.

It was just like earlier… when I begged him to let go… when I screamed inside my mind, but my mouth refused to obey. My silence had betrayed me when I needed it most.

“Sage… I know you are not in your right state of mind now,” Her voice called from the other side of the door, “but I promise… he’s not always like that.”

A bitter laugh escaped my throat, a broken laugh with no joy in it.

Not always like that? He was a monster. Nothing anyone said could change that.

“Leave,” I mumbled again, this time too low for them to hear.

My body ached. My soul felt like it was splitting apart. I stared at the bedcover, my fingers twisting it like it could hold me together.

“Sage, please make a sound… let me know your thoughts are still in there breathing..” she murmured against the door again.

My mind whispered dark thoughts, and I didn't even care if anyone was outside waiting for me. The thoughts were winning and this is the kind of thought that made you believe maybe… maybe the world would be better without you. Maybe peace lived on the other side.

I slowly got up, dragging my feet to the bathroom. Each step hurt like I was walking on shattered glass. My head burned with memories I didn’t want to remember. His weight. His heart. The way he held me down and breathed me in like I was prey.

I didn’t want to remember. But I couldn’t forget. I turned on the bathtub.

The sound of water was too gentle, too calm for how I felt inside. But I stepped in. Fully clothed. I didn’t care. I just wanted to be numb.

I lay back, letting the water climb over me. My arms floated beside me. My eyes stared at the ceiling.

There I waited for that moment, maybe the water would take me.

Maybe it will wash away everything and I will finally see my baby again.

Maybe, this pain would stop and if that meant never waking up.

Then so be it.