LOGINNOAH’S POV
“Where are you, Birdy?” “I need my lucky charm.” The messages kept dropping onto my screen, stacking on top of the four he’d already sent in six minutes. I stirred the electrolyte packet into his water bottle at the counter, watching the powder spin into a cloudy blue funnel. Three days since I’d screamed at him at the arena entrance, since I watched him look at me with genuine confusion about what exactly he was doing wrong. Yet I was his lucky charm. Idiot. But God so help me, I loved it. That’s why I was here at his practice, because he had an international tournament coming up, playing errand girl for the man who announced his engagement on national television. Shouldn’t Rosalind be the one mixing this? He’d chosen her after all. I capped the bottle hard enough that it hissed, grabbed my bag, and headed for the rink. I was still scrolling his messages when I hit the locker room hallway, and my foot caught a duffel bag jutting out from under a bench. I was certain I’d slam my jaw on the ground. Then a hand closed around my upper arm and hauled me upright in one motion, no strain at all, almost like I weighed nothing. “Careful.” A voice floated lowly at me, rough at the edges. I turned, and looked up. Towering over me was a man with dark, unruly hair and striking green eyes. A silver ring cut through one eyebrow, more hoops climbed one ear, and black ink crawled up one side of his ribs disappeared beneath the waistband of his pants. His grip didn’t leave my arm right away. “Are you trying to get your skull cracked?” He snickered. “There are faster ways to do that.” My jaws clenched, jerking his hands off my arm. “You could try not leaving your bag in the middle of the hallway.” “It’s not mine.” “Oh. How convenient. You could have at least helped whoever it’s for to take it away.” “Someone else’s carelessness isn’t my problem.” He fired back. Then his eyes dragged once down the jersey I was wearing, and I saw a flicker of amusement in his eyes before they vanished. “Cute jersey by the way.” Normally I’d say thank you because it was a compliment—except he hadn’t even tried to hide the mockery behind his tone. Then he stepped closer to me, giving me a good whiff of his cologne. “You might want to throw it out, it’s faded.” “Excuse me!?” I frowned. “That is none of your business.” His gaze lingered on mine for a split second, and then a small smirk widened a corner of his lips. Like he was doing whatever this was on purpose. Then he brushed past me, walking away. I didn’t even know who he was and I really wanted to punch him already. Who even was he? I knew all of Luca’s teammates by heart and I could swear I had never seen this arrogant, rude yet kind of ridiculously good looking one before. With a deep exhale, I walked back to the boards. The arena was empty except for the team, and I found my usual spot, set Luca’s water where he’d see it and sat. “Move your feet!” Coach Reyes’s voice cracked across the ice. “I don’t need a bunch of fat asses playing like it’s still the parade! You want to keep that trophy? you skate like somebody is trying to steal it from you!” Their blades cut the ice rapidly, spraying whites behind them while sticks cracked against sticks. Somewhere, a puck rang off the board hard enough that I felt the vibration in my own teeth. Right in the middle of the ice was Luca—looking great, and focused. The kind of focus that put the championship in his hands. I felt my heart thud once at the thought of him. Then the whistle shattered the air. “Number Nineteen! Get in here!” A player peeled off from the far end, blades throwing up a wall of ice as he stopped, and my stomach dropped clean through the bleachers when the helmet turned enough for me to catch the jaw underneath. Him—again. He glided to a stop directly across from Luca, and I watched Luca’s body shift totally. His shoulders locked, spine went rigid and his grip on his stick tightened so hard I could almost hear the creak from his leather gloves. I had never seen him look at another human being like that—not a rival, an ex, no one. This was—strange. Coach Reyes dropped the puck between them, stepped back and blew into his whistle. Nineteen got to it first with a flick of the wrist, with barely any movement at all and then he was gone. Skating so fast, cutting hard toward the net with Luca a full stride behind him. Both of them—their skates scraped up more ice than I’d ever seen. Luca closed the gap right as nineteen planted his shoulder and drove him straight into the boards. “Oh, God!” I gasped, my hands flying to my mouth. The sound cracked through the whole arena. Luca hit the ice on his back, and nineteen was already sliding the puck past the goalie like he almost didn’t cost Luca a shoulder. “That’s a penalty in a real game, Nineteen!” Coach was already skating toward them, whistle screeching twice with anger. “You want to end up in the box every shift, keep it up!” I hadn’t even realized when I’d sprung up from the seats, down the stairs and my sneakers hitting the rubber matting at the bench. Luca skated over, breathing hard with his jaws clenched tightly—I grabbed him by the shoulders. “Who is that?” My hands started moving over his body, checking him, his ribs, the back of his head and anywhere that might be hiding something worse than it looked. “A new recruit.” Luca groaned slightly. I’d watched enough games to know it was normal to get hit, but this was— Almost personal. “Is that why he’s trying to maim you!?” He didn’t answer that. He was staring past me, out at the ice and something was moving under his skin that I had never seen there before, not even on his worse days. “I’m fine.” He said, which wasn’t anything close to an answer to what I’d asked. “Luca, get in here!” Coach yelled, already waving him back. I watched him go, my stomach was in my throat now. He lined across from nineteen a second time. Coach dropped the puck and barely got his hand back before nineteen hit Luca with his helmet so hard he went down flat on his back, skates flying out from under him and his own helmet cracking against the ice. Luca ripped his helmet off before he’d even finished sliding. I watched him clench his hands into fist. Fuck, “Luca!” I hurried toward the glass, with both hands slapping against it. He came up swinging, closing the distance in two strides and drove nineteen down onto the ice,and got two solid punches in before nineteen even raised a hand to block. For full three seconds, nineteen just took every hit. Then he moved. He caught Luca’s next swing mid-air, twisted and use the moment to flip them—and suddenly Luca was on his back with nineteen straddling his chest, throwing punches that landed directly on his face with an ugly sound I felt in my back teeth. I didn’t think –I was over the wall, skidding across the ice in sneakers, and I grabbed his arm right as it cocked back for another hit, both hands closing around his wrist. “GET OFF HIM!” My voice tore raw out of me. “Get off—stop, stop!” Then he stopped. Not because of me. My grip barely had a chance against the size of his forearm—I knew even as I held on. He stopped because he turned his head and looked at me, and for a couple seconds, neither of us moved. His chest heaved under mine where I had grabbed a fistful of his jersey. Those green eyes held mine like I was the only person in the room, and for one disorienting second, I forgot to be afraid of him. Luca used the opportunity and shoved nineteen off him, hard enough that his shoulder hit the ice. My grip slipped off him and I grabbed Luca into me instead, his whole body shook under my hands. Blood dripped from a cut over his eyebrow and down the side of his face. “You think you’re tough, huh?” Luca spat toward him, chest heaving and his voice cracked with more rage. “Touch me again and I’ll put you in the boards myself, Kade.” Kade. The rest of the team was closing in now, dropping their sticks and Coach was shouting somewhere. Kade pushed himself up slowly, and yanked off his helmet. He dragged the back of his glove across his split lip, smearing blood along his jaw without bothering to wipe it clean. He smirked. “It’s good to see you’ve grown some balls, brother.” Brother? “Leister!” Coach’s voice cracked across the ice. My eyes wouldn’t leave Kade. He was Luca’s brother!?? Kade climbed to his feet like none of this had cost him anything at all. His eyes found mine over Luca’s shoulder, taking their time. “See you around.” He turned, then glanced over his shoulders. “Birdy.”“No, not just go.” Her voice softened, the sarcasm dropping away for a second. “If you’re going because some part of you is still hoping he’ll change his mind at the altar, don’t. That’s a fairy tale, baby. you’re smarter than that. But if you’re going because you need to actually watch it happen — watch him choose somebody else in real time, so you can finally stop rewriting the ending in your head, then go for yourself. Not for him.”My throat tightened. “Okay.” “Call me tomorrow. I have to go now.” “I will.” “And Noah?” “Yeah?” “Don’t forget you had an entire life before that boy walked into it.” Then the line went dead before I could answer. I didn’t even get the chance to tell her I was with Quinn. I set the phone down slowly, staring at the blank screen. “That was pretty straight to the point,” Quinn said. “She always does that.” Neither of us spoke for a moment. The only sound was Micah’s small, even breathing between us and the soft rustle of Quinn refolding a shi
The words sat between us for a moment.Quinn set down the shirt she’d been folding and just looked at me. “What happened?”I picked at the seam of the tiny napkin still in my lap, avoiding her eyes. “The company cut the whole department. It wasn’t personal, it was just—budget cuts.”“You lost your job, Noah. You didn’t lose your ability to work. So why haven’t you gotten another one? I mean your skills are some of the most sought after in companies.”“I just haven’t gotten around to it.”Quinn set the laundry down entirely now, giving me her full attention in a way that made me want to look anywhere but at her. “Because of Luca.”I didn’t answer. My silence answered for me.“You’ve spent years putting your whole life on hold for that boy.” Her tone echoed with the tiredness of someone who’d said this exact thing before.“He never asked me to.”“That’s what makes it worse, Noey. You did it to yourself. Nobody held a gun to your head and told you to stop applying for jobs, stop making
“No.” She exhaled lightly. “You shouldn’t have.”My lips trembled, and I bit down on it, hard, like that might actually stop what was coming.“I was angry.”“I know.”“I thought you didn’t understand what he meant to me.”Her jaw tightened. “Luca?”I nodded, and that was the exact second the last of it gave out. Everything I’d been holding together since the driveway, since the wedding announcement, Catherine, since Kade’s face in that doorway — broke loose all at once, a sob tore out of me before I could brace for it.“I’m sorry.” My voice shattered completely. “I should’ve called you. I should’ve been here when you took your boards, I should have—”“Noah.”“I missed everything, Quinn. Because I couldn’t stop thinking about a man who’s never once thought about me the same way, and I let that cost me you too.”“Hey—”“And now he’s getting married.” It spilled out of me in pieces, ragged, more than I meant to say all at once. “And in three days. He’s actually marrying her.”Quinn went
(CONTD)“Babe, I told you, I’m fine. You don’t have to—”I stood on Quinn’s porch listening to that particular over-bright tone she’d been using on people since we were kids.My fist landed on her door in a soft knock.Then, her voice trailed off. And the door opened. Quinn stood there with her phone still pressed to her ear, hair pulled into a messy knot, a laundry basket balanced on one hip.She saw me. And stilled.Her eyes moved over my face, swollen, tear-tracked, wrecked — and it wiped the rest of her phone call clean off her expression.“Babe, I’ll call you back.” She hung up without waiting for an answer.For a second, neither of us moved. Three months of silence stood between us like something with actual weight.“Hi.” My voice cracked.Quinn’s face tightened. “Hi.”If there was ever a time the ground needed to open up, maybe at that moment would have been good.I looked down at my hands. “I’m sorry.”She didn’t answer right away. Or ask what happened either. She just kept
My lips trembled. “I just need to go.”I didn’t wait for anything else. I walked straight out, and the front door slammed behind me hard enough that I heard it rattle in its frame even from the driveway.For one second, silence settled.Then, from inside“Fuck.” Kade’s voice cut through the air sharply, aimed straight at his mother. “You’re going to regret this.”Then his voice trailed after me, the door slamming shut behind him.“Noah!”I kept moving, fumbling my keys in my hands, refusing to slow down for him.His footsteps came fast across the gravel. “Wait.”I yanked my car door open. “Kade, just—”“I need you to listen to me for one second.”I turned on him then, and everything I’d been holding since that bedroom door swung open finally found somewhere to go.“I found you with Rosalind.” My voice cracked wide open, ugly and raw, everything I’d been swallowing all morning. “I found you with your hands still half on her, straddling your lap like it was nothing new to either of you
‘Take one more thing that should belong to Luca.’Was that what this was about? Was I anything other than something Kade wanted to take from his brother? Some kind of fish on a hook, dangled in front of Luca’s face just to watch him thrash around badly for it?“Of course you’d rather I stayed away.”Kade’s voice stayed low, almost bored, yet his eyes never left Catherine’s.And she didn’t respond yet. A short humorless laugh escaped him. “Fuck, Catherine. You’ve really got some nerve.”“Kade—”“No. You’re gonna listen.” His eyes had gone hard, the same stillness I remembered, right before the moment he’d knocked a stranger’s head into a poker table without a flicker of hesitation. Except this was quieter. Aimed at someone who shared his blood instead of a man who’d crossed him. “You don’t get to tell Noah who to be with. You’re not anything to her. And you sure as hell don’t get to decide what she’d do to keep Luca happy.”Catherine’s spine straightened, something wounded flashing







