Breakdown

Aprils pov

We were near a town and we shifted back to human form.

Dylan Goddess bless his soul had packed our clothes and some money as well.  He had packed all that in his back pack and carried it with his teeth while in wolf form.

We changed and started walking into town.

It wasn't very busy and we make our way to a motel.

" we should share a room so that it would be cheaper. " Dylan says out of nowhere.

" yeah! " I agree.

We get a room and boy does it feel good to see an actual bed!

The bed is  well spread and the room to say the least is just plain boring and gloomy.

It has grey walls, grey curtains,black tiles and a grey duvet. The bed is in the middle of the room and the room is an okay size.

I mean what the hell is it with the depressing colours?

Maybe, it is to depict how the walls are as dull as my soul.

"Damn! This place looks so depressing!" Dylan says as he walks in behind me.

" I know right! " I fake a smile.

" Then we would just have to brighten it up with our colorful personalities!"he jokes

I actually genuinely smile at that one.

" I need to shower and get all this blood off me" I say out of no where.

" Sure." He replies.

The bathroom isn't hard to find considering how small the room is.

I open the door and enter. At least the bathroom looks 1000x better than the actual room.

It has brighter colours and the bathtub is looks  really big and classy and above it was a shower. I like the fact that you have a choice between the shower or the bath tub.

I spy a container on the wall cabinet with rose petals in it and I instantly make up my mind to go for the bathtub.

I open the tap and I put the rose petals in the rising water.

Right before the water is about to over flow, I close the tap.

I take off my clothes one by one and I wince slightly as it makes contact with a small bruise. After I'm done, I put one leg into the water. Then another.

Slowly, I fit my whole body into the bathtub. I moan loudly at how good it feels.

I stay that way for a long time and then I start scrubbing off the blood. I scrub myself till my skin feels raw.

Suddenly, the memories cone flooding back. Oh my Goddess, I killed the alpha and I....I.... hurt Jake! I'm the reason why so many people died.

The guilt has already taken root and the tears start flowing on their own accord.

I cry for what seems like hours.

Finally, I decide that it's too much.I get out of the bathtub and dry myself. I then change into other clothes and leave the bathroom.

I enter the room to find Dylan setting up breakfast. Damn? When did the sun rise? How long have I been in the bathroom?

"Oh, you are finally done! I thought I was going to-" he stops as soon as he turns around and sees me.

" Butterfly?what's wrong? " He asks while walking to me with his arms wide open.

I step into his embrace and I can't stop the sobs that escape me.

He walks me to the bed, the food long forgotten. He let's me go but I still hold on to him.

" I'm not going anywhere April, I just want to get in the bed." He says and I let him go.

Thats when it hits me! We are actually gonna share a bed together and if it wasn't for my sad mood, I would've probably freaked out.

Once he is inside the duvet, he pats the empty side of the bed.  I go instantly and I lie on one of his arms while the other hand grabs my waist and he pulls me to him.

He then removes the hand I've been using as a pillow and puts my head on his chest. His hand goes to my waist and then he  whispers " Cry April, let it all out!"

"I can't! Its a sign of weakness!"I say in between hiccups.

" April, I'd be more worried if you didn't cry. I mean you been through so much in such a short time and yet you have survived!  How is that weakness? You are one of the strongest people I know and I won't judge you if you cry. So,let it all out! " he says and his words evoke something in me because before I know it, I'm drowning in tears.

The pain of everything comes tumbling down on me and it crushes me into an abyss that I will never escape from.....

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