Colors of Memories

"I'll be back tomorrow, just call me when you need anything."

I nodded without looking at him. He was about to kiss my cheek but I averted my face immediately.

He sighed. 

I remained in my position until he reached the door. He faced me then uttered his "I love you..." then he stops, anticipating for my response.

And as usual I didn't say anything in return and just turn my gaze towards the window until he finally leave. 

Minutes later, I decided to get up from my bed. Then, carefully walk towards the door and locked it. When I finally secured that no one could enter the room, I walk quickly to the bed then get the phone that was hidden underneath my pillow.

Moving at a fast pace, I dialed the number of the person who will help me leave this place. It was my best friend Maia. It only takes a few rings before she answered the call.

"I'm ready where are you?" 

"I'm on my way. Are you sure he finally left?"

"Yeah, he told me that he will come back tomorrow," I respond as I change my clothes. Then proceed to pack my things.

"Don't you think it's better to ask him first before leaving?"

"No way! I won't do that." I stop fixing my bag because of anger. "You know I don't trust him. I ask many questions but he always finds ways to avoid them. He can't even tell me about my parents or if I have siblings. He didn't tell me what are the reasons why I got into an accident and I feel that he is hiding something from me." I lashed out.

"Auva I think you're being reckless? What if he has reasons that's why he doesn't answer your questions." 

My brows creased. "Reasons? Like what?!" A silence occurred. "See! You also don't know whatever reasons he may have! You know, I noticed how preoccupied his mind was. It's like he was worried about someone. He told me that he's my husband but why can't he answer me when I am asking him about that? He always find excuses! He just won't admit that he's lying."

"Yeah, You're right..." she respond, probably tired convincing me to trust my 'husband'.

I suddenly heard a small noise coming from the door so I stop for a while. Then proceed to ignore it thinking it was just the janitor of the hospital because the noise vanished shortly.

"I've been thinking...  What if he's an abusive boyfriend or just a creepy stranger that's why I got into an accident while running away from him? What if he just told me that I'm his wife so that I can't escape him anymore? What if my life is in danger?!" My hands trembled by just thinking of it.

"Sshh... Calm down Auva... I won't let that happen. Okay, I'm already here. I'll just park the car, just wait for me there."

"Yeah. Thank you," I let out a sigh before ending the call and turning off my phone.

My face looks so horrible as I take look at my reflection on my phone. I comb my hair through my fingers then smile at the mirror. I should be happy from now on. I know this is the best thing to do for the both of us.

I sighed.

There are still a feeling of anxiousness in my heart. I just don't know what is all about. I shrugged it off. It's probably because I've been here in the hospital for so long.

My eyes roamed the room as I reminisce about the first time I woke up here.

His eyes are the first thing that I saw as I woke up. He looks so happy yet looks very tired but I immediately notice how handsome he is. I remember how panicked he was while calling the doctors. And when the doctors confirmed that I was fine that's when I saw him looking relieved.

Even though he seems looks good and nice, I didn't trust him at that time. And as of now, I still doubt his intention. It seems like there are lots of things he's hiding from me. And I think it is enough that reason for me to leave him. 

Though, I'm still thankful that he took care of me and tries to understand me even though all I did in return is get mad and ignored him.

I don't know if all he said to me is the truth but one thing for sure. I'm not the only one who needs him.

Leaving him will make him have time to take care of whoever that person is. I cannot afford to be with him any longer because it feels like life becoming more complicated because of me.

I walk to the bed and then gently place the letter I made yesterday night. It has words that I can't tell him in person. I can't explain the feeling that I have. As soon as I wake up, as I saw him, the anger arise. I didn't know why am I feeling that but after all that happens after I wake up, it seems like I am starting to forgive him for whatever mistake that he did to me. If there are any.

I walk towards the big painting that was on the corner of this room. I remember because of this, I was able to be happy for the first time after I woke up from the accident.

Through this painting, I somehow realized that we can be together without me being mad at him. All I just felt is the soothing feeling while we paint together. It feels like, this was my body wants to do all along.

A smile formed in my face while reminiscing it.

I heard a knock on the door. It was Maia. 

"Let's go?"

I nodded as I get my things and then finally left the room.

We're quietly walking when suddenly something caught my attention. I saw two people, I think they are married.

They are looking into the window of a room, whispering at each other while smiling. I noticed the woman is wearing the hospital gown while her husband is holding her waist.

I stop from walking, I don't know why I got curious about the thing they are looking at.

When I finally get there, I was amazed by what I saw. It is a nursery room with lots of babies peacefully sleeping.

They look so cute!

I continue watching them but I didn't notice that Maia is on my side now. She quietly watch the babies so I did the same thing.

Minutes later from watching the babies, I suddenly felt something. My heart beating so fast that it hurts.

I can't figure it out. Then later, I realize that it is a feeling when you are longing for someone. It's like whoever that person is, I want to hug and kiss him or her. I don't know for whom it is though. Probably for my family?

Its been how long it is since I saw my family? I can't remember.

As I continue to watch at the babies I have realize something. Just like them, I still yearn for love. I need the love of my family and friends. Just like them, I still need to be cared of. I'm still clueless of this world.

But a question formed in my mind. How come I'm here if I have the love that I need? Does it mean that there is no happiness and love where I came from? Does my family really loves me? 

A handkerchief appeared on my sight that make me back to my senses. Confused at first, I accepted it when noticed the tears on my face. 

The first thing comes in my mind is to look at the person who offers it.

I thought it was my friend but she's still focused on watching the babies. So I turned my gaze on my left side then saw a man wearing a hoodie. 

His face was not showing because of his hoodie. Though I already assumed that he is a handsome by just looking at his physique. Despite of his clothes, his masculine body cannot be hide from it. And by looking at his broad shoulder, I already concluded that he has a nice body. The one that I know a person can achieved through exercising. He's also tall and has an aura from a wealthy family.

It's strange but he seems familiar.

"Thank you..." I said to him. 

He just nods and then proceeds to watch the babies in the room. So I did the same. But a soft cries makes me lose my focus to the babies. My immediate response was to look at my left side where the handkerchief man is standing.

My speculation is true. He is crying. It feels like he is stopping himself to cry louder. I felt my heart aches. But before I even gave him the handkerchief in my hand, he quickly walk away. Living me confused.

Until we finally leave the hospital, the man never leaves my mind. There's something about him that keeps bothering me. It's just that I don't know what that thing is. 

And the more I think of that thing makes me feel that I shouldn't have left that place.