LOGIN~MELANIE~
The airplane touched down hours ago, but the heaviness in my chest never did.
I tried to blame it on jet lag. Or the uncomfortable seat. Or the screaming toddler three rows ahead of us. Anything but the truth sitting like a stone in the middle of my ribcage.
Allison kept humming different songs beside me, scrolling through hotels and restaurants we “absolutely have to try,” but my eyes remained glued to the car window as the city lights of Madrid blurred past. Madrid was breathtaking.
It carried this soft winter chill that simply brushed your cheeks without sinking into your bones. Different lights hung all over the streets like glowing ribbons, warming the city with gold and red. The air smelled faintly of roasted chestnuts and hot chocolate, and every plaza we drove by was filled with life.
Street musicians, small everyday markets, and people wrapped in scarves laughing their way between cafés. It felt festive, bright, and almost magical, as if the whole city was celebrating together.
But I couldn't relate with any of that. It felt like my life ended yesterday and everything else just… kept moving.
“You’re awfully quiet,” Allison finally said, lowering her phone and eyeing me suspiciously. “Like… extra quiet. What’s going on with you?”
Where do I even start? I mean I just woke up to the reality that I was assaulted and didn't even remember any of it and my mother, my only family, kicked me out without second thoughts. I forced a shrug, praying the lie would leave my lips before the truth did.
“Another rejection email came in this morning,” I murmured, rubbing my temple. “That makes… five, I think. Maybe six.”
It wasn't entirely a lie. Finding a well- paying job in some big company was the second hardest thing after surviving college. Working five jobs a day to provide for your mother and her lazy-ass husband was just a bonus.
Her eyes softened instantly. “Oh, Mel…” She reached over and squeezed my knee gently. “Look, you’re smart and talented and stubborn as hell. Something will come through, I promise. But not today.” She clicked her tongue. “Today we are not thinking about emails or bills or sadness or whatever dark cloud you’re dragging behind you.”
She poked my forehead lightly. “Holiday, remember? Fun? Relaxing? Not crying on curbs at 2am?”
Heat crawled up my neck. She didn’t know just how close to the truth that was.
“Right,” I said quietly. “Fun.”
“Good.” She leaned back with a satisfied grin. “Now pull yourself together because we’re about to surprise my dad. I told him I wasn’t sure I’d make it this year, so he has absolutely no idea we’re coming.”
I blinked, startled. “He doesn’t know at all?”
“Nope!” she chirped. It's been a while since I saw her eyes light up with so much excitement. “He’s going to freak. And don’t be nervous, he’s super sweet.”
Nervous wasn’t even the word. Meeting a friend’s father usually didn’t require oxygen masks, but everything in my body felt wrong. Tight, jumpy, strange. Maybe because I hadn’t slept. How could I when my mother’s words still echoed inside my skull. Or maybe because the idea of seeing a father greet his daughter with love was already making my throat sting.
I pressed my hand over my chest as the taxi rolled to a stop in front of a massive cream-colored villa, warm lights glowing behind the tall windows. It looked like the kind of place where peace lived. Where families laughed together instead of broke each other.
I exhaled shakily, forcing myself to relax.
Lucky Allison.
The front door was decorated with a wreath, ribbons, and twinkling lights, and I suddenly felt very small standing beside it. Very out of place. Very… homeless.
Allison bounced on her toes and pressed the doorbell, barely containing herself. “He’s gonna be so shocked,” she whispered.
But I wasn’t prepared for my own shock.
The door swung open, and every thought in my brain simply evaporated.
The man standing before us was not the heavy-set bald fifty-something I’d imagined. No.
He was tall. Broad-shouldered. Curly long hair packed in a loose bun. Handsome in a way that stole the air straight from my lungs. His dark hair was sprinkled with the faintest touch of gray at the temples. It looked distinguished, not old. His jaw was locked like it was chiselled into shape and those turquoise eyes… God, they looked warm and sharply intelligent, the kind of eyes that pierced right through your soul.
And when those eyes landed on his daughter, his entire face softened, lighting up with a joy that hit me square in the chest.
Fuck, Melanie! Concentrate! This is NOT what you need right now or why you're even here!
“Mi niña,” he breathed with a gravelly Spanish accent, pulling her into a huge embrace. “God, I missed you sooo much. You didn't tell me you were coming.”
Her laughter echoed through the hallway and something inside me clenched painfully.
If my father were alive… If I still had someone who hugged me like that…
Maybe I wouldn’t feel so breakable.
Maybe I wouldn’t be standing here with a suitcase full of everything I owned.
He finally released her, wiping a bit of moisture from his eyes. Then his gaze shifted to me.
“And who is this?” he asked, His gravelly voice was still silky somehow, rough around the edges, but smooth enough to make my stomach flip.
“This,” Allison beamed, grabbing my arm, “is Melanie. My best friend. My other half. The one I won’t shut up about.”
I swallowed hard as he stepped closer. The rich patchouli scent immediately engulfed me and for a second, it felt like I was melting.
Up close, he was even more arresting. And the warmth in his smile… God. I wasn’t used to adults smiling at me like that. Gentle, welcoming, without suspicion or contempt.
He extended his hand. And when I placed mine in his, his touch was firm but… soft.
Reassuring.
“Welcome to the family, Melanie. I'm Rafael, but you can just call me Ralph,” he said sincerely with a beautiful smile.
My breath caught.
Words, Melanie. Speak. Say something.
But my tongue felt glued to the roof of my mouth and my brain short-circuited like someone had yanked the power cable.
I just stared at him, completely unable to form a single coherent response.
His smile deepened like he found my speechlessness… adorable.
And I stood there, frozen, breathless, heart pounding wildly on a stranger’s porch, wondering why the hell my stomach suddenly felt warm for the first time in months.
I must be losing my goddamn mind.
MELANIEThe feel of his lips on mine.I let out a silent moan, as I grabbed onto the back of his head.His cologne filled my nostrils as I pressed my lips harder on his.“Mhmm…” he moaned into my mouth.His hand cupped my chin as he tilted my face forward.Fuck.He tasted like caffeine, and the sweet feel of desire.The heat in the room rose as his hands moved through my tingling skin. His tongue took over my mouth.I could feel his fingers gently sliding my top upwards.His palms cupped my left boob.My legs slightly spread.I wanted him. I wanted him now.
RAFAELIn the brightly lit room, I watched the portrait of my daughter hanging on the wall. Her bright smile creased the lines with her eyes. My beautiful daughter in her favorite pink dress at eight years old.I dropped the laptop from my thighs, and placed it on the bed. Some day, she would leave.The thought hung on my chest lightly. How did parents manage to survive the absence of their children?Right at that moment, I heard a knock on the door. My eyes immediately diverted towards the door.“Melanie?” I immediately called out?Silence followed…Who else could it be?Immediately, I jumped off the bed, heading towards the door.Half way, my feet pause
MELANIEClamping my fingers shut, I hitched my breath, in an attempt to ease the tension in my chest. Fuck. Why did I still have clear memories of his body? The way his skin glowed in that room, and his brooding gaze as he focused on the paper.Allison picked up a pair of boots, and I watched as she placed them on. The party was to begin at eleven pm, and it was five minutes to the time.“I’ll be back home by 4:30 or 5 ish in the morning. Could you leave the room door unlocked?” She asked,“Sure,” I answered, walking into the restroom.The door opened behind me, and her neck poked into the room, “I still don’t get why you don’t want to go to the club this evening.”I pulled down my shorts and sat on the toilet. “I don
MELANIE“His gifts are not bad,” Allison said as she ran her hands through the jewelry.“The bracelet is similar to something you own.” I added,“Yes. I have a green van clef, and you own a black one. This is good.” She said, handing the box over, “but it doesn’t mean he is absolutely scott free. He could do better.”My eyes flew to the flowers. It was the most I had ever received from any man, or anyone at all.“Flowers and jewelry are not enough for him to gain your attention right back.”“So, I shouldn’t accept the dinner invitation?”“Oh, you will. Not just today.”“Why?” I asked, trailing be
MELANIESeeing Rafael in a rumpled shirt wasn’t on my bingo card. I got off the chair, and slowly walked behind him.I could feel the tuning in my ear as Allison trailed us. What if he had decided against helping me? Did he think I was incompetent? Or did my mother reach out? She had a knack for ruining things she hadn’t orchestrated…I touched the tip of my fingers, as I forced my arms to the side.I felt his eyes take a sweep over my frame. His gaze fell when he met my face. “Melanie,”“Yes, sir?” My voice croaked. I could feel my heart thrumming on my chest. For some reason, I believed I could feel the blood rushing through my ears.He took an unreasonably long pause. Was he considering his words? Was he rethinking his
RAFAELMy shoes were tossed on the other end of the room. As I walked towards them, I couldn’t help but notice her slim frame on the bed. The sheets covered up to her lower waist, but her well toned back was bare for me to see. Her golden curls on my covered a certain part of her upper back.I quickly buttoned my shirt.Maybe I could leave before she got up from her sleep. I had been successful a few times.As I picked up my tie, stashing it in my pocket, I heard her groan.Fuck.I picked up my coat, and headed towards the shoes.“Rafael,” she groaned out my name. “Where are you headed?” Her question caused me to pause.I watched my chance at peacefully leaving fly out the window. “My home.” I answered,“It’s just six am. I’m sure you can wait a few hours,” she urged.“No, I truly can’t. I have some work to attend to.”Why didn’t I get up earlier?“You have a laptop here, remember? You can simple login and just work from here.”Why did I even let myself end up in bed with her again?
RAFAELHer eyes focused on the plate, and her hands absentmindedly twirled the spoon in her cup.Her lower lip slightly moved into her mouth, and I saw her other palm balled into a fist.“You’ve not taken your coffee,” I mentioned, trying to kill the silence.She looked up, and her blink showed her
MELANIEThe air in his car was filled with the scent of his lattafa perfume. As my shoulders pressed on the shotgun seat, I watched his fingers touch the steering. “How are you finding Madrid?” He asked, pulling out of the driveway.My eyes roamed through the cars in the compound. Some were dusty,
RAFAELSleep had not been as controlled as I preferred.That realization settled in the moment I opened my eyes, the remnants of something vivid still lingering at the edges of my mind. For a few seconds, I remained still, staring at the ceiling as fragments of the dream tried to piece themselves t
MELANIEMy hand trembled slightly as I lowered the phone from my ear, the call ending far too quickly and yet somehow not fast enough to calm the storm rushing through me. My chest rose and fell unevenly, my breath still unsteady from the panic that had taken hold the moment everything spiraled out







