Davina taps her foot in anticipation as we wait for Matteo to bring her family. Amara has a smile plastered to her face. She is relieved that dad isn’t here. He’s become a total asshole with Davina and poor Amara is stuck playing referee to us. Gena and Matteo are swamped with pack shit to be putting Felix in his place.
At first, dad was all about me rejecting Davina because she was a rogue. While he knows she is Alpha Jacks' daughter which only seemed to shut him up temporarily, now he thinks he should reject Davina because he thinks her trauma makes her an unsuitable mate.
I don’t get him. Since I came of age to find my mate, dad has been on my ass to find my mate. Now I find her, and he’s trying to find reasons for me to reject her. It makes no sense and only fuels the fire in my veins towards him.
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It’s been several weeks since I found Davina. She’s healing well and should be fully healed in a few days. I know her and Jasper are eager to mark and claim one another. I’m glad they are doing well. They are a strong couple, and while they might have obstacles in their way. I don’t think that will stop them. I’ve spent as much time as I can getting to know Davina. She is eager to become a part of our pack and help me as my beta. Most packs don’t give their Luna a beta because most packs aren’t as big as ours. Since our pack is the largest and we just introduced a second Beta, I get my own Beta. Honestly, that’s a relief to me because being Luna comes with more responsibilities than I know what to do with. Being Luna has vastly grown on me. I honestly didn’t think I’d like it. Perhaps I was just scared of failing. I was also intimidated by living
It’s almost time for to head to tea with Sally. My nerves are bouncing around as I head to the tea shop in town. I have a guard following me around as per Matteo’s orders. Matteo has become extra protective since he found out I’m pregnant. We are going to tell everyone at dinner tonight. I have everything all planned and I’m excited for it.There is a part of me that is disappointed that my mom and sisters won’t be celebrating the good news with us. I know I can’t help how they behave, but that doesn’t mean it doesnt’ hurt any less. Their words and actions have wounded my heart. I’m working on forgiving them, but it’s hard.Pushing the thoughts away. I focus on tea with Sally. I’ve heard that Sally is a sweet woman and Jasper has done nothing other than praise his mother. Jasper has a lot o
The stress of war weighs down on me. I hate feeling like a sitting duck waiting for fucking Crieg to strike. Alpha Jack, along with several other Alpha’s and my pack as well have set several scouts to see where the asshole could be hiding. Crieg is smart and always on the move. He never stays in one spot for long, so tracking him is hard. So, we are just waiting for him to make a move.I hate waiting. I don’t have patience. I even lose it with Lana sometimes, and many others. I’m not known to be patient and my anger issues have gotten the better of me more than I count. Losing it on Amara and wrongly imprisoning her was a mix of anger and guilt. That’s only one example of my anger getting the better of me and when it’s mixed with other emotions, I can be toxic as Jasper has said many times.I always hoped Cheryl would h
Dinner is lively with the talk of the Alpha and Luna’s pup. I’m happy for them. They are good people. However, it makes me think about Jasper and me. Does Jasper want pups? Before I was taken I always wanted pups. My dream was to find my mate and have a family. Then everything went to hell.Now, I don’t know what I want. I know capable of having pups. Crieg got me pregnant once, but I lost the pup due to him beating me one night. I was devastated. I’ve talked this all over with the pack doc and he’s done tests and assures me I can still have a healthy pup. I lost my first one due to trauma from the beating. The pack doc saw no reason why I couldn’t get pregnant and have a healthy pup.After Crieg knocked me up and then killed the pup on accident, he started using protection like condoms and even had me on birth co
Thankfully, my morning sickness has resolved thanks to the meds that the doc prescribed me. Today is my first day out of bed and I‘m ready to move around and do some Luna work. Matteo’s parents have been helping with Lana and pack stuff. Thank the goddess they are here to help. Lana is currently at school while Matteo is off doing Alpha stuff. That wolf is on the hunt for the Crieg. Everyday that Matteo doesn’t find his enemy the more on edge he becomes. I know he’s doing his best to keep calm for my sake and the pups sake, but he’s struggling. Matteo being on edge puts us all on edge, but he is good at hiding it. So, only those of us who know him well, know he’s hiding it. I guess it’s part of the role of Alpha is to hide your feelings so the pack doesn’t freak out. If they saw him freaked out, on edge, or really any negative emotion they would react and mimic his negative emotions.
Davina has given us amazing details on Crieg. I am determined to find that bastard and kill him. I want to erase everything that has to do with him and Cheryl. I can’t even begin to deal with the anger I feel towards Cheryl. Her betrayal is worse than ever imagined. She’s lucky she’s dead because I’d kill her myself for betraying me, Lana, and my pack. There is no doubt in anyone’s mind that she wasn't sneaking off to visit Crieg. It all makes sense and it all adds up. I can’t believe I actually mourned her death and blamed poor Amara for it. Goddess Amara, I don’t deserve her, but I will sure as hell try to be worthy of her. I may be a good Alpha, but I’m not always the best father or mate. I know that and now that I recognize it, I’m working hard as hell to be the best father and mate I can be. I’ve always wanted a family and now that I have it
I’m sick of everyone thinking I’m the bad guy. I’ve been the bad guy ever since people found out I was cheating on my mate. I know cheating on mates is a bad thing, but I have a high libido. Sally could never keep up and honestly, I don’t find her that attractive. I know she is seen as a saint with her wonderful and forgiving personality. I’m seen as the bad guy, the cheater, the unfaithful one. Sally is always praised for dealing with my cheating ways. Jasper has always been on his mother's side. Now, he is on his mate’s side. A mate who is not worthy to be his mate. I don’t care that Davina comes from an Alpha bloodline. She is tainted, damaged, and ruined. Jasper is better off with a chosen mate, or not a mate at all. He could have a surrogate to have a pup like the humans used to do. She-wolves would be lined up to have the pup of the Beta of one of the most respected packs. He doesn’t need Davi
After lunch’s little disaster which was cleaned up thanks to Matteo. Poor Matteo, the man is under so much stress. The last thing he needs is my father acting like a fool because he can’t seem to get over himself. I’m still shocked and upset with Felix’s behavior towards Davina. Davina is devastated and upset. She feels like she is causing a rift in our family. Sally and I have spent the last few hours talking with her and trying to comfort her. Jasper is off helping Matteo and Klaus with pack business. Matteo hasn’t been pushing Jasper to do his Beta responsibilities as hard knowing that he and Davina need time together. Plus, with Klaus as a second Beta, Jasper can finally have the time he needs. Jasper hasn’t had a break in years. He works hard for our pack and he deserves some time off to help his mate.