LOGINHarper’s POV
I spent most of the car ride to the wedding venue staring out the window. Apparently, the decor in my house was just my mom celebrating leaving ‘the hell hole’ as she likes to call it. The wedding celebration wasn't going to take place there. I wonder why she felt the need to invite people there if she feels so embarrassed to have lived in a place such as this. I don't always try to make sense of what my mom does and this is one of those moments. She is chattering excitedly beside me inside the car about the wedding reception, the designer dress waiting for me in some huge room and how important it is to make a good impression. She has also listed many other people from Westwood they invited to the wedding. “Don’t forget that your dazzling smile tonight, mon cherie.” She continued, typing fast in her new phone. My eyes dropped on the wedding ring again and I felt all sort of emotions. “Its hard to celebrate someone else’s surprise wedding on my birthday.” I tried hard not to sound snappy. “Now you are being dramatic.” She was still staring down at her phone doing some last touches of the wedding for sure. “I’m losing my home.” I whispered but she didn't hear me or chose not to give me an answer. When we arrived at the venue to find it packed with Westwood’s elite. It's as though they knew about the wedding or cancelled all their plans to attend on a Friday dressed like they are attending the event of the year. There re private security everywhere along with champagne towers. The ballroom screamed old money. I felt like an outsider amongst the ton of rich people wearing clothes that will buy my car three times. Some of them smiled politely like they are welcoming us to the society while others were whispering loudly to show just how snobbish they are. I looked at their lips individually as they talked. “That’s the Carter girl. I haven't seen her in years and she is this… big?” “Poor Theodore.” “I give it two years.” “Natasha certainly recovered after the debt scandal.” “Of course, she has hit a jackpot.” I did not bother pretending that I did not hear them because I did. I allow my face to show them the subtitles instead of entertaining their petty gossips. I have spent years being the subject of gossip and bullying, I can survive another night. Mom and I went to get dressed in the private room and true to her words, she has got designer clothes for me. I have always loved fashion and this butter yellow dress is absolutely stunning. It made me forget that I was mad for a second. It fits me like a glove and I am glad my mom still never forgot my size. And since I didnt get to eat most of the day –not even the cupcakes Blair kept for me– my stomach looks flat in the dress showing my round curves more. I gave a twirl in the mirror then got my makeup and hair done. Just because i’m not in a good mood doesn't mean I'll allow myself to look awful. No matter what I’m going through, I always try to look my best so I wont give people something more to talk about other than my size. I am somehow used to that one. Well, until Declan decides to throw his own next level grade of shit. That fucking bully. I stood near a tall window, my fingers wrapped around a glass of sparkling water I have no intention of drinking. I wish I still take alcohol but my weight journey has stopped me completely. Maybe I can use today as cheat day? I hate every second of this ceremony. “Harper.” I didn’t have to turn to know who it was. “Come with me. Theodore wants to meet you properly,” “As if he hasn’t already seen me.” “Harper!” It was the warning voice. I swallowed the sarcastic reply sitting on the tip of my tongue and followed her through the fake crowd. They were kissing and hugging and congratulating my mom while insulting her the minute she turned away. At the center of the crowd stood Theodore Kings. He was taller than I expected, more handsome with his silver-streaked dark hair neatly combed back. He was intimidating because it looks like everyone around waits for his approval before they talk. The richest man in Westwood and the man my mother somehow married. He excused himself from the small group surrounding him when he saw us approaching. “Harper.” His smile was genuine which was amongst the few I have seen today. “It’s good to finally meet you.” “You too.” I gave a small nod. He somehow seemed to notice how uncomfortable i am with the whole setting. “I was hoping we’d have a chance to speak somewhere a little quieter.” Before my mother could answer for me, Theodore gestured toward a balcony overlooking the gardens. “Would that be alright?” I shrugged. “I guess.” The evening air was cooler outside. For the first time all night, I could breathe. Theodore rested his hands lightly against the balcony railing, giving me enough space that I didn’t feel cornered. “I owe you an apology.” “For what?” “For today.” He looked toward the gardens before meeting my eyes again. “I know this isn’t how you imagined spending your birthday.” I blinked because I didn’t expect THAT from him. I’m waiting for all the ruthless billionaire vibes but it’s not coming. “I also know this marriage probably feels sudden.” “It is sudden.” “It is.” “I won’t pretend I know what you’ve been through. Losing your father and watching your family struggle at a young age. Then finding out your mother remarried without giving you much time to process it.” Okay, the last thing I want right now is pity. “I don’t need another father.” “I know.” ——— “I’m sure you didn’t skip the dessert I asked you to.” A familiar hard voice said from behind me. I knew who it was before I turned. He stood a few feet away with one hand tucked into the pocket of his tailored black trousers, the other wrapped around a glass of whiskey. A black suit hugged his broad shoulders as though it had been made for him. His chestnut hair was slightly tousle like he couldn’t be bothered to tame it. My eyes searched his face, waiting for the usual boyish smug grin he always has reserved for when he knows his bully hits home. It never came. Instead his jaw was locked so tightly I could see the muscle twitch beneath his skin. His green eyes settled on me then drifted to where Theodore stood beside my mother before returning to me. I have always hated that look. It crawled beneath my skin and stayed there making me painfully aware of every inch of my body. But Declan looks very very furious right now. He doesn’t look as surprised as I was about the wedding. I have no idea why he is angry though.Declan’s POV POVThe gym was empty when I got there which was exactly what I wanted.I had been holding it together all week and I was tired of holding it together. Tired of watching Harper avoid me. Tired of the way she looked at me and then looked away. Tired of the way she said she was fine when she clearly wasn't.And then there was Zuri who had been looking at Harper all through lunch. Zuri, who had leaned in close to whisper something in her ear and made her laugh. Zuri, who had touched her arm and let her hand linger a second too long.I had seen all of it.And I had no right to be angry because Harper wasn't mine. Not officially. Not in any way that anyone could point to and say that's why you're upset. But she was mine. She had been mine since the first time I kissed her and she had kissed me back. She had been mine since before that, if I was honest, since the first time I saw her and felt something I couldn't name.But she was avoiding me. She was avoiding me and Zuri was
Harper’s POVThe bell above the door chimed around two in the afternoon and I looked up from the espresso machine to see Roland Reid walking toward the counter.He was wearing a grey sweater and jeans and he looked like he belonged in a catalog, the kind of effortless put-together that rich boys seem to be born with. He smiled when he saw me, that same awkward smile he always wore and I felt something in my stomach tighten."Harper," he greeted, sliding onto one of the stools. "I was hoping you'd be working today.""What can I get you?""Just a black coffee. Please."I turned away to make his drink and tried to ignore the way his eyes followed me across the counter. He had been showing up more frequently lately, polite, tipping generously amd finding excuses to linger. The first few times I had told myself it was coincidental. The cafe was popular. Lots of people came here.But he always sat at the counter. He always waited until the line had cleared. He always looked at me like ther
Harper’s POVThe delivery arrived on a Wednesday afternoon. I was in my room when I heard the doorbell and I didn't think anything of it until Elena knocked on my door a few minutes later."Package for you, Miss Harper."I took it from her, thanked her and closed the door. It was a small box, unmarked except for my name on a plain white label. There was no return address. No sender information. No clue where it had come from.I sat down on my bed and opened it. Inside was a dried rose.A Peace rose. Yellow with pink edges. The same kind my father used to grow in our backyard. I stared at it for a long moment.There was no note or card or explanation. Just the rose, dried and pressed and perfectly preserved, lying in a bed of tissue paper. I told myself it was nothing.I told myself someone had heard me talking about Peace roses, maybe one of the gardeners I was working with thought I might like to have one. I told myself it was a kind gesture, not a strange one.But why would they s
Harper’s POVZuri appeared in the doorway a few minutes later, her hair pulled back and her hands shoved deep into the pockets of her jacket. She looked nervous in a way I had never seen begore . There is not that easy confidence she usually carried and it made something in my chest tighten."Hey," she murmured, hovering on the threshold like she wasn't sure she was allowed inside."Hey. Come in."She stepped past me and sat on the edge of my bed and I closed the door and leaned against my desk. The room felt smaller than it usually did, the walls closing in around us and I didn't know what to do with my hands."So," Zuri started then stopped."So," I echoed."This is weird." She laughed but it came out shaky. "I'm making it weird.""You're not making it weird." I forced a smile seeing how good she looks with her dark hair. "Yes I am. I can feel myself making it weird."I laughed despite myself and some of the tension in the room loosened. She smiled at me, that wide, bright smi
Harper’s POVTwo days had passed since the kiss and I still hadn't figured out how to breathe around it. I woke up on Monday morning with the guilt sitting on my chest like something physical, heavy and suffocating and for a long moment I just lay there staring at the ceiling and replaying it in my head. The way Zuri's lips had felt against mine, soft and insistent. The way I leaned into it, a traitorous surrender of my own body. The way I hadn't pulled back nearly as fast as I should have.I hadn't spoken to Zuri since.The not speaking to Declan part wasn't intentional, not really. We'd both been busy and the house had been full and there hadn't been a moment alone, but there was something else underneath it too. Something that felt like I was avoiding him. I couldn't look at him without thinking about what I'd done, without seeing Zuri's face superimposed over his.I dragged myself out of bed and into the shower and stood under the hot water until it ran cold, hoping it could wa
His POVThe photograph is old now, creased at the corners from being handled too many times. She is sixteen in it, standing beside her father's car with the sun behind her and a smile on her face that I have not seen since. I took it from across the street. I had been watching her for weeks by then, learning her schedule, learning the places she went and the people she talked to and the way she laughed when she thought nobody was looking. I had a camera in my bag and I had been too afraid to use it until that moment.She was just so beautiful. I could not help myself.I keep the photograph in a box under my bed, along with the others. The letters I never sent. The dried flowers I picked from her garden. The notes I wrote and rewrote and never had the courage to deliver. They are all there, a record of every moment I have ever spent thinking about her, every moment I have ever spent loving her from a distance.She does not know about the box though. She only knows about the message.







