LILIANA
As I sit bound to this chair, the last person I expect to see walks in - a petite girl with a ragged doll clutched in her fingers. On her frail form is a flower-patterned dress made out of cotton which almost succeed in making her look harmless. She has a head filled with dreadlocks which blend with her caramel skin. Yet, she looks… deranged? No, unstable is the word. One of the men quickly bring a chair which they place in front of me. She mutters something to their hearing and they nod. Lowering herself to the seat, she says, “I need to go back to bed.” Her voice is barely audible. Her head, bowed. “You only have a few minutes to answer my question.” Laughter bubbles out of my throat before I think twice about it. I toss an incredulous look at the burly men situated in the corners of the room. “You all are so pathetic for dragging a little girl into your sick mess. Your boss ran away with his tail for a dick between his legs and presented me with this?” I scoff. “What next? Annabelle?” My tone is dripping with derision. The man is twisted beyond redemption. Her head snaps up, and I feel a shiver travel down my spine. “Liljana Hoxha.” She calls ever so softly, her Albanian accent sending a chill through me. “My apologies, the man is too crude in his ways.” When she raises her eyes to meet mine, they're like void; bottomless and dark. I straighten in my seat, watching her with curiosity and dread. My insides are knotted tight but with what? I can't place my fingers on it. However, judging from the energy shift in the atmosphere, this little girl hasn't the innocence that embodies one. “You know Nicolo, don't you?” She asks, paying her doll special attention like it is alive. “If you deny knowing him, then you're tagged an accomplice to his child trafficking.” My eyebrow raise in amusement. “Child trafficking? That's a stupid accusation, little girl. Try something else if you need to get me to squeak.” She giggles. I feel terror climb up my spine at the sound. “Should I show it to her?” She says to her dumb doll like they're in a bubble of their own. She lowers the doll and turns her palm open towards me. There's a small picture of the man, Nicolo, he is butt naked with his smiling face turned towards the camera. What I see next has my blood filling with ice. Underneath him is a little girl whose face is shaped in what might be a look of pain and fear combined. The fact that he is filmed during this act and finds it humorous is what sickens me. I'd always known there was something off about him. I just didn't think it was down to this level of depravity. I manage to school my expression, then answer, “The only things we have ever exchanged are pleasantries. I don't know what business he's involved in. The last I saw him was at my wedding.” She giggles again and I have to look at the men with furrowed eyebrows to question her sanity. “He’s dead.” She announces with a creepy smile that sends another sliver of dread into me. The sudden news startle me. If anything, she seems happier at her own revelation. “Where's your husband?” “Get her out!” I spit instead of the words that come to mind at that moment. I'm unsure whether telling a child to fuck off is appropriate. “You're so innocent.” She comments after she rakes her eyes throughout my body in scrutiny. “You seem innocent. And hurt too.” After a while adds, “Did those men get to you too?” I suddenly lose my cool when I feel her probing somewhere in my mind. “I need her out of here right this instant!” I yell to the men who choose to play dumb. Someone bellows. “Hey! We decide who leaves and who stays. So shut your running mouth and answer the giddamn question.” I scowl at him, my anger rising at not being able to flip him the bird. “You're an asshole.” “That's a compliment used by so many. I need new one. Maybe you'll give me when I get you moaning under me.” He retorts with a sick smile. I lean forward and retch so hard that my body heaves despite the binds. My throat feels sore by the time I'm done and my mouth is bitter from bile as well. “Burn in hell.” I spit with venom, eyeing him with rage coursing through me. “Ladies first.” He winks. I struggle against my bonds all to no avail. My breath comes out in short rasps after my futile attempts. Then I resort to the best I can in the condition I'm in; I glare hard. The little girl squats in front of me. She smells of wild roses and dried urine. “We need to know your husband's whereabout. That way we can do justice for whatever wrong he has done to you.” I keep mute at her assumptions. As long as I'm held hostage without my permission, they would not get me to speak against Kyle. If they had the guts, why not when he was still alive? Bloody cowards all of them. Just like their boss. She reaches out to tuck my hair between my ears and glides her fingers down my face, stopping at my chin. She is being provocative on purpose. I wince when she presses into the bruise on the side of my face. When I yank my head out of her grip, she startles me by tightening her fingers on my chin in a vice grip. She hisses, “You will reply as long as I ask a question. The knowledge of the whereabouts of your husband is in your head and I need it so I can go back to sleep.” Her voice hardens, rising to a crescendo as she speaks. I feel a small crack in the spot where she holds. Any second now and my jaws could go slack. “Yes.” I wince as I ground out. The moment she lets go, shame fills me at my easy submission. “Good.” Gone is the adult and back in it's place is the harmless little girl. She peers into my eyes with deep sated sorrow that pulls her features down. “He hurt you and will continue to. You don't realize it yet. I can help you.” Her voice is a small whisper as she rambles on. I have lost track of her jargons, trapped in the maze of her words. “Why is he holding me hostage?” I speak in a hushed whisper matching hers. She smiles genuinely this time. “He'll save you. He's coming to save you.” I want to hit my head against a surface so I can wake up from this this nightmare. How badly I want to kick her too. Then again, she's just a child who's fucked up in the head. She straightens. I scrunch my nose at the pungent stench of urine. “I don't need anyone's saving. I need to go home, take a proper shower and freshen up. I suggest you take one too.” Her features brightens suddenly and it suggests to me that her next words would spell a disaster. “Why go all the way home when you can have a shower in one of the many bathrooms in this house?” I knew it. The little fucker. Before I utter a word of protest, she turns to the men with a bounce. “Take her to Alice with instructions to have her thoroughly washed. Oh, her breath stinks too.” I've never felt more insulted by anyone. Let alone such a small kid. Heaven help me!Darkness Ignites Desires, after eight months, has come to an end. To be honest, I never thought there’d be an after. My mind spinning, thoughts running amok—I just wanted to run away and never show my face around here. Got to a point where I didn’t even know what I was writing anymore but I kept pushing. To my favorite readers in the whole world who kept me scrambling in my head for words even when I wanted to stop permanently: Coco, mynameisme, JoMiAh, Maxim…you’re the best. You’re the absolute best. Thank you for not giving up on me or the book. To my other amazing readers whose name I don’t know…I love love love you. Words cannot qualify nor quantify. I had hopes for this book and I’m surprised to have finished it at 9.4k reads. The highest I’ve had but I know there’s more. To clear up some things…Sicily escaped. Zip and Zoran tried but he fled into the night. What does that say? Maybe we’ll be seeing him anytime soon… or maybe not. No idea. In the meantime, yes I might do
EPILOGUELILIANAI’ve been staring at the tombstone for the past hour, reluctant to move a muscle and just letting my tears stain the front of my blouse. Two precious lives lost in barely a year . How do I move on?I might have known them in a short time but the bond I’ve formed with them carries in my heart like a stubborn reminder of what we could’ve been.Somebody comes up from behind me. The fact that I know who it is makes the loss in my chest triple a thousand fold. The person stands beside me without a word, gazing at the letters engraved into marble at the head of the tomb. “I didn’t know it would hurt like this…” I say, after minutes of silence. Zoran sighs. “I’d be a hypocrite if I tell you it’s fine and say I’m not grieving twice as much. We were meant to stay together as a family.” Another sigh. “Our family is sad and gloomy. You still have a choice to walk away.”Automatically, my thumb grazes the peak of the rock on my ring finger. A shuddering breath leaves my lips and
LILIANAHe didn’t do it. I know he didn’t and that’s all I’m grateful for. When I rise from the floor, his arm immediately goes around my waist for support but he has his eyes pinned on Sergei just in case he decides to make one funny move. Zoran slams the butt of the gun into the masked man kneeling in front of him who grunts and curls up in pain. The terse silence is broken and someone else has Damian’s attention. The mask is yanked off the stranger’s face. “You…” Damian’s voice is deathly cold as he takes in the man, staring at him with brutal hate. Zoran steps away from him to hold me up and give Damian a chance to speak to Simon. I swear his face is familiar. Since this is a night of unravelling, could this perhaps be Irina’s father?Simon trembles at the sight of Damian, he starts to ramble nervously. “This isn’t usually my setup. Sergei called me from my abode and swore he knew how to defeat you and I knew it wouldn’t be possible but I wanted to give it a shot just be– Arrgh
ZIPPORAHI watch him pace the room like he’s haunted, like there’s a weight pressed upon his shoulders that he has to get rid of. Every time he stops, it is to take a sip of whiskey out of his glass. Regardless, I know he is watching me, making sure I don’t move an inch from where I’m seated. It’s what Sicily has been doing since Zoran called me to announce that Liliana had been abducted. It’s been almost an hour since then.Sicily thinks I don’t know, but I do. I know he’s stalling by keeping me inside like a fucking prisoner, while trying to gaslight me into saying his intentions are for my safety. Safety my dimpled butt. I know it is Sergei feeding him commands. The moment I mention Liliana’s abduction to him, his face darkens. There was no shock, nor panic. Just cold indifference that revealed his own part to play in it. “Sicily,” I say again, firmer this time. “Let me go. I need to see what I can do to help my brother. He’s in danger. I have to go.”He steps closer. “You’re n
DAMIANMy heart lurches in my chest as I take in Liliana’s bruised and bloodied face. She’s alive. She’s still alive.Thank God!“Damian,” she whimpers, relief flooding her eyes as she turns to see me. “You’re here,” she adds, even more breathlessly.I cross the threshold of the room and take the knife out of her hands, then go to work, untying her legs. She’s shaking the whole time which pushes me to even work faster. Liliana gasps all of a sudden, prompting me to look up. She’s looking above me, face aghast. “Step away from her, right now.” A cold voice speaks from behind me. It’s not anything familiar like I’m used to. When I turn, a masked man is standing at the entrance with a gun in hand. His form is anything but graceful. That’s how I know he’s no match for me. I pinch the tip of the bread knife in a discreet manner, preparing to flick it towards him when Liliana is yanked away from me suddenly. My head snaps in her direction to realize I’m the only one in the light now and
LILIANAThe pain that courses throughout my belly is unfathomable. I never would have thought even in a million years that Kyle would raise a hand on me. That crushes me so deeply but I know if I keep wallowing in my pain, he would hold it as an advantage over me.Deep breaths, Lily, and steel. I recite to myself over and over like a cursed mantra. Footsteps soon echo from outside the room but it’s so dark I can only make out the area around me where light illuminates over my head. And…is that a bread knife? I squint, leaning forward as far as my restraints will let me, just to be sure I’m not seeing things. But I’m not.It’s a knife. A fucking bread knife. Serrated and shiny under the dangling bulb. Right there–on a stainless cart a few inches away, like someone left it behind in a rush. “How can two adults be such careless idiots?” I mutter, breathless. I glance toward the door even though I can’t tell if it’s still closed or not. If I want to get out of here in one piece, then I