DON’T LET YOUR PAST RUIN YOUR FUTURE

ANIKA’S POV

I absolutely refused to come out.

I had been locked in here since morning and it was already almost noon and I physically could not will myself to move out of bed, to go out there and see him without dying of embarrassment.

Why on earth did I have to do that?

Since I woke up, that had been the one thing that had been plaguing my mind. For god’s sake I literally three myself at him.

I just rushed right for him and kissed him.

Damn.

I could still remember the taste of his lips.

He tasted like the flavor of some expensive French wine that I could not even remember the name of, but also, there was this taste that was just purely Liam. At first he froze, but then he responded to my kiss, holding me like he wanted to possess me.

Those soft lisp of his were going to be the death of me.

Well now, I was stuck in a dilemma between being totally embarrassed and being happy that the kiss was worth it.

Even now, I doubt that I regretted it.

If I had the chance, I would kiss him again.

I grabbed my pillow and muffled my scream.

What if I just ran away, began a new life in a new found island where no one even knew my name.

Ok, I was being melodramatic I knew that but then again, you would not understand.

I wonder what he thought of me now.

I pushed my head into my pillow and screamed again.

My heart stopped beating for a second when I heard two quiet knocks on the door.

“Anika”

“I’m having a headache!” I yelled back.

Total bullshit by the way

“Come on Angel, you have to come out eventually” he said.

“No”

I replied and he heaved a sigh.

I waited, for him to leave, but his feet remained planted on the ground.  I could have begged him to go away, to just save me from this embarrassment.

Btu it seems like he was not budging.

“Why are you still there?” I asked.

“There is someone here that you’ll definitely want to see” he said.

That was enough to catch my attention.

I climbed out of bed and opened my room door.

“Hi” he said smiling at me.

I cleared my throat “hi”

“You are avoiding me” he said.

I looked away from him “please Simon not now” I said.

I could not handle this conversation.

This was the first time in my life that I had lost control like that.

With Simon, everything was planned, organized. We did not just hold hands all of the blue, or kiss spontaneously, hell even the sex between us was planned.

So kissing Liam like that was really out of character for me, and I had no single clue what to do with my actions.

Luckily enough he just nodded and took my hand “come one, she is waiting in the living room”

She?

I did not even have enough time to process all of that, because all I could think about was that Liam was holding my hand, like it was the normal thing to do in the world.

I bit my lip, trying to keep my erratically beating hear under control.

My eyes widened the moment the moment I saw who it was.

“No”

“Yes”

I carefully pulled my hand from Liam’s hold and rushed to hug her, tears leaking from my eyes.

“Oh, my gosh Felicia I missed you so freaking much” I said.

She hugged me back just as tight “you too girl” she said.

I turned to Liam “how did you even?” I was honestly just lost for words.

He put his hand in his pocket and had that flushed look on his face, the same one that was there when he was always trying to brush things off as no big deal.

“I knew that she meant so much to you and so I reached out and flew her over here”

My heart did this weird flip.

This man.

“Thank you” I said.

He rubbed his neck with his palm “I’ll give you guy’s time to talk and all… I have some work” he said.

“Liam,” I called out before he left.

“Hmmm”

“We can talk later” I said and he smiled “okay Angel”.

The moment he left, I turned to Felicia and she raised her eyebrow at me?

“What?” I asked.

“What was that about?” she asked and I blushed “shut up”

There was a short moment of silence between us.

“Why didn’t you reach out to me?” she asked “all of this time, I thought you were…. I thought you were dead”

I heaved a sigh “I’m sorry Felicia, but I did not know how… all of this was just so strange and I did not know how you will be able to take it”

She places her hand on mine “I understand” she said.

I hugged her again “I missed you so much” I said.

“Missed you more babe”

I looked at her “do I even want to know what is happening back there?” I asked.

“Everything has been such a mess babe you have no idea” Felicia said. “Simon had been borderline harassing me, like there was some way that I could just cough you up. Back when I thought you were gone, i felt so angry like that asshole was insulting your memory”

“Simon is dead to me now” I said “he should not even bother”

She nodded “he can have that bitch Bree right?”

“Don’t insult her Felicia, it’s not even worth it” I said.

“Always so humble”

She stared pointedly at me and I backed away from her, there was this curious look in her eyes.

“What?” I asked.

“Don’t act dumb babes, what is going on between you and Liam?” she asked.

I fiddled with my fingers.

“Do you love him?” she asked.

I groaned “I don’t know Felicia, he just treats me so well, and that’s not even the main thing… he is just what think that I have always been looking for, so damn perfect” I said.

“It seems like you already know the answer to that” she said.

 I heaved a sigh “I- I don’t even know at this point” I said.

She took both my hand in hers “look Simon is a fucking asshole, but Liam he fucking flew me over here on first class just because he said he wanted you to have someone familiar here with you” she said.

I was silent.

She continued.

“Babes, don’t let your past ruin your future”