CHAPTER 2:THE SOLACE REALIZATION

ALESSIA POV

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The sun rays hit my face as the knock on the door persists.

I opened my eyes trying to catch a glimpse of the shattered memory in my head and understand what's happening…

It quickly clocked on me after the inspection of the environment and it doesn't look like my room ,the fact that I'm naked. 

The knock continues. 

“I'm coming!!” I quickly jumped out of the bed and put my clothes on

A lady looks formally dressed, shining her bright smile at me.

“Sorry ma'am you need to check out ma ,it is past the scheduled time for you to leave.”

" Okay I'm coming." 

“Actually , he's the owner of the place ,but they all leaves, that's the order given”

“Was the room booked before ??”

“Yes ma'am” 

Wait 

“Lol…ohhh you don't know he makes a reservation of room every weekend and he brings, Every lady here to do the same thing he does to you , I'm just trying to inform you so you don't have your hopes high” her face formed in a quirky way 

“She walked out on me” Like we had an unresolved beef.

At that state I felt like a sl*t ,who has no self regard ,but it's all worth it, I packed my bag and about to take my phone when I saw the short note 

“Thanks for the free service it was worth it”

I felt dizzy and cranky 

A laugh escaped my mouth ,isn't these supposed to be the other way around I picked up my phone and heas out 

50 missed call from bianca ,30 from mom,and 80 missed calls from my dad and brother ,I was prepare for the worst at these rate 

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I stepped into the car and heading home, everything about me felt different and the s*x did a thing with me , but the man involved did another thing on me , because he's the finest man have ever come across in my entire existence 

Exhaling a deep breath letting the solo music flush the sadness in me ,I can't get to think about the sudden switch of attitude from my dad,brother and mom , getting married to the head of the familia ,his ex best friend 

On getting to the living room everyone was seated and the tension in the room was at its peak ,

“ Where have you been to !!!!”

My mum was the first that raise the alarm,she walk towards me before she could reach out she was blocked by my dad

“I went out with……..”

Just when I wanted to complete my statement a slap landed on my face 

My heart sink and I was fidgeting, rubbing my hand in the spot slapped 

He has never laid a finger on me before 

“And who gives you the right to leave these house ,I give you the best of life and provide for all your needs,and you just willing to show that you're a waste?"

" Where you scared your only investment was no where to be found” 

My face twitched up with an ironic smile 

He slapped me again,these time it was hard ,and all my mummy could do was just stand there and say nothing

I couldn't mutter a word,I just walked out of their sight 

“You're not leaving these house until the d day of the wedding” 

His word echoed the entire living room

I marched upstairs and slam the door

I understand that his business is going into a pitfall but does it mean he should be that cruel to me ,tears prickled down my cheecks .and the fact that nobody is standing against it ,I've always been pampered all my life, I'm always my dad's little princess ,and my mum’s little admiration. 

I walked down into the toilet and had a hot bath

I got out of the shower steamy hot,I can literally feel the burn on my body ,I felt better after all those tears.

 I changed into something comfy calling bianca 

“Hey babe” 

“Alessia!!!!!!”She shouted,her voice filled with fear and concern 

“Where are you ,are you okay” shakily and disturbed

“I'm at home ,can you come over” 

“Okay , I'm on my way”

In next thirty minutes she rushed in are ,her face was so disturbed 

“Where you kidnapped , what's going on….”

Running towards me checking me up 

A 

This just made my day 

Girllll ,do you know what I've been through ,your dad was ready to slit my throat not to talk about your brother 

I'm fine 

So what happened 

I'm sorry babe….I was not me yesterday , you're the only one I own a proper apology 

So what happened , don't keep me waiting 

I had a one night stand 

What???, You ???Alessia ,With who ? 

The expression on her face adjusted to something else 

I don't know him ?

Are you actually joking with me rn , I'm not it's a one night thing. 

you actually did it ?? 

Yeah I told you I was gonna do it , but you should have carried me along or at least texed 

It happened very fast and I had no time to… 

Come here , it's okay bby she pulled me closer for a hug 

Have you taken an after pill or something 

not yet 

Okay I will get you one and a warm water 

Hope you're are not feel pain anywhere 

no I smile shily 

Why are you smiling ,Ali..l like she understood 

It's nothing I know she already knows what was on my mind but waiting for me to spill it 

I know that look …what happened,no secrets remember 

I actually actually had fun,it was you never told me it was these pleasurable,girlll ,it was my first time and 

I did but you're always chicken out 

 and the guy….goodness you need to see his and ,shoulder and his hands , He's so charming and attractive he's so handsome ,it looked as if he worked out from one of my fictional books 

Are you serious 

Likeeee B, I fulfilled my fantasy dream last light ,I have no regrets ,finally I have something to hold on in my loveless marriage 

You must be joking 

I'm not ,we both bursted into laugh ,let me get you an after pill before you get yourself pregnant forr gorgeous 

I wouldn't mind though 

You can 

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Second week of been grounded I'm only allowed to moved around the vicinity and not stepping a feet outside the gate ,as an introverted person I didn't see any harm in it ,I watch my favorite shows snack and sleep and order for stuff and they get delivered to me .

   The only problem I couldn't get put of my head is the image of my one night stand ,I felt it's just an attachment issues because it is my first ,I go about day dreaming and replaying the moment,I searched through socials to know if I could get it but all was avail ,it becomes my escapesism fantasy everyday .

 I turned a blind eye towards everyone at home it feels like I was just a stranger and nobody could listen to me ,even my brothers who always stand to protect me didn't see a problem with the arranged marriage.i felt like a commodity use to selltel bargains but it's all Gucci ,I will leave with it because I have no other options In the midst of m thought someone nargaed in

“You can't even knock” ,I said adjusting myself on the bed 

“Why would I knock ,for what exactly” 

“For intruding my privacy and coming into my room” 

“Which privacy ,he laughed and threw a pillow from the side chair on me 

I didn't respond and just sat there ,

“Have you eaten” 

“You don't need to act all pretendful in the next two weeks I will he out of your sight*

“I'm not ,do you think I don't care about you ,do you think I'm happy you're been set up for these?”

“Then why are you keeping your finger crossed why are you not doing anything about the whole situation”

“We are going to loose the company, Alessia we will become a nobody to the the world ,the only way not to is for you to get married to Mike”

“I love you ,you know ,I care for you more than anything but at …..”

“I already accepted my fate you don't need to come here to try to talk me into it ”

“But you are still mad at me , I'm sorry for not been able to save you from dad” 

“It's okay” ,I got up 

“I need a favor ,I just want to go to the bar I visited last I misplaced something important to me”

“What's it?”

“Just something very important”

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I arrived at the bar with a stormed of mixed emotions, unsure whether I truly wanted to face what awaited me. Still, thrill the dopamine-fueled pull kept rising, urging me forward despite my hesitation. I asked around, offering a careful description,but every response fell flat, evasive in a way that felt wrong.I brushed the feeling aside anyway.Across the room, my brother watched me, his gaze sharp and uneasy, as if silenty questioning wether I was really okay. I searched aimle

ssly, eyescanning every face, chasing the high of expectation but the world had other plans, and my dopamine-drenched hope collapsed in an instant.