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I can hear them through the wall.
My stepbrother Ethan and his three friends – Jack, Marcus, and Tyler – up late on a Friday night, drinking beers they think our parents don’t know about. The walls in this house are thin. They’ve always been thin. When I was in high school, I could hear every video game explosion, every stupid joke, every late-night conversation about girls and parties and all the things teenage boys obsess over.
But tonight is different.
Tonight, they’re talking about me.
“I’m telling you, she’s gotten so fucking hot.” That’s Jack, the one with the swimmer’s build and the cocky grin. “Did you see her by the pool today? That bikini was like... fuck.”
“Bro, that’s your friend’s sister.” Marcus. He’s always been the cautious one. Football player, big shoulders, gentle eyes.
"Stepsister,” Ethan corrects. “We’re not actually related.”
“Still weird.”
“Is it though?” Tyler now. He’s the quiet one, the one who watches more than he talks. “She’s nineteen. We’re all eighteen. She’s been away at college all year. It’s not like we grew up together.”
“Exactly.” Ethan’s voice is louder now, more confident. More drunk. “And have you seen her ass? Like, actually looked at it? I live with that ass. I see it every day. In those little sleep shorts. In yoga pants. In that fucking bikini she wore today that almost gave me a heart attack.”
My heart is pounding.
I’m lying in my childhood bed, door closed, lights off, supposedly asleep. But I’m wide awake, pressed against the wall, listening to my stepbrother and his friends discuss my body like I’m a piece of meat.
I should be disgusted.
I should storm in there and tell them they’re pigs.
Instead, my hand slides under the waistband of my shorts.
“What would you do?” Jack asks. “If you could. No consequences.”
“Fuck.” Ethan laughs, low and dirty. “Where do I start? That mouth, first. She’s got those full lips, you know? I’ve thought about them wrapped around my cock so many times.”
“Same,” Tyler admits quietly. “When she eats those popsicles by the pool... I have to leave before I embarrass myself.”
My fingers find my clit. I’m already wet. Already throbbing. Listening to four boys describe what they’d do to me while I touch myself in the dark.
“I’d eat that pussy for hours,” Jack says. “Get her so wet she’s begging for it. Then flip her over and take her from behind. Watch that ass bounce while I pound her.”
“You think she’s loud?” Marcus asks. He sounds curious despite himself. “Like, a screamer?”
“God, I hope so.” Ethan again. “I want to hear her beg. Want to hear her say my name while I’m balls deep in that tight little – ”
I cum.
Silent, shaking, biting my pillow to muffle the sounds while my stepbrother and his friends talk about fucking me fifteen feet away. It’s wrong. It’s so wrong. These are boys I’ve known for years, boys who have eaten dinner at our table, boys who are practically family.
And I just came harder than I have in months imagining them doing everything they’re describing.
I lie there in the aftermath, breathing hard, listening to their conversation turn to other topics – video games, college plans, some girl Marcus is trying to date. Normal teenage boy stuff.
Eventually, I fall asleep.
Still wet. Still wanting. Still pretending I’m not imagining four cocks taking turns with my body.
***
A sound wakes me.
My door. Opening slowly. A creak of hinges I’ve heard a thousand times but never in the middle of the night, never when I’m supposed to be alone.
It’s dark. The only light is a sliver of hallway glow that disappears when the door closes again.
Click.
Someone just locked my door from the inside.
My heart hammers against my ribs. I should scream. Should sit up and demand to know who’s there. Should turn on the light and call for my parents down the hall.
Instead, I stay perfectly still.
Eyes closed. Breathing even. Pretending to be asleep.
Because I know who it is. I can smell them – beer and boys and something darker. Want, maybe. Anticipation.
The mattress dips.
Someone is sitting on my bed.
“She’s out,” a voice whispers. Tyler. “Look at her – completely gone.”
“Told you she sleeps heavy.” Ethan. My stepbrother. Standing somewhere near the foot of the bed, close enough that I can feel the weight of his gaze. “She’s been like this since we moved in. Dad used to joke that a bomb couldn’t wake her.”
“So we just...” Jack trails off. I can hear the hesitation in his voice. “I mean, is this okay? This feels kind of...”
“She’s asleep,” Ethan says. “She won’t know. We’ll be careful. Just... touch her a little. See what she feels like. We’re not gonna do anything.”
Liar. I know he’s lying. I can hear it in his voice – the hunger barely contained. The justification that sounds weak even to him.
And God help me, I want him to keep lying.
A hand touches my thigh.
Over the blanket, tentative, barely there. Testing. Waiting to see if I’ll wake up.
I don’t react.
The hand grows bolder. Slides higher. Finds the edge of the blanket and slips beneath it, seeking bare skin.
My shorts have ridden up in my sleep – I’m wearing the little cotton sleep shorts, the ones Ethan mentioned earlier, the ones that show the bottom curve of my ass when I bend over. The hand finds my bare thigh and I hear a sharp intake of breath.
“Fuck,” someone whispers. “Her skin is so soft.”
“Is she... is she wearing underwear?”
Another hand. A different angle. Sliding up my other thigh, converging in the middle.
“Yeah,” Tyler breathes. “But they’re... holy shit, they’re wet.”
“What?”
“Feel.”
A finger traces over my underwear, right over my pussy. Even through the cotton, I can feel how soaked I am – from earlier, from right now, from the knowledge that four boys are touching me in the dark while they think I’m unconscious.
“Jesus Christ.” Jack sounds reverent. “She’s fucking dripping.”
“She must have been having a dream,” Ethan says. His voice is closer now. He’s moved from the foot of the bed. “A good one.”
“What do we do?”
Whispered debate. Hushed arguments. What if she wakes up. What if she doesn’t. How far do they go. How far can they go.
“We have at least an hour before my parents wake up,” Ethan says finally. “We’re quiet, we’re careful, she never knows. Okay?”
“Okay,” three voices answer.
Okay, I think. Do it. I want you to.
Someone – I think it’s Marcus, judging by the size of the hands – carefully pulls my blanket down. The cool air hits my skin, and I have to concentrate not to shiver, not to break character, not to show any sign that I’m awake and aware and desperately, achingly ready.
“Lift her hips,” Ethan whispers.
Large hands slide under my body, raising me slightly, and I feel my shorts and underwear being worked down together. Slowly. So slowly. Inch by inch, down my thighs, over my knees, off my feet and tossed somewhere on the floor.
I’m naked from the waist down.
In my childhood bed.
With four boys staring at my pussy.
“Oh my god.” Jack’s voice is strained. “Look at her. She’s... she’s perfect.”
“Spread her legs.”
The robe is hotel-issue white terry, thick as a towel, smelling faintly of industrial lavender, and I have been wearing it for nineteen minutes with no intention of putting on anything else. Seventeen hours of travel. A marriage that ended in April. A best friend who told me I needed a vacation instead of a therapist and then booked the room before I could build an argument against it.She was right, which is annoying, but the Amalfi Coast at sunset makes it hard to hold a grudge. The water runs turquoise into navy in a gradient that looks retouched, the sun bleeding orange across all of it, and Positano stacks itself up the cliff in pinks and ochres at angles no engineer would ever sign off on. My room sits on the twelfth floor with the balcony hanging out over the drop. Looking down turns my stomach over. Looking out does the opposite, opening something in my chest that’s been shut since spring, and I stand there with wet hair and bare feet on stone still warm from the day and take
I cum again bent over his kitchen island with my wrists crossed behind me and my cheek on cold granite, and the kitchen throws the sound back at us doubled.We end up on the tile because the tile is where gravity was always sending us. He goes down first and pulls me over him and then rolls us, and the floor is freezing against my shoulder blades and I don’t care.“Your floor is filthy,” I inform him.“You’re cumming on it. Seems fine to me.”I pull his hair and he retaliates by biting the side of my neck, hard, and I know exactly what that’s going to look like in the elevator tomorrow and I let him do it anyway. My nails go down his back from his shoulders to his ass, and I feel the skin rise under my fingers, and he groans and fucks me harder into his own kitchen floor, and we are both going to be a mess in daylight.His bedroom is the last room we enter, and it’s the only one that matters.It shares my wall. That’s the wall. The headboard that’s been waking me since March is bolted
Two fingers push back in while his mouth stays on my clit, and the combination undoes me faster than I’d like – under two minutes, because six months of arguing in doorways was foreplay and the first honest contact detonates everything that’s been stacking up since March.I cum against his mouth with my thigh locked over his shoulder and my hand fisted in his hair, and I’m loud enough that the downstairs neighbor is definitely awake now, and I don’t care, because for the first time in half a year I am making noise in this building on purpose.He stands up with his mouth and chin shining, looking obscenely pleased with himself.“Couch,” I say, pushing him backward by the chest.He goes down onto the cushions and I climb over him, and the springs make their specific squeak – the one I know, the one I’ve laid in the dark listening to while other women made sounds I pretended not to hear.There’s still fabric between us. I settle down onto the ridge of him through the joggers and grind, a
I shove past him.His apartment is mine flipped, and it’s disorienting to walk into a mirror of your own life that smells like somebody else’s soap. The speakers are two towers flanking the couch, big enough that I can see the air moving in front of them. I go for the power button with the specific fury of a woman who has not slept properly since February.He catches my wrist before I reach it.Not hard. His hand closes around my forearm and stops it, and that’s all. I turn and he’s right there, closer than he’s ever been, close enough that I can smell the sweat and the beer and something underneath both that is just him, and my body reads the proximity and floods before my brain files an objection.“Don’t touch my equipment,” he says, low.“Then turn it off yourself.”“No.”“You are the worst neighbor in this building. You’re loud, you’re selfish, you have never once considered that other people live here, and I have wanted to strangle you since March –”“And you’re standing in my ap
The note taped to my door reads: Your vacuum at 7 AM on a SATURDAY violates the Geneva Convention. – 5BI peel it off and put it in the kitchen drawer with the other eleven, which is a habit I’ve decided not to examine, and then I stand in my own hallway holding the drawer open like a woman consulting evidence in a trial that will never happen. Six months of this. Six months since Ethan in 5B moved into the unit that shares my bedroom wall and started treating a residential building like a venue.The wall is the whole problem. My headboard touches it. My pillow is maybe eight inches from whatever he’s doing over there, and what he’s doing over there at any given hour involves sub-bass, because he produces music for a living, or he claims to, and the production apparently requires a volume that walks my water glass across the nightstand in tiny increments until it commits suicide onto the floor.I’ve filed three complaints. The building manager told me the noise policy is “more of a gu
The ropes come loose and get retied before I’ve finished turning, and then I’m face-down with my wrists still bound and my hips propped high on the pillow they’ve wedged under me. One of them enters from behind and the angle lets him reach further than anything has all night, his hips cracking against my ass on every stroke. The other kneels in front of my hooded face and finds my mouth through the opening in the fabric, and the upside-down angle opens my throat for him in a way that makes both of us make sounds.Face-down. Hooded. Bound at four points. One cock in me from behind and one in my mouth from the front, in a cabin I could not locate on a map, being worked over by men whose faces I have never seen.What happens next isn’t a series of orgasms so much as one long unbroken state I get stuck inside, because the stimulation never lets up long enough for me to come down. When one of them adjusts, the other compensates. When I clamp down in climax, the cock inside me drives harder







