Mag-log inAlina Pov
Mr. Parker has gone out. I know his eyes were always on me. I used to do it on purpose—just to provoke him, to make him burn with restraint. I know he’ll punish me for it… for daring to talk to another employee whose name I don't remember. I just want to provoke him like he did to me, coming closer to my face and running away in my dreams. I know he saw everything. I’ve seen his laptop. He has access to every room I walk in. Every hidden place he knew. Even my bathroom has a hidden camera that was installed when he came to my house. He thought I wouldn't know, I wouldn't see but I know he was obsessed with me and I loved his possessiveness. His power to control me even when we tried to avoid the spark between us. It makes me feel safe under his gaze watching me twenty into four seven. And I also like undressing in front of it, knowing he was watching my every move. Call it an absolute obsession, call it a sick little crush—but I’ve loved him since the day we met. He was always considered as my uncle. The first man I met in my teens and then after my dad’s death. In my teens it was a small crush but he never came back, never contacted us and I lost that small crush in my past. I remember the second time I met Mr. Ryan Parker. It was the day my father passed. A day soaked in grief… and yet, that’s when I saw him. He came back, hugged me, comforted me in a way no one else ever did. Not even my mother—who disappeared into silence after my father died. His calming scent had changed my past crush into something deeper, maybe love. That’s when I decided: he would be mine. He supported us, financially, emotionally. He carried our broken family like a ghost who refused to let us fall. He was everything my father once was… and something more. My father had always talked about him. I had seen his diary, the photographs of him in his 20s, and he was much more popular than any other man in their university, and his charm didn't fade away with time. To the world, he might have taken on a fatherly role. But to me, he was the man who crept into my thoughts, into my dreams. The man I wanted to protect me—not out of duty, but out of love. Real, raw, dangerous love. I wanted him to look at me like a woman, not a responsibility left by his friend. I wanted him to touch me to places like no other man had touched. I wanted to feel his rough hands on my skin. It was an obsession that kept me awake at night. His scent had already filled the cabin which was shared by us. It calms my mind. He made sure nobody talked to me or they were fired without any reason. And I love every second of it. His possessiveness made me feel safe in front of the world where I stood alone and someone was with me to look after. “Ms Easton,” He cleared his throat, looking at me and Oh god I melted with his voice. His voice was sexy, manly..too manly and rough just the way I like. I looked into his brown eyes and my words were stuck. He was an epitome of perfection. “Your mother called, she wasn't available due to urgent meeting so she asked to take you to my house,” “Yes.” I didn't know what to say. I always wanted to spend my night at his house. I think luck is on my side today. I didn't want to show my excitement so I just nodded my head. He didn't say much and went back to his seat. My eyes couldn't leave his. Looking at him everyday sitting in front of my eyes my heart goes crazy. I need him to control me, torture me, use my body as he wishes. I didn't like those boys in my class, they weren't as dark as him. I wanted to save myself for the man who wanted to worship my body and use it like a slave. I completed my work at 8 and he stood up from his seat. He didn't say anything keeping his distance from me and I followed him like a lost puppy. We went out to the parking lot where his driver was waiting. He bowed his head, and we got inside. Mr. Parker had always been quiet around me. We rarely talked to each other—maybe he wanted to keep some distance between us. Maybe he didn’t want to fuck his friend’s daughter, even though he was clearly obsessed with me. I could feel the tension between us, the sexual tension. But we sat in silence. I knew about his obsession. I had seen it. But he never showed it in front of me. He always kept himself in the shadows, where I couldn’t see the wild side I knew he was hiding. But I really wanted to see it—one day. My thoughts were interrupted when my body fell on Mr Parker. He turned his head, looking outside. “Sorry sir,” the driver apologized. I could hear his heartbeat, his shallow and warm breath tracing my hairline with a hint of his cologne, the manly scent that had captured my mind with sinful thoughts for years. My breath was uneven as I could feel his warm body against mine. My boobs pressed on his strong arms and I really wanted to feel his fingers on my body, devouring me, touching me everywhere. He pushed my body on the other side, looking into my eyes. “Are you okay, Ms Easton?” he asked while looking at me with his mesmerising brown eyes, his front hair covering his eyebrows. I couldn't think much other than shaking my head. I wanted to shout, scream that no I wasn't okay at all and it's all because of you, the thought of you always made me feel vulnerable in your presence. I shrugged my thoughts, took a slight gulp and nodded my head slightly. My hands were folded tightly in my lap, I stole a glance at him, his tailored suit a sharp contrast to the wild thoughts racing through his mind. He stared out of the window, jaw tight, but his fingers twitched beside his thighs, betraying the storm brewing inside him, his thoughts were audible to me even in the silence. The driver kept his eyes on the road and I on him. I know it's inappropriate to look at a man who is the same age as your father but my mind has already been filled with his thought, his scent. My breath hitched as he shifted, his knee grazing mine. The touch was brief, a fucking tease, but it sent a bolt of heat straight to my core. I bit my lip slightly, fighting the urge to press my thighs against his. He’s too damn old for you, my thoughts were screaming, but the idea only made me wetter. I imagined his hands, rough, commanding sliding up my bare thigh, his fingers brushing where I acted the most. My cheeks burned and I turned to the window, praying the cool glass would douse the fire licking my skin. I could sense the heat in him too.Alina pov I didn’t even know where he was taking me, but I trusted him.His hands stayed locked around my arms the whole time, gripping so hard it felt like he thought I might try to run. He never looked at me. I already knew this wasn’t the way to his house. He was taking me somewhere else..somewhere that hid the darkest parts of him.He stopped. I looked around. There was nothing. Just empty space and silence.Then he finally met my eyes.“Come.”I followed him. His fingers dug deeper into my skin with every step, leaving marks I could already feel. He led me down into the basement. No one else was there. Not a single soul.He unlocked a heavy gate. Inside sat a cage.I turned to look at him. His eyes were completely empty of emotion.“This is what you wanted to see,” he said, voice low. “The real me. The dangerous me.”A rough laugh left his throat as his body pressed against mine. His fingers traced over my lips, then pushed inside my mouth.“Suck.”His other hand tangled hard in
Ryan pov I looked into her eyes and, for one fractured second, everything I had built inside myself fell apart. Every wall, every carefully stacked brick around my heart shattered the moment I understood she was running from me.I needed her closer. I needed her to hear how much I cared, how completely I loved her. She had always been the only light cutting through the dark corners of my world. Not just my friend’s daughter. A woman who could take my heart in her hands and do whatever she wanted with it.I closed the space between us. My mouth found hers.Soft. Warm. Slightly parted. I pushed my tongue past her lips and the taste of her nearly dropped me to my knees. Tears were already sliding down her cheeks; I caught them with my tongue, salty and trembling, and licked them away like I could erase every reason she had to cry.She dragged in a shaky breath. I pulled her deeper into the office and shut the door hard behind us.I backed her against the wall, pinning both wrists above
Alina pov I didn’t even know how to give him the resignation letter.Mom said she’d tell Ryan for me, but I knew I had to do it myself. Maybe for the last time. Just long enough to get him to accept it.“I called him this morning, Alina,” she said while putting on her shoes. “He didn’t pick up. You’ll have to go yourself.”After she left I just… paced. Back and forth across my room. How was I supposed to look at him and say I’m leaving? That I’m moving somewhere far away so we don’t run into each other anymore. No more seeing him. No more talking. No more feeling that quiet ache that always follows me around when he’s near.That night I stood by the window. The moon was big and white and the sky looked peaceful, but my eyes kept going back to the table. The resignation letter was just sitting there, folded neat. I closed my eyes and tried to invent a better excuse, a softer way to end this. End all the pain.When I woke up the next morning the dark circles under my eyes were bad. I h
Alina’s PovI cried hard, but silently. Just stared at the door, waiting for something… anything..any confession even if it was a no. I would accept it but this silence was killing me.He left me without even answering me. I wiped my tears and immediately hugged my knees. I went to take a bath. The water was hot, but my heart still felt heavy. My mind, though… it was clear for once.I need to get away from him. As far as I can. If I stay, I’ll never forget him. Every time I close my eyes, all I see is his face. Every time I looked at him my heart couldn’t control anymore. I love him so much but it hurts. It hurts every time I look into those eyes that didn’t love me. I went back home with a heavy heart. Mom was sitting on the couch. She looked up and smiled.“You came back, Alina.”I just nodded.“There’s a parcel for you,” she said.“Who sent it?”“I don’t know.”I nodded again and went to my room. The package was sitting on the table. I opened it carefully.It was from the unive
Alina pov I woke up with a killer headache, blinking hard as I looked around. Empty. No one. I checked myself quickly. Just underwear. That was it. My clothes were gone, and I couldn’t remember a single thing from last night, only partying with Emma and Olivia and after that everything started blurring. My heart started racing a little.Then I heard footsteps from the bathroom. The door opened and Mr Parker walked out.Nothing but a towel hanging low on his hips. Water is still dripping down his chest and stomach. Those eyes of his locked on me with that same mischievous look, and my mouth went completely dry.“Like what you see?” he said, smirking.I turned away fast, pulled the blanket up to my chin, and curled onto my side. He came over and sat on the edge of the bed. “How are you feeling?”I didn’t want to answer him. I just wanted space. But every time I thought about him, I felt myself falling harder. I kept my face turned away from that face that could drop any woman to her
Alina’s POVI hadn’t gone back to work. For days I stayed locked inside my room, hiding from everything and everyone. I didn’t know how to face him. He had rejected me… rejected my love… and I had no idea what to do with the shattered pieces of my heart or how to even begin putting them back together. The pain was worse than any breakup story I had ever read.My mother kept asking what was wrong, but the words wouldn’t come. I couldn’t tell her.Then my phone rang. Emma’s name lit up the screen. She had been calling nonstop for two days, and I had ignored every single one. I knew she wouldn’t stop until I finally answered.“Alina, where are you? Girl, you didn’t even pick up my calls. Are you all right?” she asked without giving me a chance to speak.“Let her speak, Emma,” Olivia cut in. They were on a conference call.“I’m fine, guys.”“I don’t think so,” Emma said. “You’ve never ignored our calls like this.”“Okay, Emma. Let’s just meet and talk about whatever’s going on,” Olivia in







