Chapter 33: Sadist Part I

Ashton

I've been feeling guilty for quite a while now because of what Joe told me on the boulder. I tried so damn much to forget what he said to me but my mind doesn't want me to.

'And I love him, I don't want to lose him, you can only understand me if you've been in love but I guess you never loved someone before. That's why I endure the pain Nile cause to me if that means I won't lose him and besides I... I kinda like it when he punches or slaps me.'

That was the exact words Joe told me that I can't seem to move on. It was stuck in my mind like forever, this is also the reason why I'm so aloof or distant to Zie earlier when he asked me to come with him to get some woods. I don't know but when I saw him earlier I suddenly feel nervous. It feels like my heart would explode due to its excessive beating if I spent more time with him.

'Do I love him?'

This is the question I've to keep on asking myself self and until now, I still don't get a clear answer.

"Daddy? Is it okay if I help Zie t