[ K A R A ]
I didn’t know how it happened, but time was flying by so fast. I blinked and all of a sudden it was already the week before the wedding. Lacey and I had been pretty busy lately, running around all over town, trying to get all the details for her wedding to the tea.
Today we were picking up our dresses from the tailor. We debated between several colors for my maid of honor dress, and then we settled with this a soft and silky ivory maxi dress. It was a simple design, yet absolutely gorgeous, and it fitted me perfectly.
"Honey, you look beautiful!" Lacey exclaimed as she watched me spun around in the dress. “Oh my god, you looked all grown up!”
“Mom, I’m eighteen,” I laughed.
“Yeah, but I’ve never seen you in a dress like this,” she argued. “You didn’t even go to your prom,&
[ R Y D E R ]“Kara, please open the door…” I begged and begged, but there was no response.I messed up. I messed up big time.I had Vanessa leave the house and I was waiting by her door for almost an hour, but she still wasn’t coming out. She didn’t leave her room the entire night. Not even for dinner. Her mom was worried that she was sick or something, and I couldn’t do anything but sit quietly at the dinner table, looking at the empty seat.“She was nervous the entire day. Maybe she was anxious about the wedding too?” Lacey commented about Kara.“Just give her some time,” my dad said to her. “Watching her mom get remarried, maybe this is a lot for her,”“She’s such a sweet kid,” Lacey sighed longingly. “I don’t know
[ K A R A ]Confession time. I had to be honest. I knew I told everyone that I was waiting until marriage because I wanted to find a guy who was willing to wait for me, but that was a lie. It was just an excuse I made up. It was just a wall that I built because I was afraid… of love.My own dad ran out on me and I saw my mom got her heart broken time and time again. I was scared. I didn't want to fall in love. I had always thought that love was for suckers and people shouldn’t be trusted. So I made up all these rules and lived strictly by them, thinking I could live my life hurt-free, unscathed.But that didn’t work.Now if you want to know another confession, I got one more. Meeting Ryder had changed me and challenged all my beliefs. For the first time in my life, I wanted to feel things. And even if I got hurt in the end, I might be okay wi
[ K A R A ]"I love you. I fucking love you."Ryder’s words were ringing in my ears. And everything else around me fell silent, like it was on mute. I couldn't hear anything, except the sound of his heavy breaths and the three words that were on repeat in my head. And I didn't know what to say, or how to react to this. I was a deer caught in headlights."I've known it for a long time now. I just don't think I'd ever say it out loud," he continued saying.Words. Words. Words.I thought of all the vocabulary that I know, but nothing would come out."Kara... say something, please," Ryder's eyes were searching mine.
[ K A R A ]Gabe and I were walking along the beach, away from the crowd and the drama. Looking over to him, I felt so bad that he got punched in the face for no good reason. Thankfully, his nosebleed had stopped. But still. We were quiet, and we didn't say much as we kept on walking."Gabe, I know you have every right to be mad at him, but please don't tell anyone... about the whole Ryder and I thing," I said finally.Gabe smiled and mimed zipping up his mouth, "My lips are sealed," he said."And I'm so sorry that he hit you. He's such a barbarian," I rolled my eyes."What do girls see in him, really?" he laughed sarcastically."I know he's bad. But he's really not all that bad," I said meekly.Then we were quiet again. We had been walking for a while now. The lights and the party were far away in the dista
[ K A R A ]Ryder took me up to his room as mine was currently being occupied by a Kardashian wannabe.I stood in the middle of the room with my dress soaked through and through from the rain. Ryder grabbed two towels from the en-suite bathroom and wrapped me in one of them. He dried his hair and face with the other one.Slowly, he then slipped out of his wet dress-shirt and let it fall to the ground. His naked body was slightly wet and glistening from the rain. I swallowed hard as he strode over towards me."Are you sure about this?" he said, while he helped me dry my hair with the towel."For the longest time, I told myself I was waiting for true love. But that was just an excuse. I wasn't waiting, I was putting it off. I guess I was afraid... I'd get hurt.""So what changed your mind?""You. You make me w
[ K A R A ]Sunlight was spilling in through the large window, causing my eyes to flinch. The sun was out and bright. I looked over lazily to the clock on the wall— it was 9.15 AM!"Holy shoes! Ryder, wake up!" I released myself from his grip but he pulled me back down to the bed almost instantly."No," he groaned."But it's 9.15, we have to send Peter and Lacey to the airport!" I said as his eyes jerked open.I rolled to my side and tried to get up, but my body was too sore, I ended up falling back to the bed. Ryder let out a laugh."Ugh... I needa take a shower," I said, mainly to myself.But Ryder quickly got up and in one fell swoop, he took me in his arms and carried me off to the en-suite bathroom."Ryder, what are you doing?" I protested.He put me down
[ K A R A ]"What you got there?" Ryder's voice broke the silence.He just got out of the shower, and I was sitting on his desk with the paper and pen in hand."New rules," I mumbled out as I kept on writing."You and your rules," Ryder chuckled. "We both know we're just gonna end up breaking them anyway,"I rolled my eyes at him."No, we're not. We're gonna do this thing properly, like two responsible adults," I said.Ryder made his way over to me. He was wearing nothing but a towel wrapped around his waist. I had to look away before he noticed me gawking at him."Can't we just skip to the part where we fuck?" he said lowly."Ehem," I coughed. "New rule number one, we will be responsible and mature about this. Meaning we can't be reckless. We can't be doing anything
[ R Y D E R ]"Honey, I'm home," I said as I swung the front door open.Kara was sitting on the couch in the living room. Her eyes lit up as soon as she saw me. For some reason that made my heart skip a beat."You got pizza!" she screamed happily and raced over.Kara and her junk food obsession, of course."Yes. But wait, do you wanna see something cool?" I stopped her."Is it better than pizza?" she challenged.I raised my eyebrow at her. Putting the pizza box down, I took off my jacket and showed her my left arm."You got a new tattoo?" she gasped.Nodding my head, I peeled the bandage off slowly and showed it to her.“ K a r a ”Those four letters were forever inked on me now.