Jordan POV.
Driving is a skill I was taught by mom, she started to give me lessons back when I was fifteen, she said it's better to learn early, I agreed with her, I wanted to learn how to drive, I was really interested in learning new skills, I loved spending time with my mom. Back then, I wasn't as pissed as I'm full time, I was a happy person, I loved my mom, my sister, my brothers, my pack, but when did things start to change.A year ago, I was starting to change a year ago, but why would I start changing, I was almost an adult, I shouldn't have turned this way, I should have started to take my place in the pack, just like Keiran and Jacob were doing, but I couldn't, I was changing, toward the worse, I scared myself. After school, I went to university with Jacob, it was fun to get to college, I had the chance to meet new people, humans, other wolves, some of our pack, some of the other packs, it was a good friendly meeting overall, I graduated earlier this year, a big party was thrown for us, by Ashlynn, and Kiara, it was the first time I ever got mad at anyone, it was one of the times, I knew I was starting to lose it.The party was going great, mom, siblings, everyone was so happy and dancing around, I and Jacob were the big shot, I got to dance with mom, I danced with Ashlynn, I was dressed in a white shirt with a black leather jacket on top, skinny jeans that made my ass look juicy and some boots, Kiara said I look like a bad boy, and I agree with her, I do look like a bad boy and I love it."Jordy! Dance with me," Kiara demands, holding both my hands and dragging me to the dance floor with her, so far so good, you might wonder why and when did I get angry and lose it then, it wasn't then that I got angry, there was no reason for me to get angry, it was later, much later that night."Jordan, you're on patrol tonight," Keiran order me, I didn't mind the patrol job, I agreed on going on patrol, although it's my day to be celebrated. I shifted and ran away with some of my packmates, I was the one in charge after alphas and beta, I was the one they obeyed during the patrols. We ran our territories, we made sure they are safe, but tonight wasn't a normal night, tonight we saw a rogue, he jumped on our lands, usually, we just chase rogues away, but this rogue was different, he was attacking us back, he wasn't going down.As the most dominant one in the group, I took charge, I attacked the rogue, he went for my neck, but I went for his too, I kept going for his neck until he fell down dead.I've never killed a rogue before, this was the first rogue I ever killed, and it did something to me, it changed me, I loved the rush, I loved being in charge, but I didn't want to kill anymore or dominate anyone, I went home angry, angry at myself, angry for what I did, for the rush I felt. That night made the shift going inside me grow, I turned from just feeling different to acting different, toward everyone, and I hate that.After that night, I yelled at Ashlynn and Kiara for the first time, I didn't just scold them for acting out, I was actually angry at them that day, I was worried I'd be going rogue. But why would I go rogue, I know I have my loyalties back to my mom, it's my birthday, I'm an adult now, if my wolf wants to go rogue, it's time for it. I decided to park on the side of the road, I'm far away from the pack land, I've been driving for about two hours now, I know mom's pack is back behind me, where they are safe, I parked the car and got out, it was freezing outside, the snow is covering the roads and the side of the roads.I shifted to my wolf form, letting my wolf take control, it's his time to decide, we'd either be rogues or get back to mom's pack, I fell down on my four paws, the ice underneath my paws wasn't any comfortable, I didn't like being here, neither did my wolf, my wolf whined and cried, he wants to get back to mom's house where it's safe.'We rogue now?' I ask him, I asked my sassy wolf, the one who's been going insane for a while now.'No, you idiot,' my wolf answers me, when I was younger, mom once asked where I learned all the sass from, I told her from my wolf, she laughed at me that day, but it's the truth, it where I learned my sass from.I was going back to the car, but my wolf refused to go back to the car, he wants to run a little bit, we're an adult now, we can become rogues, we can take our place in the pack, we can find our mate, to the last thought, my wolf purred, he wants to find his mate just as bad as me. Our other half, but since we didn't have it, since we couldn't find that other half just yet, we decided to run for a little bit more, to take toward the woods, I looked up to the dark sky, there was no moon for me to howl for, but I howled my pain to the dark sky. After my howling was over after I was done with that, I moved back to my car, my legs hitting the snow slowly, making no sound, I was quick on my feet, I was silent, I shifted back to my human form.Opening my car door, I got in the car and looked in the mirror, my eyes are still the same green, my fangs aren't showing, I looked normal, I'm not a rogue yet, I'm still me, and I got a long drive ahead of me, I don't want to turn rogue, I'll never turn, not while I got the choice. I turned my car on and waited for it to heat up again, the cold was standing in my way, after five minutes I was back on the road, there would be no sleep for me tonight, not until I reach the blackthorn.Jordan POV. I yawned again, staying up the whole night watching movies with Ashlynn was something different than driving the whole night, the movies were fun, this is just annoying, the snow made the roads more dangerous, harder to drive. But I managed to drive through, I drove through most of the night, especially with my wolf small detour to have a late-night run, but I'm almost there. "Mom," I answer the phone annoyed, I'm tired, and annoyed, pissed truly, my wolf wasn't giving me any rest, I'm going to stop and get a coffee and some breakfast. "Where are you Jordan, you were supposed to be there two hours ago," she says over the phone, she was just worried about me, but that only made me angry. "I'm here now mother, I'm getting some food," I say skipping the coffee part, she'd lose it on my ass about me having coffee before food, but I'm twenty-one years old now, I'm an adult. "Jordy, the alpha isn't always the nicest person, to be honest, he's a bitch, but it's good training
Micah POV. Trust is something that's not given but earned, a baby would always trust his mother, he trusts her to feed him, keep him warm, take care of him. Trust is blind, every kid would follow his mother to hell knowing she'd keep him safe, but then we as grow up, the trust shifts, we meet friends, one we trust with our deepest secret, one we share things with. Then we become teenagers, we trust our lovers, the ones who we fell in love with to honor our love, our relationship, to be there for us as we are there for them. But then comes the biggest trust of them all, we trust our families, we trust our mommy, daddy, we trust the people who should have worked hard to get us the childhood we deserved, to get us to live happily, but what happens when that trust is broken, what about the small child who got burned in hell, about the friend who told everyone your secret or the lover who betrayed you. Let me tell you my story, when I was born, my mother didn't want to take care of me,
Micah POV. My name is the boy with trust issues, I mean Micah, Micah Blackthorn, I'm the alpha's only son, I'm his heir and the one in charge after him, I'm twenty-one years old, my birthday was last week, I just turned of age, the one where you're an adult, where more responsibilities get thrown your way and you're left to figure it out. I've been taking my father's place little by little, after the physical exercises and practice I have to endure, I now have to take on even more responsibilities, not ones that I enjoy, those are a pain in my bruised bum, today isn't any better, today is one of the worse days yet, today is another I have to spend with my father. I woke up with a groan, my whole body was aching, and in pain, I didn't want to wake up this early, I hardly slept last night, but now it's time to wake up, better get up on my own than to be woken up by my father or one of his minions, I got up and moved to the bathroom. I turned my shower on, not bothering to wait for th
Micah POV. The run was long, I had to keep pushing myself, Joshua wasn't taking it easy on me, he was taunting me with his moves, showing off how strong he is compared to me, we both spend most of our life training, but him trying to show off never gets old, he'll always try to over-speed me, to win the fight, although he knows it never ends well for me. After the run we all went back to the house, I needed a second shower, only this time, I waited for the water to get hot, I couldn't take any more coldness, the world was cold enough, I couldn't take any more coldness, it's over, I can't take any more of that, the hot water fell over my body. My burned shoulders hurt a lot, I gritted my teeth in pain, the hot water hurt, but it did well warming my soul, I didn't want to leave the hot water, I was enjoying the water way too much, but then there was a knock on my door, interrupting my only happiness, I turned the water off and sighed, it's time to come out. "Yes?" I answer whoever i
Micah POV. The alpha, of the boy, as dad put it, is really nice guy, he's not that old either, he's taking over his pack responsibilities just like me, for once I did not mind having to endure a long meeting. "Alpha Keiran, we'd be happy to host your brother over," I say with a smile, if dad wasn't here, I'd be happy to host many other wolves, I'd be happy to open our doors and let people in, let other wolves get involved with ours to change from our dull life to a more interstate one. Why push everyone out when you can have a full-on community, if I'm alpha, I would allow humans in too, they did us no harm, but maybe it's better that dad kept them out, they are liabilities, innocents who'd be hurt by the cruelty of father and our pack. "I'm glad to hear that alpha Micah," Keiran answers me, I flinched, I looked up, is this a test? He can't call me alpha, I'm the alpha's son, the supposed to be the next alpha, but I don't hold the title, father would whip me for hearing someone usi
Micah POV. Hide, stay quiet, keep down, my wolf is blond, he's sensitive to the winter sun just as much as my human form is, we went to our secret hiding place, staying away from all the other wolves, the one ordered to hurt us. 'Why they're doing that! Let me fight!' my wolf begs me, but I didn't want to fight them or get away, he's ready to go rogue to escape the pain we're going through every day and night, my wolf and the human form are both struggling with the miserable life we call ours, we want to get away, but we can't trust anyone, not my father either, he'd hunt us down and kill us. 'Stay down,' I order my wolf, ordering him to stay down to keep quiet while letting this day pass, it's better to be alone, it's better to be banned that going back and getting hurt again, although wolves can heal themselves, with how often I get injured, my body is filled with bruises, ones don't get enough time to heal before two others show instead. I closed my eyes and went to sleep, enjoy
Micah POV. The training was terrible, father joined us, he kept going for my neck, wanting to kill me maybe or just show his dominance over me, over and over again, it was getting old, but I couldn't submit to him every time, I couldn't let him win all the time, sometimes I want to win too. I was exhausted, but he wasn't going easy on us, he kept pushing us, I wanted to give in and fall on my back calling all of this off. "Push it you lazy arses," He yells, push it? I could hardly move anymore, but I had to move it, I kept moving until the day ended until I was too exhausted to stay up, finally allowed to leave back inside, we all had our dinner, the food we were allowed to eat around here, meet we hunt, our hard work, although burgers are always yummier. After dinner, a quick meal was shared between us, the betas, my mother, and Joshua, the rest of us just wanted to eat and run away, to go and hide in our rooms, while Joshua was enjoying the meal, talking with the others, talking
Jordan POV. My mate, I could smell my mate, I ignored the alpha, his cold harsh words about me trespassing while they were waiting for me here, that doesn't even make sense, my wolf, my human self, all my senses were locked to that boy, the guy with blond locks, the one that's running away from me now, I growled, 'mate loves to chase', my wolf says with a smile, he wants to chase after him too. "Are you even listening boy? what did the alpha send me a deficient wolf?" the alpha says at the mention of my mother yet again, I turned to him with a growl, how dare he talks about my mother or me, all I want to do is take my mate and run, I want to take him, but first I need to go and catch him. "What do you want?" I growl at him feeling angry, he's standing between me and my mate, the one I was dying to find, I found him, he's the best thing that ever happened to me, that's ever going to happen to me, I want him, I want to get to him, to hold him and hug him, and tell him how much I love