Friday's finally here and it couldn't have come soon enough.
I can see why Chrissy pushes me to get a life. I'm young and I feel like I live my life on repeat.
I wake up, go to work, come home, and sleep.
I'm surprised I haven’t fallen down the rabbits' hole into a state of depression. I think it's another reason why I’m so reluctant to agree to go on a date with Luca. I mean look at me, what do I have to offer a man like him? I'm a broken mess and I refuse to let an Italian- God try to fix me.
Sometimes I wonder to myself if I'll ever be ready to let a man into my life wholeheartedly...
Argh...
Why do I do this to myself?
Why do I feel like I'm not worthy?
Or, undeserving of love or being loved.
When will I stand up and scream “THIS IS ME and I'M BLOODY AWESOME?”
If I can’t learn to accept myself with all my flaws, how can I depend on someone else to?
I'm seriously going to end up like a crazy cat lady with a house full of strays instead of grandchildren.
I shiver at the mere thought of that being my future.
God.... Nessa!
Pull yourself together and get a life already woman. I sigh, walking over to the window and looking up at the sky.
My phone rings..
“Hello….” I answer on the third ring.
“I haven’t been able to get you off my mind, Cara Mia, You're slowly killing me here." He greets me hoarsely.
"Have dinner with me tonight?”
“What... no hello?” I titter playfully.
“Are you asking me or telling me to have dinner with you tonight?” I sit on the bed and lay back looking up towards the ceiling.
[Hello] “Salve Vanessa, Please have dinner with me … Tonight?” His voice becomes less demanding and laced with amusement.
“I’m not ready to sit down with you alone just yet,” I tell him honestly.
So much of THIS IS ME AND I'M BLOODY AWESOME....
My inner goddess laughs at me.
“Ditto, I don’t think I can trust myself around you either. I can’t even trust myself with you in my dreams, Bellissimo. But, I promise you that nothing will happen that you don’t want to. I’m not a complete animal. I. am .tameable." He replies roughly.
Tameable he reckons. I snicker.
I have a strong feeling this man can't be tamed no matter how much he believes he can be.
I decide to have a little fun of my own and test the waters.
“Well... You see the problem Luca is that I don’t know if I want you tamed. The wild dreams I’ve been having about you with your head stuck between my thighs… while I'm running my fingers through your hair… Pulling your face closer towards my rocking hips…… Is something more of a reality I’d like to test out? But there’s just one problem……”
“Being what?” He clears his throat sounding aroused.
“I’m still just……….. Not. that. into. you, It’s the whole me, not you...”
“I’ll be there around 8 pm to pick you up and... Vanessa, Don’t keep me waiting.” He grounds out.
Shit!
Tameable my ass!
Not the outcome I was gunning for.
“No! I didn’t mean to...” I start to argue.
“Should've thought about that before starting something you hadn’t planned on finishing” He cuts me off.
“I was just having some fun!”
"You said you were tameable."
"I lied." He declares.
I groan falling a victim to his games.
“I’ll be there at 8 pm.”.
“I SAID……”
BEEP, BEEP, BEEP……………. He hung up!
He hung up on me. I sit up and tap into my messages
Vanessa: I'm sorry but Im not available for dinner tonight.
DING…….
Luca: Don’t keep me waiting Vanessa. Dress comfortably.
I get up off the bed and start to pace the room.
This inner battle I seem to be fighting with Luca is getting tiring, especially when you’re fighting with yourself and you've only known of his existence days earlier.
I decide to take a stroll through the park across town to try and distract myself from constantly thinking about him and to get my emotions in order.
I want him..
But,
I'm like a scared little mouse who refuses to take the plunge and give love a shot.
>>>
When I return the door's wide open.
Chrissy must be back from work already... . I think to myself.
I make my way towards the kitchen and I can hear some light chit chat going on. One of the voices belongs to Chrissy and the other voice...
The closer I get to the kitchen the more familiar it becomes. I reach the kitchen and my eyes instantly land on the back of Luca's head. He’s sitting down on one of the stools chatting away to Chrissy.
“Lu…. Hm... Luca,” I stutter.
"You're here?" I ask gobsmacked.
Gracefully removing himself from the kitchen stool he approaches me as his lips slowly turn upwards into a heart-stopping smile.
“Dinner plans remember? It’s now……..” He looks down at his watch that clings nicely to his tanned wrist.
“Eight, fourteen pm. luckily I arrived just as your lovely friend Chrissy…”
He nods in Chrissy’s direction.
“Was opening the door. She was lovely enough to let me in while we waited for my very impulsive date to get back.” He plasters another smile on his very irritatingly handsome yet annoying face.
“Oh, dear Sir. However, will I forgive myself for making you wait for a dinner date that I continuously turned down? Oh, the horror Luca…” I touch my head with the back of my hand dramatically and when I look at him those luscious lips of his twitch.
“Luca,” I sober from my theatrics.
“I don’t know how many times I need to tell you I’m just not ready.” I put my hands on my hips.
“Liar!” Chrissy yells while dragging her ass off the stool walking towards me.
She reaches my side and loops our arms together then she spins us around and heads out towards the living room.
“Don’t go anywhere, she’ll be right back. I just need to talk some sense into her.” She throws over her shoulder...
“Chrissy, Seriously I’m not going to dinner with him,” I say through gritted teeth the moment we enter the living room.
“Oh yeah, you are Nessa, No more games or hiding. The guy's obviously into you. He's very charming and may I add. He looks like a sex god” She fans her face with the back of her hand.
“You have dinner with him and let me know how it goes,” I say as I cross my arms defensively.
“Oh come on Nessa.” She titters.
“Stop being so uptight will you?”
“I knew it!” I yell at her trying to keep my voice down.
“I am not uptight! I just... I just don’t want to go out with him.”
“You just don’t want to catch them feels.” She says as her eyes penetrate through me and touch my soul.
“Fine.” I throw my hands up in the air feeling defeated.
“But I’m not changing! If he wants dinner with me he’s going to have to enjoy my company like this” I glide my hands down my maxi dress with sandals.
“Deal.” His voice is seductively deep as he cuts in.
“But to be honest, anything you wear does crazy things to my libido.” A low growl escapes from him.
I spin around towards the living room entrance and find Luca leaning against the doorjamb with both hands shoved into the front pockets of his slacks. I hadn’t noticed him wearing a dark navy blue suit. The jacket definitely emphasises his broad shoulders.
Lord have mercy!
I sigh loudly.
“Were you eavesdropping on our conversation?”
He pushes off the doorjamb and starts to walk towards me.
“Can’t call it ears dropping if I wasn’t hiding and the doors wide open.” He smirks at me.
“I’ll call for my driver now that you’ve come to your senses. Si?”
“You’re a smug son-of-a-bitch aren’t you?” I sneer at him.
“I can be whatever you want me to be baby. But just remember... It was you that got yourself in this position.” He says and raises an eyebrow.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I look at him quizzically.
“Si, you do. You told me how you had pictured my head between you’re…”
“Oh god, Stop!” I cut him off.
“Nessa…. You said what?” Chrissy looks at me grinning.
I look at Luca and push my finger into his chest when he stops in front of me.
“Breath another word of that conversation… And I’ll make your life a living hell do you hear me?” I ground out scowling at him.
“Si, Is that a promise?” He winks at me.
“You’re unbelievable, do you ever not think with your dick?” I shake my head.
“Where you’re involved Tesoro[Treasure], My dick seems to do most of the thinking.” He licks his lips looking at mine.
“Don’t even think about it.” My palm itches to connect with his face.
“No, don’t stop! This is…. This is fucking awesome. There is so much sexual tension here it’s getting me all hot and flustered.” Chrissy bounces.
“Shut up Chrissy,” I growl, my eyes never leaving his.
“You have to let him have his wicked way with you Nessa. He’s visually eating you up girl.” She whispers in my ear.
“No.” I swallow the built-up saliva loudly.
I won’t make it out alive. I cringe inwardly.
“You light me up like a little firecracker Vanessa. “ He purrs.
“Get it, girl.” Chrissy pushes me. I stumble losing my balance and Luca catches me.
I look up at Luca as he looks down at me. His thumb grazes my cheek and I close my eyes giving into the sensations travelling through my body.
“You ready Cara Mia,” [my darling] Luca whispers in my ear.
“Uh… Yup.” I straighten and step away from him.
He is too close, too hot and too tempting.
“After you.” He smirks.
I walk towards the kitchen to retrieve my bag and take a few deep breaths before I’m left alone to walk into the Lion's Den.
“You can thank me later!” Chrissy yells from the living room.
That’s if I don’t end up suffocating you in your sleep when I return woman.
Oh, You're still here? You rock! Thank you😘
We step outside the house, and Lucas' hand is on the small of my back. He ushers me towards a big black SUV with tinted windows pulled up along the sidewalk. “A bit beastly, isn’t it?” I stop and stare in awe. “What can I say? I like my space and privacy.” The driver opens the door. He is middle-aged and very well-built. “Vanessa, this is Callum.” Luca introduces me to his driver. “Ms. Maddison, it was a pleasure to meet you.” Callum greets me, dipping his head with a slight smirk on his face. “Likewise, Callum.” I smile back at him. We get in the car, and it looks more spacious than what I would have imagined from the outside. “Privacy to do what?” I ask suspiciously. “Well, cara mio, I don’t tend to kiss and tell. But if you want to know, I have a few saucy stories I could share with you. They may even inspire you to let your hair down a bit.” My cheeks turn crimson red, and suddenly, I feel like a prude. “I’ll pass, thanks! Some stories are made to be kept a sec
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Luca nods and gently shifts me back onto the seat. He fixes his shirt, exits the car, and whispers something into Callums' ear before helping me out of the ‘Beast’. I look at Callum, whose face is as passive as always.“Thank you, Callum." I say with a smile. “Miss. Maddison, it's a pleasure as always. Have a good night.” I nod at his response and feel Lucas' hand rest on the small of my back. I look up at Luca as we approach the house. “What did you say to Callum?” I ask. “I told him that I won’t be needing him for a few hours, so he was free to do as he pleases.” We reach the top step, I pull out the keys and open the door. “After you, sir.” I whisper as I hold the door open for him. “Would you like something to drink?” I ask as I close the door behind me. “Not thirsty, more famished, tesoro.” I feel the heat of his body behind me. I lean into him and feel his warmth envelop me. “I want you to take me to your room, Vanessa.” His breath tickles my neck before he takes my ear
Luca slowly climbs onto the bed, positioning himself between my legs, and gently presses his lips against mine. He enters me with a gentle pace, and I can sense myself gradually accommodating the thickness of his girth. His tender kisses trace a path from my face to my neck, where he lingers, enveloping me completely. “You feel so good, tesoro. It’s like you were molded to fit me.” He withdraws from me at a leisurely pace, only to thrust back inside with increased intensity, causing a delightful surge of fulfillment to radiate through my core. “So… Good…" He pants. His thrusts are met with more urgency against my sex, bringing me closer to another mind-blowing orgasm of the century. I ground down on his cock, slowly circling my pelvic against him. Building the right friction to bring me over the edge. He shifts and positions himself differently, reaching my G-spot. His next thrust becomes my undoing. I claw my nails down his back and wrap my legs tightly around his waist, c
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