LOGINEira’s shoulders shook violently with every cough as she struggled to endure the pain in her chest and the burning sensation in her throat. She stood hunched over the sink—coughing up flower petals mixed with blood that seemed to be tearing at her throat.
The moment her coughing subsided, she stared at her reflection in the mirror. Her face was as pale as a corpse’s.
Her dazed gaze then shifted to the pool of blood and cherry blossom petals in the sink before her hand reached for the faucet and turned it on, letting what had just come out of her body flow down the drain.
The sound of her short, labored breaths filled the silence of the bathroom.
“Why?” Eira murmured. Her throat was too sore to speak aloud. “Why am I alive if only to be given this deadly pain?” she continued quietly.
There was a sense of anger at her fate, which consistently denied her happiness. Yet Eira only wanted to love Kael. But there was too much she had to pay to hope that Kael would love me just as much.
“WHY?!” Eira screamed at her reflection in the mirror, ignoring the burning pain that assaulted her.
But then her throat felt unbearably itchy again, causing her to cough once more and expel the same two things.
Blood and those damned cherry blossoms.
“Eira, can you go out onto the street if you want to scream like that?!”
Eira’s body jolted upon hearing Kael’s voice from outside her room. She quickly washed her hands and then rushed out to meet Kael.
“Are you crazy?! It’s rush hour, and you’re screaming like that?!” Kael scolded.
Eira bowed her head deeply and said, “I’m sorry.” That was all she could manage to say at the moment.
“If you’re so bored, just sell yourself and make some money instead of screaming like that. At least your moans would make money and lighten my load, damn it!” Kael cursed as he walked away, leaving Eira behind.
Hearing that, Eira felt as if she’d forgotten how to breathe the oxygen around her. It was as if thorny roots were tightening their grip on her heart and sprouting more and more cherry blossom petals for her to expel with excruciating pain.
Coughing up blood and those petals was truly bringing her closer to death.
Hanahaki.
That was how the disease deeply rooted in Eira’s body worked.
Hanahaki arose from unrequited love. Or more precisely, because Eira loved a man who hated her. The more Kael showed his hatred, the worse Eira’s condition became.
“Do you really want to stand there all day, you damn woman?”
Eira’s reverie was shattered. She immediately walked off to the kitchen to prepare breakfast before Kael left for the office.
But before her feet had even reached the kitchen, the loud ringing of the doorbell stopped her. Eira quickly turned to open the door for the guest who had arrived at the crack of dawn.
Eira’s eyes widened when she saw the familiar face standing at her front door.
“Hi,” she greeted her warmly.
A smile spread across Eira’s face as her mind processed the woman standing before her. Without a second thought, she immediately hugged the woman.
“Alice, you’re here!” she exclaimed happily.
Alice just rolled her eyes in annoyance at Eira’s reaction—that she was actually happy to see her. Reluctantly, she returned the hug before finally gently pushing Eira away.
Eira couldn’t hide the joy on her face. She was so happy to see her old friend—the only person who had ever made her feel like life was worth living while at Silvermoon Academy.
A dormitory for children abandoned by their parents due to the clan war.
“How are you, Alice? Did you come to visit me?” Eira asked.
Alice replied with an awkward smile while holding out two items to Eira.
“I’m sorry, Eira, for coming to your husband’s house without permission. Actually, I came to return your husband’s tie and belt,” she said.
When her eyes caught sight of the two items Alice was holding out, the smile on Eira’s face vanished instantly. Her mind raced, trying to figure out how her husband’s belongings had ended up with Alice.
the tie and belt
For some reason, her gaze shifted back to Alice. Her eyes scanned Alice’s outfit and her makeup.
So beautiful and sexy.
“Mr. Valerius left them at the hotel,” Alice explained without being asked.
“Ah, I see. Are you working as a hotel employee now?” Eira asked innocently.
Alice’s smile widened—cunningly. “Haha… no,” she replied.
Eira tried to think positively about what had happened between Alice, her husband, and the two items left behind at the hotel. But it seemed her dark thoughts were taking over.
“Where is Mr. Valerius?” Alice asked, peering inside the large house.
“What were you doing with my husband?” Eira asked, unable to contain her curiosity. However, she was afraid to hear the honest answer from her best friend.
Alice looked down on Eira. Judging Eira’s appearance as so disheveled and boring. On the other hand, she thought it was only natural that Kael would choose to seek entertainment with another woman if the woman in his own house couldn’t make him happy.
“What else? Of course, we’re having fun.”
Eira and Alice immediately turned toward the source of the voice, where Kael walked in and joined them, dressed neatly and ready for work.
Without so much as a glance at Eira, Kael roughly snatched the tie and belt from Eira’s hands and took both items with him.
“So, you were with This Slut all night, Kael?” Eira asked, her voice trembling.
“Yes.”
“I am a whore. So, I was just serving your husband as part of my job as a whore,” Alice replied casually.
“And I have the money to pay Alice,” Kael added as he stepped out of the house, while wrapping his arm around Alice.
Eira stood frozen in place, watching the two of them walk away from her affectionately. Her heart was shattered after realizing that Kael wasn’t just sleeping with another woman, but also a woman she knew well.
Her friend, whom Eira always turned to, was like home.
Kael meant what he said. He was so kind, doing everything Eira asked. If Eira said she didn’t want to see Kael, then Kael wouldn’t show his face. He listened to everything she said, hoping Eira would open her heart.Deep down, Kael still strongly believed that Eira might actually still love him. She had lost trust in him, so he was trying to regain her trust.“What kind of dress do you want for our wedding, Eira?” Kael asked on their way home.Kael always made a point of picking Eira up from work so she wouldn’t have to go home alone late at night.Sometimes Eira refused, but other times she accepted when she felt afraid to walk far by herself.“Anything. I’m not picky,” Eira replied without taking her eyes off the road.Kael let out a soft sigh. It turned out that Eira’s indifferent attitude actually hurt Kael’s feelings. Yet he couldn’t complain. How could he complain when his own behavior back then had been far, far worse than Eira’s attitude toward him now?“I think… there’s no ha
["Eira Crystalclaw."]A stir rippled through the crowd when Kael announced the name of the person destined to be his partner—a revelation broadcast live across the entire city.Eira had experienced this scenario three times before: once ending in marriage to Kael that lasted until her death; once being paired with Lucas because Kael had altered too many events after gaining a second chance at the past; and once again with Lucas—after she had finally traded away her capacity for love to the Moon Goddess.Eira truly desired no changes to her destiny. That was why she didn't even react when her name was called as Kael's destined soulmate.She had bartered away her love to secure a second chance at life—a chance to relive the past, but devoid of any feelings of love for anything or anyone.That was why the Hanahaki disease refused to leave her body; she had forcibly sacrificed her emotions. Even without that, the only way she had survived previously was through Kael’s love—a love for her
Eira stared at Kael with an expressionless gaze. She felt no anger, even though she knew everything Kael had done to her right up until the end of her life. Even now, just thinking about everything that had happened, there was no longer any pain gnawing at her soul.Everything felt fine—very fine. Flat.She had not the slightest desire to give vent to feelings of sadness, anger, or anything else.Her feelings were growing increasingly numb.“Forgive me for everything. I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness after all I’ve done. But please… at least accept my apology.” This was the first time Kael had truly set aside his sky-high arrogance in front of Eira.He truly humbled himself until his voice trembled, his gaze dimmed, and he bowed his head, not daring to meet Eira’s eyes. Like a dog that lowers its ears and tail because it knows it’s guilty.Eira let out a soft sigh, without saying a word. Right now, she didn’t want to discuss anything with Kael at all.If only her life were stil
They never spoke to each other...Kael returned home empty-handed. Eira acted as if they had never had a relationship; to make matters worse, just as Kael wanted to say more, he was swarmed by apartment residents, shocked to see him visiting such a run-down, shabby building."Has Eira really forgotten everything?" Kael muttered softly.Something didn't add up. Based on the memories he had received from his future self, he knew full well that any attempt to alter the past could cause memory corruption in the people around them.Kael stared intently at his calendar.The year 2019.In his previous life—or rather, in the first timeline—this was the year he had loathed Eira more than anything else. Yet, ironically, it was also the year they had interacted the most.Even after the future Kael returned to the past, he hadn't tried to change much about 2019. He lived in confusion, grappling with the chaotic memories of his two souls."Doesn't that mean next year was supposed to be my wedding
[Don't kill Eira again. I beg you... I have no more chances to go back to the past. Everything depends on you...]The voices from his future self made Kael's head feel like it was about to split open."I know! Shut up, damn it!" Kael shouted, violently pounding his own head.He collapsed, struggling against a suffocating tightness in his chest that refused to subside. The mere thought of how terribly he had treated Eira caused his body even more agony. Kael didn't truly understand why this was happening.His emotions were in turmoil. It felt as though thousands of hot needles were piercing his body whenever he recalled his past actions—and the memories his future self had imparted to him.Sensing light trying to creep in through his closed eyelids, Kael snapped his eyes open and found himself curled up on the cold floor of his home."Eira..." he whispered, trying to call out to her, believing for a moment that she was there.There was no response. Only silence mingled with Kael's soft
There was no sound between them except for their short, overlapping breaths. Eira also kept her head down, as if ignoring Kael’s presence there.“Eira—”“I’m sorry, Kael,” Eira murmured. Her voice was faint, but since it was the only sound around them, Kael could still hear it very clearly.“Why are you apologizing? You didn’t do anything wrong.”Eira shook her head slightly. “I can’t repay the debt I owe for ruining your future,” Eira continued.“So, you really already knew about everything that happened?”Now Eira lifted her face and looked at Kael with a sparkle in her eyes, a faint yet sincere smile, and a posture that suggested she was perfectly at peace with what would befall her in the future—without the slightest bit of resentment toward Kael, who had destroyed everything.“It’s like a dream…” Eira’s sentence trailed off. Kael was still waiting for her to continue, but at the same time, his vision suddenly blurred.His head was so filled with the sounds of crying, regret, and







