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Dear Diary
Dear Diary,
I don't know how long I can endure all of this...
All the feelings that shouldn't have been there from the beginning...
Yet, I always force them to exist...
I know that everything happens for a reason...
But I don't have a reason to love him...
I just feel it's right, and he is the right person for me to love...
Dear Diary,
No one knows the depths of the heart...
Like me, who can't guess what's in his heart, how he feels about me...
But one thing I know...
In my eyes, there is only him...
In my heart, his name is written...
Even in every prayer I utter, I always hope he becomes my man...
Yet You has spoken, that what I like may not be good for me, and what I don't like might be right for me...
So now I decide to surrender...
Because reaching him seems impossible...
So I let my heart find solace elsewhere...
Because I can't wait anymore.
Because I'm not that patient...
I will find happiness above his happiness... always... forever...
Let this feeling be stored in my heart, not to be forgotten, but just a reminder that at some point,
I loved him deeply...
And let the other side of my heart be open to receive the love that You have chosen for me...
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