Diezel."It's personal, and it's my fault. Caterina is a beautiful, loving woman who deserves a better man, and it's sad to say I'm not that man for her…It's not me, and I'm sorry."I turned off the TV without finishing the entire interview saga. I hate watching myself talk about it. Hurting people was never on my plan. I'm not that type of person, but lately, I have become a bad one."Damn, Dez… So, what's next?" Reeve jerked his head, smiling slightly.It's been five days since the family fun day event. I had a good time with my kids and, of course, with Anastacia. I can feel the thick wall she built in front of us getting demolished little by little.I want to be careful this time because I want her to trust me again, believe in me, and know that I am serious this time about her and the kids. "I'm fixing my mistake, Reeve. I want to create a family with my children and Anastacia. I won’t pretend anymore. This is how I truly feel, Reeve. I love her, and I will find my way back to
Anastacia."Go, Pappa! Go! Yes, yes!!"Panay ang talon at sigaw nina Zev at Skye. They cheered for their father, and I could only smile. Diezel was undeniably fast. He was nearly at the finish line, and when he finally crossed it, the twins ran toward him."Yeheey! Panalo si Pappa!" sigaw ni Zev.Binuhat lang din ni Diezel ang dalawa sa bawat bisig niya."Well done, Pappa. You're the best!" Skye kisses Diezel on his cheek.It's sack race for all the dads. Iikot sila sa sila sa unahan at kukunin ang mabigat na sako. Pasan nila ito sa balikat habang nag sa-sack-racing. Nanalo si Diezel. Hindi na bago dahil sa lahat ng mga lalaking ama na nandito ay siya lang din ang tanging naiiba."Tubig?" I gave him a lopsided smile as I offered it."Thank you." Ibinaba niya ang dalawa at saka ininom ang tubig. Napatingin na ako sa kambal, at mukhang hindi na yata hihinto ang ngiti sa labi nila.It's frustrating how things are right now. I have to pretend that I'm okay with this when I'm not. I need
Anastacia.Napabuntong-hininga ako sa sarili at tinakpan ko na ang tainga. Masyadong nakabibingi ang tawa ni Tessie. Pinagtitinginan na kami ng iilan sa loob ng Café Haus.Yesterday was a disaster. I made a plan, and that is to get Diezel to work everything around. Magdadamit ako ng seksi at maiiksi sa harapan niya para mainis siya at umalis na! Pero mukhang ako ang talunan, dahil ako ang umalis sa kanya.I was trying to do what he used to do back then. He used to flaunt in front of me almost naked."Don't worry. Keep doing what you're doing, Tacia. It will work. Makikita mo!" Tawa ulit niya. Hindi na nga nakakatuwa"Tumigil ka nga! Sinunod ko lang naman ang payo mo.""Kaya nga! You're doing the right thing, best friend. Don't worry. Mark my words."Bumagsak ang balikat ko sa inis. Simula kahapon ay panay na ang iwas ko sa kanya. Okay na sana eh. Ako dapat ang magdadamit seksi, pero bakit sa tuwing tinititigan ko siya na balot sa pawis ay nalulusaw ang tuhod ko sa kaba.He looks hot
Diezel.That hurts badly.Damn it. I deserve it."Aren't you going to do anything at all? Caterina is acting mad here. She’s quite literary-obsessed, Dez. She’s searching for you everywhere, and I doubt she will ever give up."Reeve is in the line, reporting everything that's been happening there.In the meantime, Reeve, Glenn, and Bryce are taking over my role. I informed Reeve of my whereabouts because he is the only person I can trust with this. But I didn't tell the other boys where I am now because I know my mother. She will use everything to find out about me."Just let her be. She will be fine." I shrugged my shoulders.Caterina is too dramatic with everything. I've stopped reading the articles online because it shits me.I clearly told her that there would be no more weddings and that I would never go back with her. We were done! But what she said the press was the opposite.She informed them that we are postponing the wedding to accommodate a new plan and that the wedding wi
Anastacia.Tulog na ang mga bata, pero ako? Hindi pa.I can't go to sleep no matter what I do. So, instead of rolling on my bed, I stood up, made a cup of black tea and head out, to the balcony.Madilim pero hindi masyado. Maliwanag ang buwan at tanaw ko ang iilang mga bagay sa paligid kasama na ang tent ni Diezel sa harapan mismo.It's good to see the solar lights around. Diezel and Skye put them up around the yard. Maliwanag na maliwanag tuloy ang labas at sari-sari ang mga kulay na lumalabas dahil sa mga solar lights.Napangiti ako sa sarili. Nakita ko na ang sa likod na bahagi. Mas bongga ang likod dahil nandoon ang cubbyhouse ng mga bata.May natural rainfall na solar lights, mayroon stars, at marami pa.Ang dami nga namang ginawa si Diezel ano? Hindi kaya siya nagpapakitang gilas lang dahil obligasyon niya naman ito? O baka napilitan lang din dahil sa mga bata.Huh, mas mabuting bumalik na lang siya sa syudad. Doon siya nababagay at hindi rito sa tagung bundok ng probinsya! Gu
Anastacia.For a change, it's good to see Samuel again. To describe my relationship with him? He's the person who always helped me.Kahit na walang-wala rin naman siya ay sinusubukan niyang tumulong sa abot ng kakayahan niya. Kaibigan ko lang siya, at hanggang doon lang iyon. Alam niya na prioridad ko ang kambal, at hindi pa ako handa sa ano man na relasyon.He did not ask for it anyway. He is happy to do whatever makes me happy."Is he living in your house?""Sa labas ng bahay siya natutulog. May tent siya sa labas." Ngumiwi ako. Imbes na si Gerald ang makakasama ko ngayon pauwi ay si Samuel na. May tricyle rin si Samuel. Ito ang ginagamit niya sa tuwing nandito siya. Namamasahero rin siya kagaya ni Gerald."At ang mga bata, okay na ba sila? Masaya ba na nakilala nila ang ama nila?""Oo, lalo na si Skye." Nakatingin lang ako sa malayo, at panay buntong-hininga ko."What about Zev? Is he okay?""Well, somewhat okay. You know him. He doesn't easily trust anyone.""I know… he doesn't t