Chapter 25 “opening up to people is a scam, don't do it” Sophie smith I was twenty three, and small for my age but had all the curves in the right places. My arms were twisted behind me, wrists bound together with rough yellow nylon rope. My legs were spread apart, my right foot tied tight to the leg of the heavy coffee table, the left to the wooden frame of the couch. The rope cut deep into my ankles, and blood trickled down my legs, mixing with the sweat and dirt that was poured on my skin. My face throbbed, swollen from the blows, one eye bulging and shut, the other barely open. Through the haze, I could see my father lounging in the armchair, a beer bottle dangling from his fingers. I didn’t look at the man on top of me. He was breathing hard, sweating, cursing under his breath. He was hurting me. When he finished, he slapped me so hard my head snapped to the side. He laughed, and my father laughed too. Then they laughed harder, doubling over like it was the funniest
Chapter 26"The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion." — Albert CamusIt felt so good to be back home. How ironic that the place I’d considered my prison only recently, was now my sanctuary. My first night back in America, I slept like a baby, luxuriating under the cosy sheets in the air-conditioned room. I was so comfortable it almost brought tears to my eyes. America was now my home, and I no longer felt bad about that.Reuniting with madam Maria had been another highlight. She’d leapt on me like we’d been separated for years, and not just a few short months. Thankfully, there was no ‘I told you so’ from her, and I appreciated that. I didn’t need to be reminded of the fact that, despite my fierce determination to leave, I’d returned to the mansion, tail between my legs.The rest of the domestic staff were also happy to have me back, and it didn’t take me long to settle back into my normal routine of
Chapter 27"There are no secrets that time does not reveal." — Jean RacineWhat wasn’t normal though was the minister's new lady love. Over time, he had relegated Amanda to being his companion only during the day, when she would saunter around the house like she owned it, dishing instructions to the staff. They minister had cleaned her up, so she no longer looked quite as dirty and unrefined as she used to. But that wasn’t even the bizarre part of the situation.One evening, I noticed him with another woman, a much younger woman this time. On the one hand, I was happy that Amanda's monopoly on the old man had come to an end, but on the other hand, I couldn’t help but feel threatened by the fact that his new woman looked almost as young as I did.She was very tall, over six feet, and even though she also wasn’t particularly pretty, she had more refinement than was the norm for his courtesans. As she walked into the lobby with h
Chapter 28"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." Ralph Waldo EmersonAfter a long bath, I applied my makeup very meticulously and wore a long, floral summer dress that flatters my body without making it look like I was trying too hard. Getting downstairs, I had my breakfast packed into a small basket and went to my garden with a book, under the guise of having a solo early morning picnic. But the truth was that I was eager to see Jason again. I sat out there for over an hour before I considered that he probably wouldn’t be at the ranch that day, and proceeded to eat my meal. The next day, I was also on the lookout for him, but just like the day before, and in the days that followed, he was nowhere to be found. With a sinking heart, I realised he might have been let go, or maybe he’d decided he wasn’t cut out for that kind of menial work.I was surprised by how upset both possibilities made m
Chapter 29 "We accept the love we think we deserve." Stephen Chbosky I didn’t go to my garden the next day, and from my window, I saw Jason milling around it, probably hoping to see me. I just couldn’t face him nor deal with my growing envy of him and his accomplishments. I kept away from the garden for a few more days, but the urge for the comfort my flowers gave me was soon too much of a pull. Almost a week after staying away, very early on a Saturday morning before most of the household awoke, I went down there to meditate. I knew I had to come up with a plan for my life, no matter how painful for me such a plan would be. “I thought I’d said something to offend you,” came Jason’s voice, making me jump. I hadn’t expected him to be there so early, and also on a Saturday. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you.” “Why are you here at the crack of dawn?” “I stayed over last night to help clean out the ponds and aviary,” he answered. “I take on any additional wo
Chapter 30"Love is not about how many days, months, or years you have been together. Love is about how much you love each other every single day." — Unknown“Not here,” he whispered against my ears. “Not out here in the open.”I tried to pull him back as he rose to his feet, not ready to stop, not wanting to stop. But as he pulled away, I had no choice but to stand as well, suddenly feeling ashamed of myself for my want on behaviour. I was angered by his rejection and desperately wanted to get as far away from him as I could. As I made to shove past him into the house, he held my hand…and I melted into butter all over again.“My queen, you are everything I have ever dreamt of,” he said, planting small kisses from my hand all the way up my arm and right up to my shoulder blade. “Everything.”I closed my eyes and groaned softly as his lips now wandered along my neck. Never before had I felt this kind of sexual desire. With the three
Chapter 31"The heart wants what it wants. There's no logic to these things. You meet someone and you fall in love and that's that." — Woody Allen“I’ll never forget the first day I saw you,” he said later on, as we sat leaning on a boulder, his arm draped around my neck, and my head on his chest. “It was in the fruit market, and you were there with the older housekeeper. I didn’t think you were a real human being. In fact, I thought you were a goddess or something. You didn’t look like you were from this world.”I smiled. “I’m sure you were still in your diapers then, so you hadn’t seen much of the world yourself.”He chuckled. “You’re not that much older than I am, Zeynep. Three years is nothing in today’s world.”“It’s four actually, and that’s plenty where I come from,” I answered, the smile on my lips fading. “You’re too young for me, Jason. This can’t lead anywhere.”He titled up my chin. “Says who? Make no mistake about it, zeyne
Chapter 32"When love is lost, do not bow your head in sadness; instead, keep your head up high and gaze into heaven, for that is where your broken heart has been sent to heal." — UnknownYou’re not up for anything? I see. No problem,” he said with a stiff smile. “I guess that means you will forfeit what I brought for you then.”I shrugged, totally indifferent. “That’s fine.” Nothing he could possibly have brought could be of any interest to me.As I walked away, I felt like I had won the lottery. Ibrahim would never again have access to my body. I couldn’t help feeling regretful that I wouldn’t present myself as a virgin when Jason and I finally did make love. But I knew he didn’t mind. I knew he had accepted me just the way I was, and it made me love him all the more.But then things took a morbid turn.One morning, as I descended the stairs for breakfast, I heard madam Maria wailing from the kitchen. Rushing there, I saw her s
Chapter 79“There is no escape. Death will come, and it will come for us all.” — UnknownHe takes advantage of my shock to pull me back in the room.I want us to die in each other’s arms,” he says, his hands roaming my body as he lowers his face to mine. “Our naked bodies entwined in perfect union. That’s the way they will find us, loving each other even unto death.”Before his lips can claim mine, I reach for the now empty jewellery box on my table and smash it on his head with all the strength I can muster.He lets out an anguished yelp as he releases me, and I take the opportunity to run out of the room.Where ?, I have no idea. I run down the corridor towards the flames, hoping I can make my way downstairs somehow. But as I approach the stairs, the searing heat keeps me from attempting to go any further. The fire is raging furiously, obliterating the stairwell and, from what it appears, the entire lower floor. He must have started the fire d
Chapter 78"The most dangerous people are the ones who pretend to be your friend until they have the chance to become your executioner." — Unknown“That’s a nice hair style you have there. It seems strange seeing you without your head scarf,” comes a voice from the door. “I didn’t think I would find you here.”Even though the worst is over, hearing that voice still sends shivers down my spine.“Good evening,” I say to Ibrahim, as he walks into the room. “Something came up. I’ll be leaving tomorrow.”“May I join you?” he asks, smiling at my glass of wine. I shrug, and he proceeds to pour himself a glass. “I hear you were able to sell the place for a tidy amount of money.”I shrug again, not wanting to go into any details with him.“I’ve also put up the bakery and the house in New-York for sale,” he says. “My family and I are moving to Washington. With Dad gone, there isn’t much for me here anymore.”I don’t answer, and he sets his glass down. “Zeyne
Chapter 77."And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." — Anaïs NinAt his lip’s touch, I feel myself blossom like the flowers that have now been discarded on the floor. Our kiss binds not just our lips…but our hearts and our souls. Cupping his face with my hands, I want to remain in that position forever. I want him to whisk me off my feet, take me to my bedroom, and make passionate love to me. And from his heavy breathing, I can tell he wants that as well.But then he pulls away and gives me a tender kiss on my forehead, bringing me also back to my senses. There will be plenty of time for us to explore each other…in every way possible. But not here. Not in this house.We walk inside, hand in hand, and sitting in the living room, I tell him about all that has transpired in the months since we have seen; my shocking inheritance from the minister and the even more shocking amount the r
Chapter 76 ."Out of difficulties grow miracles." – Jean de La BruyèreTears pool in my eyes as the contents of the note hit me like a slap in the face. Jacobi has left me, and despite what he has written, there is a high chance that he might not return. My heart, soul and spirit are crushed. Without him, what is there to look forward to?Early the next morning, Catherine eaves for New-York. By noon, the minister’s lawyer arrived. Barrister Evans is the minister's longtime associate, who was even part of the contingent that accompanied him to India when he came to marry me. A pleasant man who wears his age just as regally as his friend did, he is one of the minster's cronies who never lusted after me once, and was always genuinely nice to me. But today, sitting before us in the living room, he isn’t his usual humorous and playful self. He is here for serious business. He coughs before he starts to read.I, Omar royale wahah , a legal ad
Chapter 75 "“Some goodbyes are not farewells; they are promises to return or maybe not Unknown.But one thing I have not forgotten is the love of my life. Jacobi.The day after the manhunt for madam Maria i, I heard he was released from police custody, and I regretted afresh not having the wisdom to have saved his phone number when I had the chance. With madam Maria, the only person who could have helped me with it, I was even more regretful of the loss of the person I had once considered my closest ally in the house. As the days rolled by, but with no word from him, I have had to accept that he had probably realised I just wasn’t worth all that trouble. On my account alone, he lost his father’s hospital and was almost imprisoned for a crime he didn’t commit. Nobody would blame him for walking away from someone so toxic.But just when I have brought myself to accept that, this time, I have lost him forever, and that I will just have to m
“I am no bird; and no net ensnares me: I am a free human being with an independent will.” — Charlotte Brontë, Jane EyreThe call came at 4:12 a.m.I was already awake, lying rigidly atop the silk sheets he insisted I sleep on, staring into the heavy darkness. The phone rang—sharp, slicing through the stillness—and even before I heard the soft knock at my door, I knew.I knew but ignorance was a tool dangerous in the Right hands."The Minister has passed,and his burial will be held in the coming days" the news reporter whispered, her voice trembling.Maybe he was one of her benefactors too.Passed.Such a gentle word for a man who had been anything but gentle.Dead.Gone.Just like that.I swung my legs over the side of the bed and sat there, feeling absolutely nothing. No gasp, no collapse to the floor. No tears.Only a strange, hollow stillness in my chest, as if I had been emptied out long ago.The Great Minister. The champion of reforms.The man loved by the people — a
"And suddenly you know… It’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings." – Meister EckhartHer eyes clouded with tears, and I turned back to look at the officer. “Can I speak with her in private first?” When he hesitates, I add. “I promise, she’ll answer all your questions later. Just give me the chance to talk to her first…to get her more comfortable.”That seems to do the trick, and he nods in agreement. I look at Ibrahim and Yusuf, and neither one expresses any reservation.Taking Catherine's hand, we enter the old vintage house. “Are you the only one home?”She nods, her body shaking like a leaf. “Zeynep, I didn’t know she was going to do it. Please, don’t let them take me.”“Nobody is going to arrest or take you,” I coax her.She wipes her eyes. “I know you’re angry with me. Angry because of…”“Because of the minister ? Catherine, you should know better. I wish you had trusted me enough to tell me. I thought we were friends,”
“Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.” — Stephen King“Poor girl, you don’t know how much I pitied you every time you came here, thinking she was your friend,” he said, still looking at me. “Almost from the moment you arrived, she did everything she could to get you out. I used to shake my head as she encouraged you to continue to receive that one,” he beckoned at Ibrahim with his chin, “in your bed, deceiving you that it was the only way to have some footing in the house, though she knew full well that the more accepting you were of his son, the more it angered Omar and pushed you away from him. She thought he would have sent you away years ago and didn’t anticipate you staying for as long as you have.”“But the minister had so many other women. Amanda, Clara, Lauralee, Clementina…just to name a few,” I say, my head still spinning. “I was the least of her problems.”“You were the one he ca
“The axe forgets, but the tree remembers.” — African Proverb“Where is maria?” Ibrahim demands.That soon becomes the question on everybody’s lips. Where is madam maria?Mary answers when she is summoned to the room. “I don’t know where she is. She hasn’t come upstairs today.”That in itself is an ominous sign, as madam maria has not for one day missed coming up from her basement apartment. Even when she hasn’t felt her best, she has at least ventured up to monitor the progress of work.“Let’s not get too hasty,” I pleaded. “Anyone could have intercepted the minister's meals. Let’s not jump to the conclusion that she did it.”“I agree,” Yusuf supports. “There’s no way madam maria could have done such a thing. Have you seen the state of her since he died? She’s even taking it worse than the rest of us.”“Nobody is suspecting her,” officer mark clarifies. “It’s just important that I ask her a few questions about who she believes might have had a