This Bonus Scene happens after Chapter 23 when they are in the Library. EthanโWhat about you two?โ Rio packed his bag and looked at Kiara. She was solving a math problem, nibbling on a pencil as I shamelessly stared at her plum lips which were holding the pencil. Lucky pencil.I cleared my throat and when I finally averted my eyes from Kiara to Rio. He was smirking at me and wriggling his eyebrows. I glared at him and said, โKiara will come with me (haha). Iโve to help her with the answer is 669, Bella.โ I corrected her answer with the same pencil was between her lips and showed her the correct method.Rio snickered when Kiara shot daggers between me and her notes and let out an annoying mumble, โI hate you.โ I love you too.My cheeks became warm as I looked away when he said, โOkay, lovebirds. Donโt stay up too late, the library will close soon.โ Rio was the only one left with us because he had to work on his history. Everyone else had left because they were too tired after stud
Hey Ethan, If you are reading this, then Iโm sure that I did it. I am gone. Just like that. I have so many things to say to you, but itโs ironic how I have no words. I know you have many unanswered questions as well but donโt worry, E, youโll find out why I did it. And why I had to. Please do me a favor and read this journal.I hid all of this from you and I deeply apologize for that. I wish I was brave enough to face you and talk to you about all of this. But I am not. I am coward and selfish. I am sorry. I hope you will be able to forgive me, Ethan. These are the entries of my days and Iโll be fair with you, you wonโt like it. Sometimes you will hate me and love me. Sometimes you wonโt feel anything at all. I was tired of keeping this from you, so here it is.You were my everything, and I was nothing . . . I am sorry for losing you.Love, KiaraIf you want, you can join Mahi Mistry's Facebook Group or Page: Author Mahi Mistry and also follow her on Instagram @authormahimistry t
PART ONEโI was a mess. You were my saving grace, so I had to let you go.โONE20th May, SundayHey Ethan,You know the rush of feeling you have the day before your birthday? The excited rumble in your churning stomach? The dizzy, strange happiness in your brain? Before everyone surprises you?Yeah, the one I feel every year before going to bed and crying on my pillow.I used to hate my birthdays, wondering why I was even born. I mean, the world would be a better place without me, eh?But then, you, the worldโs best friend, my best friend, always made it special. You bought me zoo tickets last year, and we had so much fun holding the snakes. You were so scared to hold a Tricolor Hognose, you almost cried letting her go. That was so precious! And yes, I still have your scared photos, and no, I am not giving it back.Remember how both of us tried to talk to the snakes? To see whether we were Parseltongue or not and you even glared at the guard who was giving us skeptical looks. We had
eleven30th June, SundayYou ignored me when I snuck into your room today. I was hurt, but I kept myself together and explained to you I needed to be alone for two days. But I swear I saw a hint of a smile when I said that Iโd brought you your favorite bundi ladoos to make peace.As we both bonded over the sweets, I didnโt dare to tell you about Liam. How he dragged me away from the edge. I kept hitting him and punching him, but he scolded me and dragged me to his car, locking me in.I had fought with him, called him things, but he didnโt listen and threw his jacket at me because my entire body was trembling. I had never seen him so red and furious. After driving aimlessly for a while and ignoring me, he stopped the car in our parking area and asked me one simple question,โWhy, Kiara?โThatโs when I looked away and cried. He stayed silent as my sobs echoed in his car. He had asked me why and truthfully, either I had many reasons or no reason at all. I wanted to say something, but I c
twenty one20th August, MondayI wonโt apologize for not writing daily because I canโt keep up with a routineโyou of all people know that.Seems like we all are hiding secrets from each other.But my question to you is that, are you keeping it a secret to protect me? Because you know why I kept all this shit from you, to protect you. From me.I donโt think you are protecting me by hiding it. I can see the words slut written on my locker, E. You canโt just go around punching every guy who passed by my locker. But itโs okay. They are just words and I am fine with it.You donโt have to do anything about it. I am fine.Love,Kiaratwenty two25th August, SaturdayDid I ever mention that you would make a great boyfriend? Not that we are in a relationship, but I could tell from eighteen years of us being best friends . . . and doing other deeds.Yeah, just wanted to get that out. Iโll get back to cuddling you because youโre already whining in your sleep. Even though youโre three times my si
PART TWOโI wish I had never loved you.โ1. You Will Use the Safe WordEthanI stared deadly at the pen stand, my heavy-lidded eyes barely staying up. Fuck. I need to sleep. Then I remembered how I had slept last night and smiled. โEthan!โ My skin jumped, my eyes fluttering open and blinking at my agent, Elliot Warner, with wide innocent eyes. I rubbed my eyes and shuffled in my seat. I drawled, โWhat now? Am I getting detention again?โ He sighed audibly, a sign that I had fucked up badly this time. Not going to lie, I had been fucking up since last year, so he has been sighing a lot. I wouldnโt be surprised if I was the reason behind the white thinning hair on his sides. โNot detention. But our sponsors are cutting the endorsement deals,โ he ran a hand through his hair and sat down behind his massive oak wood desk and lit up a cigar. The stench of smoke woke me up from the hangover, my skin crawling with the need to put the cigarette in between my lips and inhaleโNo, we are not
2. Bedroom EyesKiaraI gathered all the test papers I had graded last night and organized them according to the studentsโ names while two pairs of eyes watched me from their tiny desks. Sighing, I raised my brow at them, โWhat happened? Why are you two frowning?โI couldnโt blame them. They were the only kids left in my classroom while others were in the cafeteria, having fun with their friends and eating lunch.Ben swung his legs, sitting on the desk. It wasnโt allowed, but I didnโt mind. โDo you really have to call in my mom, Miss Kiara?โ he asked, his voice small. I gave him a reassuring smile and cleaned up the desk. โYes, Ben, you know the drill. We call in parents when teachers need to talk to parents about some stuff.โ I didnโt need to tell him all the details. He was still a kid. I would talk about it with his parents.Andrew Wu stopped doodling in his notebook. His light brown eyes, similar to his momโs, narrowed in confusion. โWhat will you tell Mom? You talk to her ever
3. She was my Saving Grace tooEthanโSo, you mean to tell me you punched him and went to cuddle with Aretta?โ I glared at his smug grin through my sunglasses. โYes, Liam, I went to meet Aretta but for other reasons. And I donโt cuddle.โโYeah, right, as if I didnโt catch you cuddling Evey last month,โ he said, opening the door of the cafรฉ, the scent of freshly ground coffee wafting in my nose as I followed my friend. โShe is my little sister.โ I missed her a lot because I had to leave San Diego for NYU, and then I couldnโt spend as much time with her as I would like to. But I made it up to her and my parents every time I visited them. I met Liam again at NYU. He had applied for the same swim program that me and Rio had, so it was no surprise to find him there. Soon, we talked out everything between us, and since then, we have been good friends. We sat in the corner booth, because we didnโt need to draw attention to ourselves, and ordered breakfast. โSo, how serious is HR?โ He as
Bonus Scene TenEthanโHow are you feeling now?โ I asked Kiara who was lying down on the hospital bed wincing now and then because of the contractions. She tried to give me a reassuring smile, โI am okay, just waiting to hold them in my arms.โ I kissed her forehead, smiling down at her beautiful brown gold eyes. โI will be right here, Bella. Itโs going to be okay.โ Squeezing her hand, I sat beside her, talking to her in whispers. Kiaraโs water had broke the night before after dinner and we had settled in the hospital room, the nurse had mentioned that it will take a while before she can give birth as her diameter wasnโt wide enough. That was twenty-four hours ago. The twins were definitely taking time coming into the world. I made sure she was as relaxed as possible, feeding her and holding her when she got afraid, thinking about our previous miscarriages. My mothers arrived and talked with her while her teary-eyed father watched her from the distance, congratulating me. โBabeโฆโ
Bonus Scene NineKiaraโBaby please,โ I begged, pouting and batting my lashes at my husband who was busy making a tie. โYou wonโt be late for the meeting, you know how much I want you.โ The babies kicked at my stomach, making me caress my growing belly while I shamelessly ogled at Ethan. His tan skin and the way his shirt stretched over his shoulders. The same shoulders where my legs had stayed last night until he had made me cum with his mouth, ordering me to play with my nipples while he tongue fucked me to oblivion. He looked up at me with narrowed eyes which grew softer seeing me caress my heavily pregnant stomach. He walked closer and kissed my stomach, the babies kicking again, knowing their daddyโs touch. Ethan smiled and gave me a chaste kiss on the lips, making me frown. โNo, Kiara,โ he said sternly. โYou said that last week and I was an hour late to the meeting.โโThat was not my fault,โ I argued back. โWe had a quickie and then you told meโno, you ordered me to stay stil
Bonus Scene EightEthanAfter the dinner, three of us sat together for a while, drinking wine and listening to Khalid talk about his country. As he told us about the highly proficient education system, I pointed Kiara not to have another glass of wine. I didnโt want her to drink too much for what we were going to do later that night. I had promised her we would do anything she wanted, and I wanted to keep that promise. Only if both of us were sober. Khalid left, giving me a hug and congratulating both of us again. After thanking the staff for the delicious food, we went upstairs hand in hand. The sexual tension of what would happen next hovered heavily between us.I kept glancing at Kiara from the corner of my eye when she stripped out of her dress and wearing a flimsy white robe that did nothing to hide her beautiful curves. I had to control myself when she went to do her nighttime routine and joined her to brush my teeth in sweatpants. โAre you going to tell me what you want, Bell
Bonus Scene SevenKiaraI couldnโt handle the dry heat anymore and by the sound of sand and heavy wind, I had figured that we were in some type of dessert. I squeezed Ethanโs hand just to be relieved that he was still sitting beside me in the car. โCome on, Ethan, tell me where are we going,โ I asked him, touching the blindfold around my eyes which he had tied when we landed on the โsurpriseโ place from a private plane. โI know itโs some type of dessert.โ โWait a little longer,โ he said, his voice husky and sounding deeper than before. โHave patience, Bella.โ I tried to relax in the leather seat but I couldnโt, shifting nervously and fumbling with my fingers on the lap. I wanted to know where he was taking me. I wanted to know what the surprise was. I wanted to see him, my Ethan. I wanted to kiss him and make love to him. The past few days after our Indian wedding, we were busy with having everything ready for our honeymoon trip and Ethan wouldnโt tell me where we were going. He ev
Bonus Scene SixEthanโYou look like an Indian Prince, sweetheart,โ my mom said, helping me with the red turban I had to wear with the red and golden shervani. It stretched over my broad shoulders and tapered down to my waist, reaching my knees. It was beautiful with intricate designs and patterns of gold. My mom was exaggerations, as most mothers do, but I could feel that I looked special wearing it. Like a Prince or King ready to marry his bride and whisk her away. I wondered how beautiful my Bella would look tonight wearing her bridal lehenga. My mothers had prohibited me from seeing it and Kiara agreed with them. I was suppose to see her at the mandap tonight with everyone else. Sadly, I wonโt be able to ask her to remove her underwear like I had during our western wedding because I knew it might make her uncomfortable in the lehenga. Liam, Rio and Volt were ready wearing the similar shades of blue in a shervani with the blue turban. Both of my mothers dotted on them, applying
Bonus Scene FiveEthanI was surrounded by Kiaraโs uncles and aunties, pinching my cheeks and applying some kind of turmeric paste on my arms and face and feet. Kiara had mentioned that Haldi ceremony would include strangers applying the paste on your skin with Mango leaves to get glowing skin on the day of wedding, but I didnโt think people would take this so seriously. Liam said that Kiara was getting the same treatment and I hope she was doing okay. Indian traditional music with various classical instruments played in the background, people talking and laughing as they enjoyed themselves with Indian sweets. I was sure that I had gained six pounds just by inhaling the delicious food and snacks that were going around. โHey.โ I asked Liam, โWhatโs up with you and Deepika? Kiaraโs cousin?โ His grey eyes turned to me, his eyebrows raising a fraction. โWhat do you mean?โI rolled my eyes, โLiam, I have known you since you were seven, I noticedโeven Kiara did, how you looked at her.โH
Bonus Scene FourKiaraโAre you sure you donโt want to drink wine?โ Katherine asked, shuffling her gorgeous navy blue bridesmaid dress. โI even snuck in a bottle of gin for you.โAnya shot her a warning look and walked up to stand beside me. She looked stunning with her features sharp, her silky black hair woven in a low bun. โDo you need anything, Kiara?โ โNo, thank you, Anya. I am feeling a little overwhelmed wearing this dress. It feels unreal,โ I ended with a nervous chuckle, my hands smoothening over the white satin of the wedding dress. It hugged the curves of my body and even showed little cleavage. It was modest, but it was stunning. I felt beautiful in it. Anya squeezed my shoulder in reassurance while Katherine told me to take a small gulp of gin. They both started talking about how it was not a good idea for the bride to reek of alcohol on her wedding day, moments before she walks down the aisle. I was too distracted by the nervous flutter in my belly, knowing that I was
Bonus Scene ThreeKiaraMy aunt wanted to talk to me, and sadly, I had to go with her. Ethan was pouting at me when I had to leave. I was sad because I wanted to spend some time with him before the wedding.I bit back my smile and followed my aunt. I still couldnโt believe that I would be Ethanโs wife and he would be my husband. I shivered thinking about sharing my life with that man who looked devilishly handsome in the navy blue kurta waiting for me in my childhood bedroom. My fingers roamed around the rim of my engagement ring. This is real. We are getting married. I had been following my aunt while she introduced to me my entire family which was currently together in dadโs hometown to celebrate Diwali. I might have to ask Ethan to massage my back because it had started aching after bowing so much and accepting everyones blessings. A nervous giggled escaped my throat when an old lady who was my fatherโs neighbor smacked a kiss on my cheek, holding my head. My aunt held back her l
Bonus Scene TwoEthanโAre you sure?โI cleared my throat and looked at Kiara. She squeezed my hand, nodding reassuringly at her father and grandmother. She looked so fucking beautiful in light makeup, her blood-red lips, the small bindi on her forehead and wearing large earrings, jhumkas, on her ears. Her hair tumbled down her hot red blouse and just thinking about that morning, watching her get ready in the sari made me squirm in my seat. Was it bad that seeing her in Indian clothes made me want to lock us in a room and fuck her while she was wearing a sari?Hold it in your pants, Eiffel. Not the right time to think about Kiara in her sari and how hot she looks.My eyes averted to the man who was drilling holes in my skull and swallowed the lump in my throat. โYes, papa. In how many languages do I have to answer you?โ I took a sharp breath, hearing her voice. She was clearly not amused by her fatherโs question. Mr Vijay Sharma looked at me as if I was asking his permission to reco