"I was with Erik, kissing." I pause, and look at Larkin, who is glaring at me, but not like he's mad at me. I can tell where the irritation is pointed towards. "It came up that it was my first time... kissing." He growls again and looks away. "And I happened to ask how many partners he'd had. I didn't know that he was the one who kept the species going." I look down, fiddling with my fingers. "I don't really know why I ran. It just... hurts. I guess. To know everyone I had come across so far could have slept with him. Meanwhile, he was my first kiss." I roll my eyes at myself and clench my fists. This was a different world, with different rules. I shouldn't be so uptight.
But I can't help it.
I was raised around Mann, as they called them, and Mann liked to at least pretend to be loyal.
This made no sense. I stayed hidden in the shadows, mouth agape as I stared at the man who was supposed to be dead. He looked exactly the same. How was that possible? It had been years, he should have aged. Even my mother had gained some smile lines and gray hairs here and there over the years. He was holding my mother’s hands, comforting her as she looked down at the table. “How long has she been gone now?” My dad asks in a low voice. My mom lets out a shaky breath before speaking, “Six months maybe?” I blink, thinking. It definitely had not been six months. A month tops, maybe. My dad nods a little. “Time passes differently there. She will have only felt like she’s been gone for a month or so at most.” Seriously? Time was passing faster in this world than in the new one I was living in?“What if she’s hurt, or lost, or hungry? She doesn’t know anything about that place.” I feel a little offended at her assumption I was failing, but tried to remember she was just worried about m
“So… how is this going to work?” I sigh, opening my eyes again to glare up at Larkin, who was leaning over me as I lay on my bed.“Like I’ve already said, I’ve been telling myself all day I want to visit my mother when I go to sleep, so hopefully it’ll work like it did last time and my subconscious will make it happen for me.”Larkin makes that same slightly unhappy face he’d been making since I told him what my plan was yesterday, like it worried him. I wasn’t sure why, but he had insisted on at least being in the same room as me when it happened. At first I had said no, I could do this alone. Then he’d threatened to fill Erik in on what I was doing and I quickly caved. It’s not like I was hiding it from Erik, per say. Why would I? I wasn’t doing anything particularly dangerous, I wasn’t actually “going” anywhere so it’s not like I would be walking around unguarded with Griffin out there.I was just laying down in our bed and going to sleep. That’s it.“What if it doesn’t work?” Lar
“No, I’ve been talking to my bosses about maybe getting a promotion. I've been there for a while so I have the experience, just not the technical skills quite yet.”“Oh that’s good dear. You don’t want to lose this house, after all. I mean I’m sure you’ll be getting some insurance money, but we all know that won’t last forever.” My eyes slid to my aunt Annie, who had her hand resting on my mother’s as she asked her about how she was going to keep paying the bills all by her little self. I hated that patronizing tone everyone kept taking with us. Like we were weak, small children left alone by our daddy. Like now that he was gone, we had no place in the world. “No, no, we won’t.” My mom gives her a reassuring smile, and pulls her hand out from under hers. “I’m going to check on the casseroles.” She says, her eyes already glazed out and elsewhere as she stands up and walks into the kitchen, where some of the older aunts are fussing over getting lunch ready.“That poor woman.” My gaze
Four years ago…“Why do I have to wear this?” I’m standing in front of my bedroom mirror, glaring at my mother in the reflection. She was behind me, a straightening iron in her hand as she patiently flattened each strand of my wavy brown hair out. “You should look nice today.” Is all she says, her voice that same quiet, even tone it had been since dad had died. I glance at her in the mirror, just watching her for a moment. Her gaze was unfocused, but fixed on my hair like it was the only thing in the world that mattered. Like getting it nice and flat was the biggest thing going on right now. She’d been so… out of it lately. I understood why, but it was still jarring to see my mom acting so… human.I could hear footsteps throughout the rest of the house, up and down the hallway, in the bathroom, through the kitchen. Voices carried, hushed as they tried to be. “What do you think they’ll do now?”“She won’t lose the house, will she?”“He seemed so young and healthy.”“Did he even leav
The following week was not fun for me. After the scene with who we now knew for sure was Griffin, Erik and Larkin were on high alert. Which meant one of them was always tailing after me, sticking their nose in my business and acting like I was made of glass. At first, I wasn’t too annoyed by it. I understand where they’re coming from; we were caught off guard and Griffin could have done anything he wanted to me. We all knew it. I was defenseless, especially against someone like him. So I’d been okay with the constant babysitting and micromanaging. At first.I’d stopped being okay with it… four days ago. When Erik busted in on me while I was in the tub. I mean, he’d seen me naked before, that wasn’t the issue. The two other guards he’d had with him who’d gotten an eyeful of my suds covered tits was what irritated me.Currently, I was attempting to sneak out. I wanted to go talk to my Alder, alone. Without Erik, specifically. I just knew if he knew what I was planning on doing, he wo
“Ah, who do we have here?” The Gud asks, grinning and circling around Erik. “Is this your…”I see his eyes flick down to my ankle, and notice the flash of recognition in them when he spots my anklets. “He is your husband.” He confirms, turning back to Erik to look him up and down, like he was assessing him. “How did a weak little man like you snag yourself a goddess?” He taunts, obviously trying to get a reaction out of Erik.It works, because I can see Erik’s face contorting in anger and his hand moving to rest on the hilt of his sword. His grip on it clenches and unclenches, and I could imagine the internal debate he was probably having right now. I hadn’t really seen Erik in a real fight yet, just training and stuff like that. But something was telling me he was more than capable of holding his own, especially with that giant sword on his hip.“Why are you here?” Erik asks. I’m impressed, because I’m sure that wasn’t what he really wanted to say. He was exhibiting some serious self
Red eyes that seemed to shine through the shadows of the trees as he appeared before me. Tall and wide, an irritated expression on his face.Before me stood the Gud, the main person I was trying to stay away from currently. I’m pressed against the wall, my three dragons in front of me, like they were prepared to protect me. I knew they were still too young though, too small and inexperienced to be able to really do anything.“Hello, pretty little thing.” I freeze, turning my face away as he closes the distance between us, easily shoving Binny aside with his foot to stand in front of me. His hand reaches up, and grabs a strand of my hair. He starts wrapping it around his finger, looking at it like it fascinated him. I swallowed thickly, doing everything in my power to keep my voice steady. “Why are you here?” I ask, my face still turned away from him as he brought my strand of hair up to his face and smelled it. His eyes fluttered shut as he inhaled, and I glanced at him. He did have
Fifteen minutes later, I was sitting outside of me and Erik’s bedroom window, watching Binny and Bacus wrestle playfully while Beatrix sat on the ground with me, pressed against my leg. She was watching them too, her eyes narrowed on them like she was judging them. I had come here because I had been hoping Erik had stomped off to our room, and maybe I could try to make him a little less angry. I’d been pretty disappointed when he was nowhere to be found. I could’ve gone to his office where I’m sure he actually was, still working, but I didn’t really want to get in a fight with him right now, and it kind of felt like we were on the cusp of one.So I’d sat outside with my dragons alone, just enjoying the warm night breeze. I sighed, resting my chin on my knees. What a complicated life I’d straddled myself with. “You okay?” I jump a little at the sound of a voice suddenly, and turn to see Larkin lingering a few feet away, looking down at me. I cursed a little eternally, because he w
“Thank you again, for doing this.” I say to Larkin as I lead him and his men to their prepared rooms a few hours later.They’d arrived just after the sun started setting, so I told them to rest for a little, clean up if they’d like, and we’d get dinner and drinks ready for them. Larkin looked a little surprised and… maybe a bit smug about the good treatment. I’m sure he was expecting something more along the lines of what Erik was going to do, shared rooms with no space. “Course. I gotta say, the dragons have really taken a liking to you.” When they’d first approached over the hill in a group, looking rather intimidating, the dragons had reacted to say the least. I’d been waiting with a few Alva and my dragons, and as soon as they’d locked onto them, they’d charged them head on, seemingly prepared to fight despite their immature size and age.They’d only stopped when I told them to, scolded them was more accurate. They’d shrunk and sat down by my feet, looking up at me with big sad e