I shake my head, and turn to my right, making my way through the treeline, trying to push that very strange encounter to the back of my mind. The forest is pleasantly thick, but not so thick that I can’t see far enough ahead of me. I walk for about ten minutes before I can see a house to my left a few hundred feet ahead. I assume that’s the boy’s house, which hopefully means the field shouldn’t be too much farther ahead. I have no idea if that’s actually true, since I’ve only been here one time and in one place. But I was trying to be hopeful.
I walk quickly, feeling slightly pressed for time. Last time it was days before I could come back, what if it’s longer this time? What if it’s a week, or a month, or a year? I don’t really know this boy too much, but for some reason the thought of not seeing him for a year makes my heart knot up. I laughed at myself a little. I had dreaded coming back here so much, but really only because I knew how much it would hurt to get ripped away from it again.
The tight feeling in my chest makes my bare feet move faster. I barely feel the sticks, pine needles, and rocks stabbing into my flesh. I barely register the gorgeous, huge trees covered in wet moss and flowers blooming in the moonlight around me. As beautiful as it was, it wasn’t what was on my mind right now.
All I can think about is how much my chest hurts.
I run by the house, which I can see now is man made. It’s one story, with a roof that’s sagging inwards. It's surrounded by thick overgrown bushes with flowers blooming from it, and the sides are home to a dark green moss. It’s definitely not like any house I’ve ever seen before. More like a shed, really. I can hear voices leaking from the cracks in the iffy wall, and can smell meat cooking and bread baking. My curiosity peaks, but I press on. I’ll try the field first, and if he’s not there, then the house. I didn’t want to risk bumping into anyone else if I could help it.
A few more hundred feet, and I come to the field.
It’s just like I remember. Long, luscious grass, vividly colored glowing flowers scattered in clumps.
“Delilah?” I hear his voice, and my eyes search frantically for his face.
When I find it, my heart melts. He looks so glad to see me, but I can still see the layer of worry in his eyes at my presence. Why was I so invested in this guy? I had probably asked myself that question ten times now, but it didn’t stop the skip in my heart at the sight of him.
He was to the edge of the field, but now he jogs towards me. He stops abruptly in front of me, bringing along the smell of fresh bread and blood with him.
“How did you get here?” He asks, cupping my cheeks. His hands are rough from years of manual labor, but I still lean into them. They’re warm and comforting in this strange place. It’s weird, I can feel his hands, but only just so. Kind of like he was made of bubbles.
“Well, a girl woke me up and I was laying in the middle of a different field. She kind of gave me directions to you but she was acting really sketchy-”
“I don’t know how you’re here right now.” He interrupts. I furrow my brow at him, shifting my weight to my other foot and grabbing his hands that still cupped my face with my own.
“Do you not want to see me?” I ask, the inner corners of my eyes tingling. Was I about to be rejected in my own dream?
“No, no. Of course I want to see you. But Delilah …” He pauses, looking around me towards the house. The forest seems quieter than before, more still. Even the wind is waiting to see what he’s going to say next. “ I can’t explain this to you here. It’s not safe… too many people may be listening.” I furrow my brow at his words, looking around us. There was literally no one.
What did he know that I didn't?
“Please, I need to understand. Why do these dreams seem so real? Who are you? Where did you come from?” I drop our hands down, taking a step away from him. “Why am I so… connected to you.” I whisper the last part, clenching and unclenching my hands desperately.
“Look, I can’t explain everything to you right now. I don’t exactly know who saw you or where you came from, but if she wasn’t one of my people, she’s with them, and they will stop at nothing to get to you once they know you’re here…” he turns away, running his hands over his face and hair. “I wish she hadn’t seen you… they know what you look like now. Now everyone will be trying to get their hands on you. I hope she was one of us.”
“They? Hello? What the hell is happening? I came here to see you and now you're acting like I’m in danger.” He stops for a second to look at me, and I see the look in his eye soften a little.
“My love, what you are doing right now is not a normal thing to be doing, you know that, right?” I shake my head.
“What do you mean, what I’m doing? I’m not doing anything? You came to me first, I’m sorry If I misunderstood.” I turn away, the burn of rejection in my throat.
“I did not mean it like that.” I still at his soft touch on my arm. “You… you are doing something that no one has been able to do for a very long time. It is more worrisome that you don’t even know you are doing it… you could get stuck in a dream if you’re not careful. I mean I'm not even asleep..."
“Stuck in a dream?” I turn back to him, my breath catching at the sight of him. He was only inches from me, already staring down into my eyes intensely.
“I need to stop, before I tell you too much and get us both into trouble. But I will say this, you need to stop visiting me like this.” My heart sinks. I was visiting him? How? “It’s too dangerous. I should have left you alone while I still had the chance. This place I’m in… it has more secrets than I care to admit. And if anyone knew you were here, they would want to keep you for themselves and bend your mind to their will.”
“This place you’re… in?” Was this… a real place? I was still holding onto the hope that I was just having really, really, vivid dreams. But those words… Was I visiting a real place? Was I talking to a real person right now? And he said I was… visiting… him. What did that mean?
Suddenly, the guy's head snaps to the left, towards the trees. I follow his gaze, crinkling my brow at the change in the air. I could feel my hair standing up, and ears were prickling with the taunt of noise.
Voices.
I could see light coming through the forest, too.
“They’re coming for you, Delilah.” I look up at him, furrowing my brow.
He grabs my hand, and starts dragging me across the field. “Who’s they? Why are they coming for me? Why does it even matter? I’m dreaming right now, aren’t I?” I would really like an answer on that last question, mystery man.
“You… kind of are dreaming. It's not the same as last time. We were both asleep then.” We duck under branches and step over rocks as we break through the treeline on the other side of the field, him pulling me by the wrist the entire time. Why did it sound like he kept saying he wasn't asleep? Then how was I seeing him right now? And how was he seeing me?
I look over my shoulder as I realize the voices are getting closer.
“Little flower?” I stop suddenly at the sound of a voice, maybe thirty feet away, calling into the night. I felt almost hyper focused on it. Something in me longed to hear it again, longed to hear it read me to sleep and whisper sweet nothings into my ear.
I look up at the guy, my eyes wide. What was this feeling flowing through me? Why did I feel like I needed to see who that voice belonged to?
“It’s time to wake up.” I gasp as I realize he’s grabbing me by the back of my neck and pulling me closer to his face. There was a strange look in his eyes, and he definitely looked annoyed. I was so focused on the looks on his face, I almost didn’t realize what he was doing. Why he grabbed me.
Oh my god.
Was he about to kiss me?
This made no sense. I stayed hidden in the shadows, mouth agape as I stared at the man who was supposed to be dead. He looked exactly the same. How was that possible? It had been years, he should have aged. Even my mother had gained some smile lines and gray hairs here and there over the years. He was holding my mother’s hands, comforting her as she looked down at the table. “How long has she been gone now?” My dad asks in a low voice. My mom lets out a shaky breath before speaking, “Six months maybe?” I blink, thinking. It definitely had not been six months. A month tops, maybe. My dad nods a little. “Time passes differently there. She will have only felt like she’s been gone for a month or so at most.” Seriously? Time was passing faster in this world than in the new one I was living in?“What if she’s hurt, or lost, or hungry? She doesn’t know anything about that place.” I feel a little offended at her assumption I was failing, but tried to remember she was just worried about m
“So… how is this going to work?” I sigh, opening my eyes again to glare up at Larkin, who was leaning over me as I lay on my bed.“Like I’ve already said, I’ve been telling myself all day I want to visit my mother when I go to sleep, so hopefully it’ll work like it did last time and my subconscious will make it happen for me.”Larkin makes that same slightly unhappy face he’d been making since I told him what my plan was yesterday, like it worried him. I wasn’t sure why, but he had insisted on at least being in the same room as me when it happened. At first I had said no, I could do this alone. Then he’d threatened to fill Erik in on what I was doing and I quickly caved. It’s not like I was hiding it from Erik, per say. Why would I? I wasn’t doing anything particularly dangerous, I wasn’t actually “going” anywhere so it’s not like I would be walking around unguarded with Griffin out there.I was just laying down in our bed and going to sleep. That’s it.“What if it doesn’t work?” Lar
“No, I’ve been talking to my bosses about maybe getting a promotion. I've been there for a while so I have the experience, just not the technical skills quite yet.”“Oh that’s good dear. You don’t want to lose this house, after all. I mean I’m sure you’ll be getting some insurance money, but we all know that won’t last forever.” My eyes slid to my aunt Annie, who had her hand resting on my mother’s as she asked her about how she was going to keep paying the bills all by her little self. I hated that patronizing tone everyone kept taking with us. Like we were weak, small children left alone by our daddy. Like now that he was gone, we had no place in the world. “No, no, we won’t.” My mom gives her a reassuring smile, and pulls her hand out from under hers. “I’m going to check on the casseroles.” She says, her eyes already glazed out and elsewhere as she stands up and walks into the kitchen, where some of the older aunts are fussing over getting lunch ready.“That poor woman.” My gaze
Four years ago…“Why do I have to wear this?” I’m standing in front of my bedroom mirror, glaring at my mother in the reflection. She was behind me, a straightening iron in her hand as she patiently flattened each strand of my wavy brown hair out. “You should look nice today.” Is all she says, her voice that same quiet, even tone it had been since dad had died. I glance at her in the mirror, just watching her for a moment. Her gaze was unfocused, but fixed on my hair like it was the only thing in the world that mattered. Like getting it nice and flat was the biggest thing going on right now. She’d been so… out of it lately. I understood why, but it was still jarring to see my mom acting so… human.I could hear footsteps throughout the rest of the house, up and down the hallway, in the bathroom, through the kitchen. Voices carried, hushed as they tried to be. “What do you think they’ll do now?”“She won’t lose the house, will she?”“He seemed so young and healthy.”“Did he even leav
The following week was not fun for me. After the scene with who we now knew for sure was Griffin, Erik and Larkin were on high alert. Which meant one of them was always tailing after me, sticking their nose in my business and acting like I was made of glass. At first, I wasn’t too annoyed by it. I understand where they’re coming from; we were caught off guard and Griffin could have done anything he wanted to me. We all knew it. I was defenseless, especially against someone like him. So I’d been okay with the constant babysitting and micromanaging. At first.I’d stopped being okay with it… four days ago. When Erik busted in on me while I was in the tub. I mean, he’d seen me naked before, that wasn’t the issue. The two other guards he’d had with him who’d gotten an eyeful of my suds covered tits was what irritated me.Currently, I was attempting to sneak out. I wanted to go talk to my Alder, alone. Without Erik, specifically. I just knew if he knew what I was planning on doing, he wo
“Ah, who do we have here?” The Gud asks, grinning and circling around Erik. “Is this your…”I see his eyes flick down to my ankle, and notice the flash of recognition in them when he spots my anklets. “He is your husband.” He confirms, turning back to Erik to look him up and down, like he was assessing him. “How did a weak little man like you snag yourself a goddess?” He taunts, obviously trying to get a reaction out of Erik.It works, because I can see Erik’s face contorting in anger and his hand moving to rest on the hilt of his sword. His grip on it clenches and unclenches, and I could imagine the internal debate he was probably having right now. I hadn’t really seen Erik in a real fight yet, just training and stuff like that. But something was telling me he was more than capable of holding his own, especially with that giant sword on his hip.“Why are you here?” Erik asks. I’m impressed, because I’m sure that wasn’t what he really wanted to say. He was exhibiting some serious self
Red eyes that seemed to shine through the shadows of the trees as he appeared before me. Tall and wide, an irritated expression on his face.Before me stood the Gud, the main person I was trying to stay away from currently. I’m pressed against the wall, my three dragons in front of me, like they were prepared to protect me. I knew they were still too young though, too small and inexperienced to be able to really do anything.“Hello, pretty little thing.” I freeze, turning my face away as he closes the distance between us, easily shoving Binny aside with his foot to stand in front of me. His hand reaches up, and grabs a strand of my hair. He starts wrapping it around his finger, looking at it like it fascinated him. I swallowed thickly, doing everything in my power to keep my voice steady. “Why are you here?” I ask, my face still turned away from him as he brought my strand of hair up to his face and smelled it. His eyes fluttered shut as he inhaled, and I glanced at him. He did have
Fifteen minutes later, I was sitting outside of me and Erik’s bedroom window, watching Binny and Bacus wrestle playfully while Beatrix sat on the ground with me, pressed against my leg. She was watching them too, her eyes narrowed on them like she was judging them. I had come here because I had been hoping Erik had stomped off to our room, and maybe I could try to make him a little less angry. I’d been pretty disappointed when he was nowhere to be found. I could’ve gone to his office where I’m sure he actually was, still working, but I didn’t really want to get in a fight with him right now, and it kind of felt like we were on the cusp of one.So I’d sat outside with my dragons alone, just enjoying the warm night breeze. I sighed, resting my chin on my knees. What a complicated life I’d straddled myself with. “You okay?” I jump a little at the sound of a voice suddenly, and turn to see Larkin lingering a few feet away, looking down at me. I cursed a little eternally, because he w
“Thank you again, for doing this.” I say to Larkin as I lead him and his men to their prepared rooms a few hours later.They’d arrived just after the sun started setting, so I told them to rest for a little, clean up if they’d like, and we’d get dinner and drinks ready for them. Larkin looked a little surprised and… maybe a bit smug about the good treatment. I’m sure he was expecting something more along the lines of what Erik was going to do, shared rooms with no space. “Course. I gotta say, the dragons have really taken a liking to you.” When they’d first approached over the hill in a group, looking rather intimidating, the dragons had reacted to say the least. I’d been waiting with a few Alva and my dragons, and as soon as they’d locked onto them, they’d charged them head on, seemingly prepared to fight despite their immature size and age.They’d only stopped when I told them to, scolded them was more accurate. They’d shrunk and sat down by my feet, looking up at me with big sad e