Chapter 10

Cleo

I don't know how to feel . Physically I am tired and all I want to know is if Ava is okay so to that ; I can hold her and kiss her ,and shower her with the love and affection she deserves. She needs to know that she is loved and she like the twins is loved unconditionally. I have been drifting in and out of consciousness and it's draining my energy. It feels as if my own body is fighting with me . The moment I feel like I can will my eyes to open ; I end up drifting back into a state of limbo and it sucks . 

I stopped fighting with my body after I don't know how many attempts to wake up and gave in . I hate not being in control of what I can controll . In a short amount of time Angelo and I have been through hell and back. It feels as if we are constantly fighting a losing battle. Just when I think we are okay another spanner is thrown into the works and we are in crisis management mode. It feels as if f